An Abby POV based on the 'I Do' episode, 12x9. Lyrics are from Tegan and Sara – Where does the good go(again..) Thanks to Ella, my ER soulmate !


And here we were again, just like the day beforeyesterday. His hands holding my hands. We had slept together. I don't feel any regret, or any pain. I'm just scared, scared of loosing the friendship that we so have carefully build up. This "thing," if you can all it that, can ruin it. Damn it, why did I sleep with him? Just call it: Abby and Luka's "second part." Second part? It sounds so big. But who has really said that this is a second part? Luka. He had said it. "I do". Two words, two words that could turn the world upside down. He wanted to, just like me. Can you feel split? You want one thing, but don't want to loose another. Tragic thing... you can't eat the cake, but still have it in you hand. If I fall, I hope that he will be the one who catches me.
We are just searching for happiness. Maybe this is the way that it has to be. Maybe this is the way it is meant to be.

Look me in the heart and tell me you won't go
Look me in the eye and promise no love's like our love