AN: It is my duty to inform you that I in no way, shape, or form own the Teen Titans.
Chapter 5: Let Go!
Beast Boy slammed his fists against Ravens door. "Raven, stop doing this!" he yelled through her door above the sound of his raging fists.
"Leave me alone!" she growled back.
"I don't want to!" he said.
"Why not?!" she asked.
"Because I care about you!" he yelled. "God, what is with you? I know you want people to think that you don't want anyone to help you, but I know you do! You're just too stubborn to realize it. I want to help you, Raven. Just let me help you!"
Raven suddenly felt her emotions getting dangerously close to breaking free. She was angry, nervous, sad, shocked, and most of all she wanted to be comforted. She did want help, but she didn't want anyone to think she needed it. She was Raven, strong and independent. What would people think if she asked for help?
"Raven?" she heard him say. He was standing right behind her, after sneaking under her door again. She twisted around and saw him standing there, and she had to tilt her head up to look into his eyes. "Let me be there for you. Please?"
Raven bit her lip and felt a horrid lump grow in her throat, scratching it mercilessly. She bowed her head and said in a voice so quiet that only Beast Boy's sensitive ears could hear it, "You can't be there for me."
"Why not?" he asked tilting her head up by placing his hand under her chin.
"Because I can't be saved, Beast Boy," she said with tears falling from her violet eyes. "So there's no point in you wasting your time on a demon like me."
"You're not a demon!" he said, shocked.
"Yes I am," she said, pulling her face out of his hand and walking away. "I'm half demon, but I might as well be whole."
"Why would you say something like that?" he asked, walking over to her.
"Because it's true," she said, crossing her arms. "I'm evil and not worth your help. I'm just trying to get through life the best I can, causing the least amount of damage I can."
"How could you think you're evil?" he asked. "Raven, you've saved hundreds of lives. Hell, you've saved the whole damn planet! You've saved billions. An evil person wouldn't do anything like that. You're not evil, Raven. You're not."
Raven felt more tears fall down her cheeks and she took a seat on her bed, getting very frustrated with these bloody emotions. "Beast Boy, I'm starting to lose control of my emotions. You better leave."
"No," he said sitting down next to her. "We're finally getting somewhere. This is good for you. You need to talk."
"Oh, this coming from the guy who never talks about his past," she snapped. "You act like you've had a great life when I know your life sucked. You never talk about what happened in your past, and here you are trying to get me to talk? To open up? Well I'm not going to you hypocrite!"
"Fine, you want to know about my past?" he snapped back.
"I know about your past," she said back. "You might not know this, but I have problems keeping my mind from entering and wandering around others when I'm asleep. So I've seen all of your memories. I know about your life, Beast Boy."
"Well thanks for telling me!" he said angrily. "You talk about how you hate having your privacy invaded, and then you turn around and go inside my head and look through my memories? I'm not the hypocrite here, you are!"
"Get out of my room!" she shrieked, causing her shelves to snap and fall off the wall and her window to crack. Tears were really pouring down her cheeks now. She was losing it.
"No!" he yelled back. "Yell at me, Raven! Cry! Scream! Let it all out!"
"You're trying to make me lose control?!" she screamed in shock. "You jerk! How can you do this to me? You know what'll happen if I lose control! My demon side will get out!"
"No it won't, I promise!" he yelled at her and grabbed her hands. "Just let go! Tell me what's wrong! Why are you so angry? What is it that keeps you up at night? Why were you crying? Tell me!"
"I'll never be loved!" she screamed. Her bed split in half and the whole tower began to shake. Her powers were seeping out of her and everything was either flying around, melting, or exploding. Beast Boy kept a good hold of Ravens hands and the two ended up falling off the bed, but they sat on their knees. "No one will ever want to love me! I'm too evil!" By this point her eyes had gone white with her powers. She had now completely lost control.
Beast Boy stayed calm all the while. She began to cry hysterically and he brought her into his arms. There was a virtual hurricane around them, but he never let go of her. Every piece of furniture snapped in half and everything else was exploding. The energy pouring out of Raven was strong and caused the entire tower to shake. Then it got very chaotic and soon large pieces of debris began to fly right at them. Beast Boy held her tight and fell to his side, so they wouldn't be hit. He had to protect her.
But then, in a heartbeat, everything began to drop to the ground. Raven was holding onto Beast Boy tightly, her face buried in his chest. She began to breathe and try to calm her lung spasms. Beast Boy could feel her shaking in his arms and as everything calmed down he transitioned from holding to hugging her.
Slowly he loosened his grip so he could get a look at her. She shakily backed away from his chest and looked up at him. Her eyes were red and really brought out how violet and full of wisdom they were. Her lips were swollen and her cheeks were red and raw.
"Feeling better?" he asked.
She looked at him for about three seconds before collapsing in his arms. She was out; she was done. She had used up all of her energy and was completely empty. All of her frustration, her anger, all of her fears, her secrets, they were all exposed and no longer lingered within her mind.
Beast Boy scooped her up and carried her out of her now completely destroyed room. He took her to his room, which was completely rearranged, which he kind of liked, and lay her down on his seldom used bottom bunk. He never used it, so it was clean; other than a few pieces of discarded clothes. He lay her down and covered her with a blanket. She was still shaking but for the first time she looked empty.
While she lay there unconscious he decided to scan the tower to see the damage that had been done. He began to grow nervous as he went from room to room. The common room was turned upside down and he knew Cyborg was going to fall to his knees and cry when he saw it. Other than Ravens room, all of their personal room hadn't been destroyed as much. Everything was just rearranged or flipped over. He decided to call the Titans and let them know what was going on, so they didn't come home and think they had been under attack while they were at the mall.
Beast Boy grabbed his communicator and pushed the button that connected him to the other Titans communicators. He waited about three seconds before Robin's face filled the small screen.
"Beast Boy?" he asked. "What's going on? Is that city being attacked?"
"No," said Beast Boy.
"Then why'd you call?" he asked, slightly aggravated.
"Well, the tower's kinda trashed," said Beast Boy plainly, trying not to get Robin excited.
"You trashed the tower?" he asked, upset.
"Yo man, what's goin on?" asked Cyborg, who entered the conversation on a different part of the screen.
"Beast Boy trashed the tower," said Robin.
"You did what?" yelled Cyborg. "We've only been gone a few hours!"
"Please, what has happened to the tower?" asked Starfire, pushing Robin out of the way to look into his communicator.
"Grass head trashed the tower!" said Cyborg.
"Hey, I never said I trashed the tower!" said Beast Boy.
"Oh, and I suppose you're gonna tell us that Raven trashed it," snorted Cyborg.
"Yeah, she kinda did," sighed Beast Boy, looking around.
"Why would friend Raven destroy our home?" asked Starfire.
"I made her lose control," said Beast Boy.
"You pissed her off that much!" said Robin.
"Yeah, but I had to," said Beast Boy.
The other three Titans looked at him for a moment. "Beast Boy, you made Raven lose her control on purpose?" asked Starfire.
"Yup," he said plainly.
It was quiet again.
"HAVE YOU LOST YOUR MIND!" screamed Cyborg and Robin.
"Guys, it needed to be done," said Beast Boy confidently. "She was going to lose it sooner or later anyway, so I helped her do it without her going completely insane. Trust me, she had a lot of pent up stuff in her head."
"Where is she now?" asked Starfire.
"She's asleep," said Beast Boy. "She passed out when it was over. Look, I just called to give you a heads up. You're not gonna like what you see when you come home, but everything's fixable and movable. So don't freak out and please don't say anything to Raven about this. Just trust me when I say that it had to be done."
Robin sighed. "Alright, but we're coming home right now," he said. "We'll see you in a few minutes."
"Okay, but remember, don't freak!" said Beast Boy before signing out.
He sighed and made his way back to Raven. While she slept he began to clean up his room, so it would at least be presentable when she woke up. He made sure to be quiet; even though he was sure she wouldn't be strong enough to wake up for a while. He would occasionally look over at her sleeping body. She looked so… loose; like she was a piece of spaghetti. Ever since he had known her she had always been so stiff and almost robotic. Now she was sprawled out on Beast Boy's bed with one of her arms hanging off and her head barely resting on the pillow it was so cocked to the side.
Soon the other Titans returned home and were stunned at the damage. As Beast Boy had predicted, Cyborg fell to his knees and began to cry about his poor entertainment system that was now shattered and smoking. They got right to work fixing the tower up. They did their own rooms first and then went to the common room. Beast Boy showed them Raven and they all agreed that she looked different. He then showed them her room and they all were truly shocked by the damage that had been done. They weren't even going to attempt fixing it. Raven would just have to stay with Beast Boy, who seemed to know what she needed.
It was 8:45 at night when Raven finally began to stir. Beast Boy had finally gotten his room back to the way he liked it, only it was clean and his bed and desk were against totally different walls now, and heard her start to wake up. He went over to her and knelt down next to her. She breathed in deeply and her eyes fluttered.
Everything was blurry, except for something green next to her. Slowly her eyes adjusted and she saw that it was Beast Boy. She had no strength within her and she was a little confused as to what had happened. He smiled kindly.
"How are you feeling?" he asked.
"Weak," was all she managed to peep out.
"I'll go make you some tea," he said sweetly. "Does that sound good?"
"Yes," she said and nodded with what little strength she had.
Beast Boy noticed the strange angle Ravens head was in. "Do you want me to move your head back onto the pillow?" She nodded weakly. He smiled and gently moved her head. Then he jumped up and went off to make her some tea.
Raven looked around the room, unsure of where she was. She had never really been in Beast Boy's room, so she really questioned where she could be. She tried to lift her arm, but there was absolutely no energy within her. She sighed and closed her eyes. Even her eye lids felt heavy.
Beast Boy returned with the tea and helped her sit up and drink it. Her lips quivered as the porcelain cup touched them. She could barely keep her head up and she was scared of it falling right onto the cup.
"Where am I?" she asked at last.
"You're in my room," said Beast Boy.
"Why?" she asked as he helped her take another sip.
"Because your room is wrecked," he said calmly. Raven looked at him queerly, then began to remember what had happened. "So until we fix it up, you're gonna bunk in here with me. Don't worry, I'm gonna take good care of you."
"Good care of me?" she asked, trying to get mad but found no energy to do so. "You made me lose control of my powers and I nearly killed us both and destroyed the tower. How is that taking care of me?"
"You may not realize it right now," he said calmly, paying no head to her comments. "But you really needed what happened today."
"How can you say that?" she asked, confused.
"You need to rest, Raven," he said letting her finish the tea. "We'll argue about this tomorrow, okay?"
Raven really wanted to yell at him, but she couldn't even hold her head up on her own. So she slowly nodded and he helped her lie back down. She was already tired out, even though she had only been awake for fifteen minutes.
