It's different when you're with someone who understands.

As much as the circumstances dictated I push him away, I needed him too badly to let go. At the end of the day, I'm just a normal girl in an absurd situation. We want to believe we can live that kind of life, but humans aren't solitary creatures. We need companionship, we crave understanding.

We need someone who can touch not just our bodies, but the very core of who we are. We crave that feeling of affinity and, even knowing that the moment is fleeting, we indulge in it anyway.