I woke in the afternoon to Jakki's arguing. Jakki and her boyfriend were at it again. She was going out with Montague. The poor guy was kept down last year, although I am not all that surprised. Don't mention this to Jakki.

'Don't yell at me!' She squealed at him and he hit the door frame with his fist.

'Don't tell me what to do!' He challenged back.

I got up and came over to them, hoping to just leave the room. They can continue fighting.

'What do you want?!' He yelled at me.

'To get through.' I said calmly.

'What, am I – blocking your way am I?' He said sarcastically.

'Yes, your head is too far up your arse for me to get through. Now shut the hell up and let me through.' I screamed at him. Ah, I loved being like this.

'How about you shut up!' He said to me whacking me in the face with his fist.

Blood was running from my nose. Wiping my nose with the back of my hand, I got up and pushed Montague backwards.

'You, you are a stupid, yes DUMB STUPID PUREBLOOD! And you' I turned to Jakki, 'I thought you were my friend. Well you know what, if you care more about boys that your friends, go off and be a slut and get pregnant! Then you'll get the attention you want!'

I was fuming, It wasn't half as bad he punched me, what worried me was that Jakki took no noticed, just kept arguing.

I walked past them wiping my nose. Thank god Gregory, you know, Goyle, was down the hall, I so needed someone to talk to. And I mean, he may not be a smart cookie, but he's always been kind to me, besides Draco's probably off torturing muggleborns anyway. Reminds me, I need to see Hermione again, she seems to always have the answers.

'Goyle..' I sniffed.

'What happened to you?' He said handing me a tissue.

'Montague.'

'Fighting with your friend again?'

'Yep.' I said wiping my nose on the tissue. Greg was gorgeous, I don't mean like looks, cause that's just wrong.. But I mean he's just so kind, not sweet, but yeah.. kind.

'Draco will teach him a lesson.'

'No, No way is he to, I mean it!'

'Chrissi,' He said hugging his arm around my shoulder, 'Draco would do anything for you.'

I nodded, I mean what would I say?

'Just don't let him fight, if he would do anything for me, tell him not to fight.'

I walked up the corridor towards the courtyard, still blooded up a bit but, river water would help that, plus the river was warming, best place to dip your toes into water.

I saw Ron sitting at the waters edge. He isn't much of a friend to me, doesn't trust Slytherin's but he was upset, I couldn't leave him.

'What's wrong?'

'Nuthin..' Ron said, he was staring at the water. Men are so difficult! Why must they hide their feelings, then again I can't imagine any of the guys running around bursting into tears.

'Come on, tell me, I might be able to help.' I said smiling, he looked at me and opened his mouth.

'What happened to you?!'

'Uh, I ran into a fist, anyway this is about you, carry on!' I said wiping my nose.

'I don't think Hermione likes me anymore..'

'Why?' I couldn't think of a possible reason to why she wouldn't..

'Well we.. um were going to.. you know..' His ears turned red, aww how cute he was blushing!

'Yeah I get the drift..'

'Well.. I'm not sure whether this should be a guy conversation...'

'To do with girth?'

He hung his head.

'Come on, I know a lot on this subject.' Ron stared at me.. Man did that sound slutty or what!

'I mean, I hang with boys, I haven't.. I'm a virgin.' He propped up an eyebrow and smirked.

'Pfft, Honestly, so what's the problem?'

'Well I couldn't get it up..'

'First time??'

'Yeah.. well with a girl.' I dunno if I was blushing, Ronald Weasley that will give me disturbing images.. Now I know Draco and Ron do that.. sheesh, I bet Harry does it too.. Oh My God.. Too much info..

'It's performance pressure hun.'

'What?'

'When you are like 'oh god.. I hope it comes up..' and its less likely too.. the more you think bout it, the less it will happen.'

'So, I'm not like..deformed?'

'I sure think you are fine.. just.. remember, Hermione is under just as much stress.'

'What about..'

'Well us girls, we have this big dilemma. Is our Arse to big? Do we smell? Are we nice and slim and toned, are we perfect..'

'But Hermione is gorgeous, I love her..'

'Well remember, she loves you too.'

Ron smiled. I solved a problem.. A guy problem.. Man. Am I good or what?!

'Thanks.'

'No probs.'

'Ron!' Hermione rushed down from the steps, and both Ron and I turned to watch her run down.

'Hermione! I love you!' Ron said getting up and running to Hermione.

'I love you too! And don't worry bout the problem its natural in boys and their first...'

'It's ok, she knows..' Ron said, and I giggled.

'It's ok Hermione, I ain't a slut.' I smiled and got up and started walking in the water at the edge of the lake.

Hermione and Ron were chatting for ages. I walked up to them and asked Ron something.

'Ron, have you got protection?'

'I have a spell..'

'Not to be rude but judging by the number of family members you have, I suggest you try this.' I handed him a rubber cylinder inside a little square container.

'What do I do?'

'Ok.. Well since I have muggle family friends, and My Mum's friends... I mean.. When she was alive, she had a friend I called Aunty Mango.. Anyway, she's always been a bit batty, and she gave me these, best for me and all but I was 11.. 11! Anyway, they are called condoms.'

I carefully teared the side of the packet and took one out. Hermione knew of these, Ron otherwise was shocked.

'You check which way it rolls and you blow on it slightly. Then roll it on your.. yeah.. No Not Hermione, Ron.. You.'

'What if it likes cuts it off!?' Hermione and I started giggling.. I would certainly would be rather entertained by that.

'It won't. Anyway you roll it on, leaving some at the bottom for the semen... Ron.. Do you know anything about your biology? Anyway, then you go about.. as business.' I said slightly embarrassed. I mean, Sex Ed to people my own age.. That is seriously scary.

'Uh, thanks..' Ron said and Hermione smiled, hanging onto the other one.

'May I ask what you were doing with them in your robes?'

I was a bit taken back. 'Uh.. Just in case my friends need them!' They didn't believe me.. What was it doing in there?

They walked off and I was left alone. Oh Joyous. I stood alone in the moonlit sunset under the oak tree watching the leaves float by in the lake and the squid frolicking.

A crackle of leaves, and a wind gust chilled to my spine. A howl was heard in the forest.. It was scary out here. I felt a warm breeze on the back of my neck, and a hand slipped over my mouth. I tried to bite the hand but my mouth was wrenched shut. I squealed in my throat and kicked my legs and thrashed my arms around.

'I bet this is what you'd be like in bed.' The voice said, it was a lowish growl. I swung my arm around and hit the man in the face, but he grabbed my arm. He pressed his body against mine as he grabbed my other arm and he dragged me away from the tree into the darkness.

I cried. I mean I am being dragged by hell knows, and what's going to happen is anyone's guess...

He let go of my arms and he licked my neck. I sniffled, it just made my nose run more, along with it starting to bleed again.

'Hey, Hey, hey, Don't cry... I didn't mean to scare you.'

I turned to find Draco dressed in black behind me.

I watched him look at me with intense guilt. I don't know what I was feeling.. I mean the types of things that flood through your head when something like this happens is like scary...

I started to walk away from him. He walked after me.. Step by step he followed until we were semi lit by moonlight. I turned to face him.

'I didn't mean to scare you..'

'I thought you said you'd wait!'

'I will!' He said urgently and hung his head low.

'Well, I won't.' I said and placed my lips on his. Slowly one by one I unbuttoned his shirt, still in mid way of a snog. I kissed him down his neck and along his chest. He fell to his knees as did I, and he laid on the littered leaves on the ground. We rolled and he kissed my neck. I bent my head back, and he unbuttoned my shirt. He kissed from my neck to my navel and started to unbuckle my jeans.

He stopped and looked up at me.

He did my jeans back up again and my top.

'I don't think this is right.'

'What?!' I said looking up at him.

'I mean, you said you weren't ready this morning.. It's just not right..'

'I get it..' I sighed and got up.

'Here you look cold.' Draco gave me his robe to drape over my shoulders.

'Just forget it.' I dropped the robe in the leaves.

'Wait...' Draco called after me, and a tear ran down my left cheek.

I kept walking. I know people will think this is stupid.. I mean us girls are already self-conscious as we are! So I feel like even worse.. I feel like I am ugly, not to mention my face is pretty beat up..

I turned back to watch Draco walking behind me kicking the stones with his feet and whispering to himself.. His Blonde hair shun in the moonlight, he never looked so sexy, plus he was topless.. I am so tired I don't know what to think. My head was pounding. I made a few more steps and Draco was looking in my direction now. I took in a deep breath and sighed.. then everything went black.