The Cost of Perfection

Disclaimer: I do not own Hellsing or any of its characters. For now. One day I dare to dream that they shall be mine, but alas they shall not. That doesn't mean however that I can't use them to my own cruel devises. All original characters are mine though.

I'm flying. I'm high above the world. I'm safe and free. I don't have a care in the world.

"It's a lie. Open your eyes. See the world for what it really is. This is all a dream that shall never come to pass. For you their shall never be safety or freedom."

My eye lids slowly opened. I really don't want to see the world for what it really is. I want to live in my dream. A small gasp escaped my lips. Everything is different. I no longer feel safe. Everything is so dark. Black if you may. No, no, no not the dark again. Bad things happen in the dark. I don't like the dark the dark is bad.

"To bad you will forever more live in the darkness. Your life belongs in the dark. It is where you thrive, and grow. It is your domain. Listen to me, and I can make you great. With me you will have eternity, and power."

"Who are you? Where am I?"

EW… my voice sounds weak, and pathetic. I am none of those things, but I don't like the dark!

"At this time I am of no importance. As to where you are. You are in your mind, or rather trapped here for the time being. Think of it as a flight-or-fight reaction. This is your escape from the extreme physical pain your body is going through."

"You sound like a woman. Your voice has given that away. Who are you? What do you want?"

"Are you sure I'm a woman. Maybe I'm a man masking my voice as a woman's. Don't jump to quick conclusions. There are many ways to mask ones true identity. What I want is for you to learn. You are the first of your kind girl. A hybrid vampire. You are capable of so many things."

"Let me guess you want to be on my side. Since ill have all the power right."

"Of course. I am always out for personal gain, and so should you. Never let arrogance take you over. That is what gets you killed. Know this. Death is avoidable, but no one is void from it. Every one and everything can die. That is your first lesson from me."

"It's a good lesson I suppose. I have another question."

"Very well one more question, but our time here grows short. You will be waking up shortly."

"Why me? Is their something special about me and that's why they picked me, or was I the victim of circumstance? I can't remember who I was. What I was like. Hell I don't even remember what I fucking look like. I haven't seen my face in years. That name Adrielle that is not my name. It is what they gave me. So I also ask you. Who am I?"

"I cannot tell you who you were before all of this. It would not be my place. I will tell you that you will find out eventually. You could say you're special. Actually that is a very accurate word for it. You are the only one with the right genetics for this. It actually runs in your family, but you were the only viable candidate. When you were born you had a genetic abnormality. Basically it meant that your genes could be changed, and enhanced without the event of your death. Her majesty wants the perfect assassin, and that's were you come into the picture. Imagine the possibilities. A girl that you can manipulate into anything you want."

"So that's it. I'm just an experiment. A tool."

"Yes, but you are a successful experiment. Now let me finish what I was saying. The scientists hear have been taking the desired traits from animals, and inserting them into you for 7 years. Every one of the experiments was a success. You were fast, you were strong, and you were damn near invincible, but you still weren't perfect. Just recently though they came by a stroke of luck. The un-life kings blood. Alucard is what he calls himself now, but that is not his name. His name is Arucard. Anyways his blood as filled in all those nasty imperfections. Essentially you are a fledgling vampire. You need to truly drink from Alucard to be a full fledged Nosferatu, but that is no matter. At this moment there is no weapon other than yourself that can kill you. Just as Arucard cannot die, but remember what I said everything can die. Eventually that is. You are perfect. Becoming a true Nosferatu would not improve you in anyway."

"And the mysterious giver of Arucard' blood wouldn't happen to be you now would it."

"You're jumping to conclusions again, but the right ones. They would have eventually gotten their hands on it. It was the last piece of the puzzle. I just sped up the process."

"You know who I am, and you won't tell me. Why? What do you have to hide from me? Just tell me who am."

"I told you once, and I'll tell you again I cannot tell you that. It is not my place. There are extenuating circumstances on that."

"Just tell me who I am. That's all I want to know."

What is he hiding from me? Why won't he tell me who I am? Theirs more to all of this than meets the eye and I plan on finding out what this is.

"Girl this is your mind we're in. I can hear everything your thinking clear as day. There is no point in trying to find out things you will eventually understand. Do not fight this. You will stand to gain nothing from forcing this."

"What can I say I guess I'm just a fighter? I'm not going to stop fighting. I always fight. I'll fight until I'm free. Huh, I guess I'm not perfect I still have my individuality."

"Not for long girl not for long. It's time for you to wake up. I give you this advice girl put ice around your heart, and become hard as stone. Be the perfect little assassin for now, and when the time comes you will seize your power. Lock your humanity away. It will do you no good."

"No, don't leave me alone here. I need to know more."

Their was no answer. I could feel my self fading. I feel heavy. There are strange noises all around me, and bright light everywhere. I can't stand god damn bright light. The noises are clearer now. They're voices. People are talking. EEEWWWW... It sounds like Craig. The other one must be Dr.

"Sir, The experiment was a success. The command chip has been inserted, and is fully operational. Sir we've done it. We've made the perfect assassin."

That's all I am to these people. An experiment. I hold no value to them. I'm just another tool to be used by these sick sons of a bitch's. I will become as hard as stone, and my heart will be covered in ice. I'll make them pay for all the pain they've put me through.

"Look she's starting to come to."

"Good take her up to one of the more comfortable rooms. Give her 5 hours to get ready. Then I want her training to start. I'm sure her majesty won't want to wait to start using her new toy."

Toy! HE did not just call me a toy. I am no ones toy! Now I'm really pissed off, and I'm really, really Hungry. I can feel Craig getting closer. I can hear the blood rushing through his veins. It sounds so good, and I'm so hungry. I need Food, and he's the perfect candidate. I used all the force I could muster to spring forward, and grab him. I easily broke through the steel retainers holding me down. That's kind of impressive. Back to the man I have pinned against the wall.

"I know you know who I am, and I want you to tell me right now."

"Like I'll ever tell a freak like you."

"Well that's not nice. You know Craig I really don't like you, and unfortunately for you I'm very hungry. You know what these new fangs should get me exactly what I want to. Let's have a taste then."

I let my head drop down to his neck.

"Adrielle Stop!"

Psh, I have no intention of stopping. My eyes went wide. I can't move my head any further, it's like there's a barrier. Fuck this I'm hungry, and he's the main course. I should have taken the hint the first time. No sooner do I try and force my way through the barrier thing then I'm thrown across the room into the wall. Wow, that almost hurt. What the hell was that? Craig's words came back into my head.

"The command chip has been inserted, and is fully operational."

Those bastards they put a chip in me! I have to follow orders. No! They can't do this to me. How dare they think they can control me. I am 10 times their superior. Just wait I'll find a way to get this chip out of me. They'll regret the day they ever messed with me.

"Craig I think you should go before she tries to suck you dry again."

"No she almost killed me. I would have become a ghoul. I want her punished for this."

Huh, punished what does he think he can do to me.

"Craig what do you think you can do to me. Spank me. I really thought you were smarter than that, oops sorry no your not."

"I can think of something girl."

"OOO I'm so scared of you. Really I'm shaking in my bloody rags here. You see I'd normally call you old man, but I'm not quiet sure you are a man. Considering what you do in your spare time. Really now Craig Red stiletto pumps with a purple dress. I hardly think that matches. Another thing red is not your color."

"Wh… what are you talking about. How can you possibly no a thing like that,"

You should be careful what you think Craig. You never know who may be taking a peak in your brain."

"Stay out of my head girl, or else you'll regret it."

"You throw empty threats. You can't hurt me. I've already experienced the worse pain there is out their."

"THAT IS ENOUGH FROM BOTH OF YOU! I don't want to hear any more from you Craig I'm already pissed at you. I have the right of mind to let her drink you dry, but I still need you for something. Tread carefully Craig your in dark territory now. You Adrielle will go up to your new rooms. You will take a bath, make yourself look presentable, put Suitable clothes on for training, then you will go to training. Do I make myself perfectly clear to both of you!"

"Huh, yea whatever just show me were the fuck I'm going."

"I will take you there now. So follow me, and I warn you Adrielle do not make me punish you for being disobedient."

I wanted to say what the hell can you do to me, but something was telling me I shouldn't. He does after all have the power to command me with this stupid chip.

"Very well follow me."

I picked myself up from were I was sitting, and followed the good doctor out of the room. More bright white rooms. What is it with this place and white? Do they have an aversion to color? Seriously I want to know. OOO look more funny little men in white suits. I want to have some fun I'm really bored. Everything is so dull around here. The people have sticks shoved up their tight little asses or something.

"This is your rooms. Adrielle. It comes with a bathroom attached, and everything you need such as Clothes, hygenics, weapons, and forms of entertainment. I expect you to be ready in 4 hours time for training. Good day."

"Well good day to you too mister sunshine."

I smirked at him as I saw his muscles tense. I'm sure if I could see his face hi eye would be twitching. Sadly though he decided not to argue with me on my 'mister sunshine' comment. Pity I always like a good argument. Well mine as well see if my rooms as white as the rest of this place.