Emichii: Don't own Digimon. Too bad.
Chapter seven: Guilty feelings
Sora lay on her bed and stared up at the ceilings as she had done so many times before.
All of a sudden, it seemed to be the only way to escape life. Even though she had missed Tai before, being with Matt made her forget about Tai. But when Tai started dating again, her heart throbbed every single time she saw him with someone else.
Sora, is Tai really just a friend?
"Who? Who is it?"
Sora felt herself talking to some voice. Was it her inner self or what?
I am your heart and soul. I am you, Sora. We are the same person.
"Why? Why are you here?"
I am your soul, Sora. I have always been here. I know you've been going through a tough time.
"Yeah…"
I can help you, Sora.
"So?"
Who is Tai to you, Sora? Is he really just a friend? Your best friend?
"What do you mean?"
Who's Tai? What is he to you? Is he more than a friend?
"He-he's a close friend…"
Why have you been ignoring him for so long?
"What? I haven't!"
You don't even know how desperate he's been for your attention, Sora.
"Are you just here to make me feel bad about myself? If so, then-"
LISTEN SORA! Ask yourself this question: Is Tai just a friend? Or is he more than that?
"I…don't know…"
Think Sora think! Look into your heart Sora. Who is the one you love the most?
"…"
Sora realized all the pain she felt when someone else was with Tai was because she loved Tai most of all. There was no-one else who could equally measure up to the love she felt for her best friend.
Surprised, eh?
"Why? If I've really loved Tai all this time, how come I took so long to find out?"
Time can tell anything.
"Besides, if Tai really did love me, he would've told me. Before I became Matt's boyfriend."
He did tell you. More than once.
"No he didn't."
Yes he did."
"He didn't."
Sora, you simply gave up on Tai. You've let yourself forget memories that are most dear to you.
"Well, I-"
Here…let me help…
Memories came pouring back into Sora's mind.
FLASHBACK!
The elevator stopped and the doors opened. Sora walked out of the building.
"Sora…" Tai followed her.
Sora still wouldn't turn around. "You're so selfish Taichi Kamiya!"
"Yeah, but Sora you-"
Sora kept walking, quickening her pace. Tai didn't know what to do but follow her. "Just let me explain!" he pleaded.
She replied, "Explain about what? You're just selfish, Tai. You just don't want to be left out or anything so that's why you don't want me to be Matt's girlfriend!"
"Sora, please!"
Sora spun around abruptly. She stared at Tai, waiting. Then she softened when she saw Tai's sad face.
Tai looked down at Sora and said, "Sora…whether you're Matt's girlfriend or not, I'm always gonna love you... It's something I can't help. That's why I…"
Sora looked at Tai. Tai continued, not looking at her, "I'm still going to love you even if you hate me, Sora Takenouchi…" Tai turned red, very embarassed.
Sora looked at Tai. She understood Tai's response when she had told him the news. "I'm sorry, Tai…"
Tai turned away.
But Sora kissed him on the cheek and gave him a smile. "Now why don't you go and put some pants on?"
Tai saw that he was only wearing his shirt and boxers; he was mortified and ran off.
END FLASHBACK!
There you go! He did tell you!
"Well…"
And what about that note in your locker?
"How did you know it was him?"
I'm your heart, Sora. There's always a part in you that knows.
BEEP BEEP! A sound alert came from Sora's computer. It indicated that she had mail.
I bet that's Tai, telling you that he sent your that note.
"You think you know everything."
I'll go now. Discover yourself, Sora. There are feelings you've buried deep inside of yourself because you were afraid.
Sora blinked. She went up to her computer and checked her mail. Sure enough, the email said that it was from Tai.
Heart beating, she opened the message and read:
Dear Sora
Hey I know you're going through a really tough time right now but don't worry. Everything will be alright. Matt and Mimi and I are always here for you remember?
Oh, and I'm really sorry about sending that anonymous note. I suppose you've figured it out by now. It was me. I'm sorry for bringing back the past. I know you want to forget that I ever liked you. But I can't help it, Sora. I do like you. And it's not just "like". I love you, Sora Takenouchi and you know it. That's why I'm just really really sorry that I have to keep annoying you when you're with Matt. And I'm really really that I kicked that ball into your head yesterday.
Just remember that I'll always be here for you, Sora. I love you.
Keep smiling.
Love your (best?) friend, Tai
Sora gasped but then realized. Maybe something in her had known it would be him all along. Feeling a bit embarassed, she sat down in front of the computer and started to type a reply.
Mimi felt her heart beat as she spotted the blonde around the corner. Not knowing why she felt so nervous, she went up to Matt and said, "Hey, how ya doing?"
Matt looked at the girl. The sight of her seemed to raise his spirits. "Hi Mimi."
"Heard from Sora yet?" she asked.
"No…"
They looked at each other. Maybe they had something in common after all.
"Wanna go out for a movie?"
"Okay."
They walked off.
(Back to Sora)
With trembling hands, she typed her confession. At the last second she almost chickened out. Wiping tears from her eyes, she comforted herself. He's probably going out with Mimi right now.
Yet a part of her knew that Tai would always be true to her and only her.
So, she clicked the send button.
Emichii: There ya go! Don't you love it when the girl finds out she actually loves the guy? Anyway, I'm glad I've got the inspiration back now. I think I'll give myself a break before the next chapter though. Read and review!
