Author: Falconwolf3
Fandom: 7th Heaven
Characters/Pairing Ruthie Camden and Martin Brewer
Prompt Chastity
Word Count 258
Rating: T
Disclaimer: Still do not own 7th Heaven
Author's Notes: 4th part of the 7 Virtue Challenge.
Ruthie sat alone in her room thinking about Martin was usual, but she found her hurt feelings turning to anger. 'Why could he have waited for me? Somehow, he had to know that he would lose me if he slept with Sandy. Wait, how could have known, it wasn't like we were dating or anything. Furthermore he was just starting to date my friend Meredith with I realized I loved him.
But if he had known, would that have stopped him? Why am I playing the what if game? I knew a long time ago that I wanted to wait till I got married to have sex and I thought Martin felt the same way, but I guess I was wrong.
Why am I wasting time on him? He isn't meant for me, nor am I sure I want him anymore. I wanted to be his girlfriend, his wife and mother to his children someday. But maybe Martin isn't who I thought he was and maybe he never was.
But I'm still the same old Ruthie Camden, same old virginal Ruthie Camden. Someday I'll meet Mr. Right and be a good wife to him. Wait, I'm not the same old Ruthie, I've matured a lot in the last few weeks, months and I'm not sure I can undo all the damage to my heart, but I owe it to myself to move on.
I believed in Chastity and Martin, well. Didn't. Goodbye Martin, I have to let you go now. But part of me will always love you.
