Chapter 2: Seeds of Doubt will Only Grow

It was all my fault.

Everything last year was affected by me. Quidditch, classes. Everything. And yet, my parents don't hate me, my brothers are more overprotective than ever, and nobody knew it was because of me their year at Hogwarts was ruined.

I know everyone says I couldn't stand up to whoever this Tom Riddle person was. I know this could have happened to anyone. I know people that I respect, like Harry and Professor Dumbledor, would tell me I was strong by not letting the basilisk's glare kill anybody. But I just can't. 'What if's' constantly flood my brain telling me it was my fault. It's my fault that everyone was terrified this year. My fault that amazing people like Colin, Hermione, Penelope, and all the others were petrifies, losing months of their life. My fault Harry almost got killed after he was lured down to save me.

Though now, the past is in the past, I guess. The memories won't fade, but the nightmares might. The nightmares were almost as bad as the guilt. Not quite, but it was chasing at guilt's heels. The easiest part of the whole ordeal was the solitude. I could hide up in my room for hours without anybody disturbing me. Isolation is, however, a double edged sword. It can be good to think, but once the thoughts escalate, there is nobody to pull you out of the dark, dark holes of self doubt, pity, and hatred. I know it's not the best way to deal with… stuff... , but it's the only way I can. Day by day, step by step, breath by breath I move forward.


Ginny woke as the sun rose, there is only so much sleeping a girl could do, and began the same mundan and pathetic tasks she did every day. It was only a week into summer vacation, but to Ginny, it felt like years. She felt that the traumatic events of her first year aged her. Riddle was already an extremely mature 16-year-old, so having him possess her on top of all the tortures she endured and horrible acts she committed, Ginny was no longer 11. She was definitely mentally older.

She trudged down the stairs to go eat breakfast with her family, per Weasley family traditions. These breakfasts were always annoying and mundane. Every single day without fail, Ginny's family treated her like a fragile little girl who could not even feed herself. But Ginny wasn't, cue the annoying part. Ginny, however, knew that her family was worried and cared about her mental well-being, but their methods were all wrong. She did not need a protector, she needed a confidant who knew what she was going through. The only peer she knew who fit into that category was Harry Potter. She had burned that bridge, though, by that humiliating crush last year. Hopefully by now he would realise what was happening, but he is a 12-year-old boy so not much can be expected. Pre-teen boys are thick. Harry, however, might be different. He had been through a lot which may make him mature for her age as well.

Ginny thought about this throughout breakfast, and while she was taking her last bites, Ginny decided that she would do something. She was desperate for help, and there was no one else to turn to. She had to try or else she had no idea what would happen.

At this moment Ginny decided to write a letter. This letter could be the most formative thing she has ever written or turn out to be a total bust. 'If you never try, you will never know,' though Ginny as she drafted her letter to Harry.

Tomorrow is a new day if you make it one.


Hey Guys! This chapter is also kinda short, but it's still like a prologue. Thank you for the wonderful reviews I have received. Please give praise along with constructive criticism (both are equally welcome ;-p). I feel like I need to explain the Weasleys (excluding a few like the twins and Bill) being bashed. I like them but I also like stories where they are bashed. Its dramatic and adds more to the plot. It also leads to Harry and Ginny growing closer. Also Hermione is in that because why not. I'm being radical. Dumbledore is because he did make a lot of mistakes throughout the series and again, the theatrics. It hopefully won't be the cheesy bashing though. If it gets too bleh at any point please tell me.

Thanks!

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