A/N: This fanfiction takes place in the beginning of New Moon after Edward leaves Bella. Instead of falling into depression Bella has a plan. It is mainly a twilight story but it is a crossover with Angel as the character Spike will be in it. Will Bella be with Edward or Spike?
Bella was sad, devastated, lonely. Edward had left and Bella kept running in the woods. Eventually she chose to curl up in a ball in the moist grass and cried. Her tears were salty and sweet. A part of her knew even then that Edward was still her soulmate. At the time she was to hurt to do anything but lay down and cry. What a beautiful young thin thing she was; she desperately wanted to be that forever. Because of Edward, so she could be young forever with him, and for herself, so she would never die, never succumb to mortality. She still wanted Edward to change her. For anyone to change her. Then she would go find Edward and convince him that they were meant to be.
Bella didn't realize that not all vampires sparkle in the sun. The Cullen clan did, and some other clans did, but there were other more powerful vampires that were much older than the Cullens. They burned in the sun. Heck, even crosses and holy water burned them. It was Bella's mistake to assume all good vampires were like the Cullens.
In the end, though, Bella would never regret her decision.
After the native American wolves found Bella, they brought her back to her father Charlie and Bella robotically walked up to her room and crawled into her bed. Bella was in shock. The Cullens, the only people who understood her, were gone. Her love was gone, and her best girlfriend Alice was gone.
Bella vowed to fix things. She would become a vampire and then search the globe for Edward. She would be his immortal queen. After all, nothing could go wrong, right? Vampires were superior creatures. She would be one. She was determined. She would let fragile Bella die and become immortal Bella, the cold and immortal warrior full of love and hope.
She started wandering around outside at night. Edward wasn't in Forks, though, so Bella had no reason to stay there. So, she chose to go to California. There were other vampires there, not that she knew that. But her intuition said wander the Earth and find the Cullens. Something told her to start with California. She would meet Angel and Spike there eventually.
The next day Bella wakes up. Every day she wakes up and says to herself a positive affirmation. I will find Edward. I will become immortal for him. I will do whatever it takes.
She tells her dad she is going to travel around the world in order to find herself. It is a white lie, but Charlie is okay with it. He gives her some money for food and airplanes and lodging.
Bella thinks she knows what it means to be a vampire. Vampires are superheroes. Vampires are immortals. Vampires, at their best, when they are vegetarian, are very good people.
She buys her airplane ticket to California with the help of her lovely mother who was the queen of traveling. Her dad Charlie drives Bella to the airport and she checks her bag and boards the plane.
I will find vampires again. I am a vampire magnet. I smell too good for them. So good that they will want me. I will find them and become one of them. Then I will give myself to Edward again. My prince, my soulmate. He lied and said he didn't love me. I can see through that, I don't believe it, I am not afraid. I am only afraid of losing him. Nothing else matters.
Bella arrives in California and gets a room in a cheap motel. But it is California so even a cheap motel was pretty fancy. Was Victoria here? Maybe she could change Bella. But no, Victoria was not there. A way older man was there, a man who had been flirting with danger and evil and death for a long time.
Bella would meet William the Bloody. AKA Spike. And the melodramatic king of brooding, Angel. But this story is not about them. They are minor characters that will introduce Bella to a different kind of vampire while she is searching for vampires in order to become like Edward. When Edward does find her, his concern for Bella's soul will have more merit. There will be much more for Edward to worry about, like for example how they would never be able to lay in their meadow in the sun together. Never. But they would still love each other.
Bella would become a vampire and then go back to Forks and wait for Alice to have a vision bringing the Cullens back. Bella was so determined to make this all happen.
All she had to do was go to clubs at night and stay up all night waiting for vampires. This is the beginning of the bad.
This happens before Spike goes on a quest to get his soul back. Spike sees a beautiful young lay walking around. She smelled so good. She would be desert, maybe, or a girl to play with. He goes into a bar and waits for her.
Bella sees Spike too and senses that he is a vampire. He is her target. Bella goes into the bar and there is Spike. She of course doesn't know his name. He is a thin vampire with white hair. His eyes are vivid and crazed.
Spike asks Bella if she wants something to drink. Bella says, sure, but first tell me this. Are you a vampire?
How did you know? Spike asks.
I guess it's like gaydar, Bella said. I knew a vampire once.
And you're in love with him? Spike asks her.
It doesn't matter. I want you to turn me, Bella said.
Oh sweet young thing, Spike said. Why not? I would love a little playmate. But lets drink together first.
Spike buys Bella a Vodka and the bar doesn't card Bella. They drink together and Bella tells her story.
So you think we sparkle, huh? Spike says.
The Cullens do, Bella said.
Spike decides not to tell Bella that most vampires burn in the sun and that the Cullens and their friends are the exception. That being a vampire isn't the walk in the park that Bella thinks it is.
Either way. Spike takes Bella's hand and leads her to a lonely street where no one walks.
Are you sure? Spike asks.
Yes, Bella says.
Then Bella exposes her neck and then Spike bites Bella on the neck and drinks almost all of her blood. Bella finds the pain to be amazing and surreal. Then Spike bites his wrist and feeds Bella his blood. She drinks Spike's blood.
She passes out and goes through incredible pain and torment and then Bella wakes up as a vampire. She would soon learn that she would not, however, sparkle.
To be continued...
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