A/N: Sorry it's been so long. I wrote this all today because it's been swimming around in my head for weeks; I just haven't gotten around to typing it out. Anyway here it is... enjoy
I sit next to Seth's bed where I have been for the past couple of days. Seth is rambling to his mom about the new comic book that she has to get for him. I've tuned him out like I always do whenever comic books come up. I've never been much for comic books but I know Seth likes them so I pretend to listen. I've gotten pretty good at pretending too.
I can't believe that two days ago all I wanted was to hear Seth's annoying rambles, but now that the tube came out today, it's like he has to make up for that lost time and has been talking none stop. Then again I've been here almost all the time, except when I am forced to go home and take a shower; otherwise this has become my chair.
"Summer?" Mrs. Cohen declares snapping me out of my thoughts, "Do you want to go get the comic book with me?"
"I don't think I will," I reply not really wanting to go to the comic book store if I didn't have to.
"Okay," She says but I know she wanted me to go with her. I just can't bring myself to go though.
After his mom leaves Seth turns to me and asks, "Have you seen Ryan yet?" I shake my head no.
"Will you go see him for me? Considering that I'm still trapped here and can't see him myself. I just want him to know that I'm thinking about him," Seth says.
"Okay, but you do realize that he is still in the coma" I reply and following Seth's request I head to Ryan's room.
"Yeah but maybe he'll come out of it if he knows I'm okay and here for him," Seth exclaims after me. At least this will give me a break from the rambling.
I walk in slowly. It is weird to find Ryan just lying there. Then again Ryan didn't say much, so that isn't as unusual. But he was always so strong and lying there, he just looks really weak. He still has the tube in his throat, and his eyes are closed.
I went and sat in the chair by his bed, "Ryan," I say not knowing how else to start. He remains in the same position he was. "Seth wants you to know that he is thinking about you. He would tell you himself except that he is trapped." Again no movement comes from Ryan. It's almost like he's not listening. Maybe this is why I have avoided coming to see him. After what seems like forever a nurse comes in to take vitals.
I get up to leave figuring I would leave them alone as the nurse says, "You can stay. I'm about done."
"It's okay I don't know what to say anyway," I reply.
"Just say what you are thinking," The nurse suggests as she walks out.
"Okay," I utter now to myself. I walk back over to Ryan and sit again. I realize now why this is so hard, besides the fact that he's lying motionless in a bed.
"We have never really been friends have we?" I ask knowing I won't get a reply. "You've always been Ryan, the kid from Chino, who was Cohen's foster brother or Marissa's on again off again boyfriend. We've never been just friends. I guess that'll change now, considering…" I trail off letting it sink in.
I figure I'll tell him about Seth now since that's what I came in for, "Seth's awake. He even got that nasty tube out. The swelling has gone down too. He can sit up and move his arms and head and everything…. He still can't move… or even feel anything below his waist." I'm crying at this point. I have never cried more than in the past two days. "They don't know if he'll ever regain feeling… They don't know if you'll ever wake up… They don't know anything and it sucks. It sucks that this happened and that I can't do anything. I realize that this is the most we've ever talked, well that I've ever talked to you, and I just totally broke down." I stop for a moment with again no reaction from Ryan, "Seth needs you to wake up Ryan. The Cohen's need you to wake up. I need you to wake up."
