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Chapter 5: Rejected and Desperate

She flushed the toilet tiredly. It was the fifth time which she vomited this week. She tried to stand up but she wobbled and fell back to the cold bathroom floor. Her head was spinning like a rollercoaster.

2 months had passed since the night with Alexander. When she had gotten up and had found the note, her all hopes for a good life with a loved one was withered. She was also angry to herself for trusting someone that easily. But now something worse, a horrible suspicion, was eating her.What if the reason of this vomiting wasn't an illness?What if she was pregnant? What would she do?

She had to clear her mind so she dressed and went to the nearest pharmacy to buy a pregnancy test. The result was: Positive.

She fell on her bed and started to think about a solution. She considered aborting the child for a while. But she decided it was unfair to kill someone before giving a chance to live. At last she decided to find Alexander to tell him about the baby. He had written"Don't try to find me" in the note, but it was a different case. She had to talk to him at any cost.

The sound of the ringing doorbell interrupted her thoughts. She went to answer the door. It was Vanya Ivanovna, her childhood friend Nikolay Ivanov's wife. She was expecting a boy which they would name Tala in four months. They were good friends and she was the only person who knew about Alexander.

"You seem so pale, what is the matter?" Vanya asked with a concerned voice.

"Do you still have the sources to find someone's place?" Sincerity asked with a serious tone.

"Yeah. Why?" she asked amazed at her friend's question.

"I need to find Alexander."

"I thought you didn't want to see him again."

"It……..It is a different case. I am pregnant." she answered faintly."

"Oh! My God! You are pregnant with Voltaire's grandson! Do you know what will happen if he learns?"

"Yeah, but-"

"And you think about talking with Alexander. If I were you I would take an abortion immediately." Vanya interrupted harshly.

"You think aborting a child is that easy? I can't do it, I can't kill-"

"But Sincerity, it is too dangerous!" she answered reasonably.

"It is dangerous for you to have a child too!"

"What?"

"Vanya, both Nikolay and you are rebels and you know he is killing all the rebel families and imprisoning their children in the Abbey."

"I know Sincerity but an heir is completely different. Besides he could be caught. "

"Please Vanya, find Alexander for me." she begged with tears sliding down her cheeks. Vanya stared at her friend's sad face for a while. She was feeling sorry for her.

"Ok. I will" she said at last.

Sincerity murmured a thank you to her friend. She was so desperate, so insecure. Vanya prayed for Alexander to accept her and the child.

"I must go know. I will call and tell you his address." She promised.

Two hours later Vanya called and told her his address. He was hiding in an old house on the outskirts of the city. She was happy to learn that he is safe.

On the way:

Her heart was pounding like a drum. She was feeling nervous and sweating coldly. She was afraid of the reaction he would show about the baby.

"What if he rejects me and the baby?" he thought in despair.

There she was, right in front of his hiding place… she knocked the door timidly. A dark eye looked through the eyehole. And the wooden door opened. Alexander grabbed her wrist and pulled her inside. He closed the door and turned back to face her with a stern face.

"What the hell you want?" he asked harshly. How hard it was to keep his voice angry while her beautiful crimson eyes were looking at him.

"I………..I…..I am…… pregnant." she managed to say at last.

It hit him like a storm hitting the ship on the sea. Alexander was shocked, but after a while panic won over him. It can't be real. She can't be pregnant. If he finds out- No! I can't let it happen!

"Abort the child!" he said with a commanding voice.

"NO!" she shouted.

"THEN HAVE IT, BUT DON'T WAIT ME TO CLAIM TO BE THE FATHER." he shouted back. It had taken all of his will to talk like that. His words followed by a short silence which was interrupted by a hysterical laugh coming from Sincerity.

"What a huge idiot I was to want humanity from you. I thought you were different like a stupid, but you are his son and you are just like Voltaire. You are even a bigger bastard then he could ever be."

That was too much for Alexander. His blood was boiling in his veins. He raised his hand and slapped her. Sincerity looked at his eyes for a moment, showing all the pain and desperation in her heart and ran out of the house. It was killing Alexander to act like that, but he had no other choice.

Sincerity ran passed the streets crying and bumping into people. She arrived at her home at last and buried her face to her pillow screaming and sobbing frantically. She pulled her beyblade out from her pocket and looked at the red phoenix which was etched in the middle of it.

"My end will be like my mother, won't it Dranzer?" she whispered sadly.

tbc

POOR SINCERITY!