-๑-๑ ஜ ๑- Chapter 40: Confrontation - -๑ ஜ ๑-๑-
Only reluctantly Shizuo had left the two alone.
After leaving the flea's home they had returned to Shinra's apartment. No one was in the mood to go to school. As if that even mattered right now. Exams, tests, grades, everything just suddenly seemed so small compared to what Izaya had to go through. All this time-
Shizuo felt stupid. Helpless. Angry.
He had never bothered to stop and ask. Why? Sure they hadn't been exactly close. It hadn't been his business but he still felt responsible.
A small pebble laying on top of the pavement met the force of his frustration as he kicked it towards the road.
Why did he have to feel this… helpless?
He possessed strength. Enough to beat up two adults and end up almost unscathed himself. So why?
Why did he have to feel just so powerless in the face of Izaya's father?
Sure he had hit the bastard straight in the face when he saved Izaya from that rapist but…
What now?
The idea of telling his own mother crossed his mind for a short moment.
He could ask her what to do. Ask her to convince Izaya's mother that they were speaking the truth.
But the moment the idea popped up he scrapped it.
He loved his mother. She was warm, gentle- a ray of sunshine after a heavy storm. She would try everything in her power to get Izaya away from his father.
…. but what would that bastard do?
Killing intent of unknown kind forced itself hotly onto Shizuo´s mind. There was no saying Izaya's father wouldn't lay a hand on her. He was more than ready to hit his own son and daughters, so who was to say he wouldn't do the same to her?
Too fresh were the memories in his mind. Too recent the past events.
Swallowing thickly, Shizuo sat down at a fence´s ledge.
He had to be real.
None of these ideas were going to help the flea.
His father, no matter what kind of asshole he was, he still had custody of Izaya. And with his mother backing him up…
There was no way to get Izaya's siblings out of that mess, was there? Not as long as his mother believed Izaya's father´s lies.
Ruffling through his hair Shizuo sighed deeply.
It was starting to rain softly, but he couldn't really care less right now.
It was about time for history class. The teacher was probably getting mad right about now for Shizuo´s missing presence. She was probably going to file another letter of complaint or call his mum for a meeting.
He should feel guilty for causing his mum so much trouble and yet right now… he was just sad.
Helpless.
His mother was going to forgive him. He just needed to tell her he was helping a friend. She wouldn't even pry for information. She would believe him, just as mothers were supposed to believe what their children told them.
Hands tightening into a grip Shizuo's eyes narrowed.
A car passed by, driving just through a puddle next to the road. Water splashed, dirt rained down on Shizuo´s pants.
Usually he would get mad over inconveniences like this. At least for a moment.
But instead he was delighted.
Determination of an unknown kind gathered the resolve he needed to push himself up from the fence.
That´s right.
His mum would believe him no matter the situation. And so should Izaya's.
If Izaya's mother realized the truth of what had been going on inside her own home she would need to take action. She could divorce the bastard. She could file for a lawsuit, issue some kind of approach prohibition. And most importantly. She could ensure Izaya as well as his sister would be safe again.
So what was there to think about?
Legs speeding up Shizuo took off into the direction of Izaya's home.
He had met her before when Izaya had been sick. She had initially seemed like a nice and gentle person. It must have been a nightmare to be confronted with both. A husband abusing and selling his own children or a son that was trying to seduce their father.
Choosing to believe the latter was probably her way to avoid realizing just how hard she had fucked up.
It was one thing for Shizuo to blame himself for not realizing what was going on. But it was another for his own mother to never have noticed shit.
Heaving softly, Shizuo found himself at Izaya's place only a couple minutes later.
Ha had run. The excess energy spurting him to new heights.
Any student would have been envious of the speed he had exerted and his teachers would have probably been amazed all the more.
Despite his fast arrival, however, Shizuo hesitated.
Knowing the truth and convincing someone else of it was an entirely different matter. What was he supposed to say?
Just rambling about how Izaya was telling the truth wasn't going to convince her. What about the call then? He still had that one on his phone. 2 Seconds.
That's probably the amount of time the call lasted considering it cut off.
Feet growing heavy and mood shifting he realized he had no clear evidence. Nothing but his words.
Convincing Izaya's mother was an easy task. Something he could achieve by shere matter of facts. But what facts was he about to prove? That he was the one to beat Izaya's father up? There was clear evidence he had accessed the house against the owner's will.
The rapist had disappeared, god knows where to.
Feeling the confidence he had been building collapsing into nothingness, the blond reproached.
He should leave. Wait for Izaya to come up with a better idea. Search for proof maybe, or-
"What do you want?"
Startled, Shizuo's attention shifted. Izaya's mother. She was standing in the door. "Why are you lurking around here?" She seemed agitated.
Of course.
In her eyes he was a violent maniac that helped her son beat up her husband. She must have seen him from the kitchen window.
Fear reflected in her eyes and Shizuo found himself struggling to come up with the right words.
This was a chance. Maybe she would hear him out.
But all of that hope crashed down, when another voice joined the scene.
"Let me handle this honey," sweet, sad, loving as if taking care of a stray bird, he emerged next to Izaya's mother and Shizuo stiffened.
Izaya's father.
Head wrapped partly in bandages of various sorts he must have only just been released from hospital.
"Be careful, darling." Izaya's mother whispered, before heading back inside.
As soon as she was gone the bastard's face twisted. No glimpse of the gentle expression remained as a piercing stare of cold disdain overruled his expression.
"Quite the nice throw you got," he announced with the hint of praise as he rubbed the side of his face, "It will take a few weeks for this to heal, what are you gonna do about that?"
It was unsettling and that was the least about this situation. It was one thing to be an asshole, to hit one's own child, to threaten the very same to keep shut about it. But it was an entirely different matter to actively manipulate others like he just showed.
He was used to it. Izaya's father knew exactly what to say, do and act like in any situation.
It caused a feeling of helplessness that even Shizuo wasn't immune to.
"Izaya has been crying because of you, what will you do about that?" he asked, hoping somewhere in the back of his mind that at least the slightest hint of remorse was going to show on his expression.
But guilt seemed to be nothing he knew of.
A shrug was given, an annoyed glance- "Not my fault if he keeps resisting my orders."
Feeling the blood rush in his ears Shizuo barked- "Aren't you supposed to be a father?!" Izaya was his son! "How can you-" but the blond choked on his words when the man approached.
Anger of an unknown kind reflected in his dead eyes.
"Keep it down, would you?" A glance was cast up and down Shizuo´s body until the familiar expression of realization dawned on him. "You are that boyfriend of his, right?" Swallowing thickly, the blond tried to maintain his glare.
"So what?"
A shrug was given. "Nothing. It's just really cute how you are trying to stick up for him, really. But if I were you I would think twice about who I'm up against." A grin tugged on the man´s lips. "After all, I'm sure your mother would be very sad if something were to happen to you."
Shizuo couldn't help but feel a shudder run down his spine. Cold as ice the man´s stare clutched his throat as no more words came to mind.
"You can tell Izaya I will keep my word. As soon as that bitch is gone his sisters will experience just what it means to show disrespect to me."
Shizuo's eyes widened.
His sisters-
They thought he wouldn't have the guts to harm them. They thought they had more time they-
"Now get out of my sight, you are an eyesore."
The door to the building slipped shut and with that the man was gone. Leaving nothing but destruction and mind crumbled to a mess.
Fuck.
Turning on his heels the blond ran.
Fuck-
This had been a bad idea.
A bad idea. Guilt of unknown kind suffocated the blond as his feet flew across the pavement. The words of Izaya's father kept going in circles inside his head.
He was going to harm Izaya's sisters. If Shizuo acted the wrong way he was going to harm him as well- his mother, his brother.
Dangerous.
That man was dangerous.
But like a fool he had ignored Izaya's warnings thinking he had the power to move against him. Like an idiot he had thought a short conversation with Izaya's mother was all this was going to take.
Feeling his throat constrict he approached the door to Shinra´s apartment. It was only a quick flick of knocks it needed for the two residents to come to the door.
Eyes of surprise flickered as Izaya glanced past Shinra´s shoulder.
"Shizu-chan?"
Guilt, regret, fear, sadness, all in one overwhelmed the blond as he blurted out- "I'm sorry-" tears gathered in his eyes, "Izaya, I fucked up-"
Confusion was the first thing overwhelming Izaya's mind as he looked at a devastated Shizu-chan. It was a first- seeing how he was always so confident, so blissfully stupid and simple minded, seeing him like this was like a blow to the gut.
"What happened-" was the first question that slipped from his lips in stupor. But it took a mere fraction of a second to realize. His father. He didn't know what exactly had happened, but it had to be connected to his father. Worry spiked and urgency drove his voice. "Did he hurt you?"
Shizu-chan shook his head, violently wiping at his eyes as he tried to get rid of the traitors.
Shinra seemed to be the only one left in the dark as he glanced back and forth between the two. "What did you do?"
Swallowing thickly, the blond found his voice again, "I thought I could talk to Izaya's mum once more- I thought maybe I could make her see that she is believing the wrong person. But-" he swallowed, "Suddenly he was there."
"He already got released from hospital?" Horror swayed in Shinra´s voice.
Shizuo nodded, a frown troubling his face. "I should have hit that bastard harder."
Dismissing the unnecessary comment, Izaya nodded.
"What happened then?"
Ah. There it was again. The raging fire of guilt gnawing at Shizuo´s bones.
"He said he is going to hurt your sisters-" the words felt like hot iron to his tongue. "Me. My mum too. My brother. Anyone who is going to interfere."
Words failing the blond faded out, searching for Izaya's eyes.
Anger reflected in them. No fear. Only anger.
And it was really how the raven felt.
Mistaking the direction it was addressed at, Shizuo swallowed.
"I'm sorry, because of me he will-"
"It's not your fault, Shizu-chan," Izaya quickly affirmed. "He would have found a fucked up reason to harm them sooner or later anyway." He knew his father way too well. He took joy out of seeing others crawl before his feet in fear. All of this was just one form of his sick amusement.
Sure, Shizuo having gone there today had cut down the time they had to come up with a plan, but not going wouldn't have avoided the inevitable.
They needed to think of what they were going to do. A solution. Something permanent.
"What do we do now?" Shinra asked- entering a long moment of bitter silence. No one knew the answer to that question. There was no way to get Mairu and Kururi out of that household. Let alone keep them from their father.
If anything-
"I would say we keep watch." Izaya announced, meeting confused expressions. "It sucks but it's the only thing I can think of right now."
"You want us to monitor the house?" Shinra repeated, tilting his head as he thought about the suggestion with a frown.
"As long as someone is out there, ready to call the police any second, he will contain himself," Izaya clarified. After all, his father had always been a master at keeping his cover. It proved just how serious the trouble would be he would get in if any of this got out. "Question is just how long we can keep that up. It´s a shit idea honestly."
They were just three high schoolers. Sure, Shinra was living alone, his father wasn't going to miss him once he was on patrol. But what about Shizu-chan? What about their school? Their grades? Their lives? Right now they were just talking about keeping his father from his sisters. But they were young. They would have to live there for years to come.
Thinking about it like that it was really a shit idea.
Izaya's mood must have shown, because suddenly Shinra agreed.
"It´s a starter," he added, "We can work with this until we come up with a permanent solution."
A soft glance cast towards the raven. Izaya appreciated the thought. He was trying to cheer them up. To keep this feeling of hopelessness at bay.
Only Shizuo´s expression was left to one of guilt and pain.
"Izaya, I'm so sorry- I-" but before he knew it there were suddenly soft lips to his own. Moving like a butterfly´s wing.
Flabbergasted, he looked at Izaya who cupped his face and let his forehead connect with his own in a gentle touch.
"You were trying to help me," he raised his face, "Honestly I'm just glad you are okay."
Returning the gesture Shizuo pulled the flea closer.
"We are not going to let him have his way," he whispered, and Izaya couldn't agree more.
"Yeah, it's been like that for far too long already."
to be continued~Uff we are getting closer to the climax guys xD 2 more chapters and this story will be over haha
Alright guys, so I have some Shizaya news~! xDI'm pulling the 50 Shades of Gray move xD For those who don't know:
That book?
It was originally a fanfiction of "Twilight" xD The author "originified" the story aka swapped names, appearance (kinda not so much lol) and yah some general Twilightish-stuff xD
Cuz who likes being sued for copyright infringement?
Right, no one xD
SO
Why am I telling you this?
Because I´m doing the same with my Shizaya xD
Starting November 10th 2022 I will be releasing MONTHLY shizaya BOOKS xDDD
What does that exactly mean? Well, for instance, Behind closed doors has been reworked by me, aka I swapped Izaya/Shizuo/Shinra´s names and I deleted/reworked some very obvious DRRR stuff, like "Ikebukuro, Shinjuku, "Izaya" is no "informant", (but something equally sly lol) etc xD Shizuo has no inhuman strength, Celty is no Dullahan, you get the gist :3
But the plot, the dialogues, the gayy all stayed the same :3 I came up with slightly tuned versions of their characters so everything made sense and in general overhauled the story xD
"Originified" if you will xDD I'm also going to draw a cover with the new appearance haha
As to why I'm doing this:
#1 Honestly I just wanna hold some real book versions of my stories lmao
#2 Not gonna lie, just in case I make enough money to live of this, I might just quit my job and become a full fledged writer lmao
Shizaya, original reworks/ children's books (already have 700 pages of that at home too xD) No matter what, my mind is a constant stream of plotlines and I need to write them down anyway so it would be kinda awesome to have more time for that xD
So if you ever wanted to support me in some way, or just love one my stories so much you wished you had a real life copy of it - well this is your chance xDD I just hope you don't get eye seizures from the name swap xD
I plan to release the books on amazon via self publishing per following schedule:
(I will give you a rough schedule for now, but I should be able to release on those exact dates)
An entire Volume of Behind closed doors which will contain the complete story (only 2 chapters left haha) beginning till end on: 10th November 2022
Sinful Desire volume 1 of (2 I guess, might be 3 or more lol) will be coming out 10th December 2022
The wish to disappear the complete story with over 500 pages will be on amazon on 10th January 2023 (Yes this one is getting an originified version as well xD "Izaya" is a doctor in this one lol)
Survival of the doomed Volume 1 (of 3) on 10th February 2023
I want to stay with you forever (New title: Forced Contract) part 1 of 2 with 500 pages on 10th March 2023 (Yes this one is getting an originified version as well xD I'm cringing so hard at my writing style xDD this needs a HUGE overhaul hahaha)
A single touch the complete story on 10th April 2023
Shingeki no Shizuo (new Title: Voluntold) (1 of 2) will be released on 10th May 2023 (For those wondering about how the hell I "originified" DRRR and Attack on titans: It's now a military thriller in a warzone with Izaya as the stationed captain and Shizuo being one of his soldiers, just so you get a feeling how I switched things up xD)
Survival of the doomed part 2 (of 3) on 10th June 2023
Impostor (Volume 1) 10th July 2023
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY
✨✨Yultesra ✨✨ Volume ⅓ on 10th August 2023
And this my friends is the heart of all this, it's the 1st volume of an original fantasy Trilogy that I have been writing on for 10 years xD I thought up an entirely new world, a magic system, curious cultures, 48 different creatures of various kind, a staff of like 25 main characters and creepy pastas along with some horror elements at times xD And of course a healthy spice of romance and drama xD
This is the reason I have been writing fanfiction. To practise for this Trilogy xD And after having written 1.000.000 words- (yes really) I started writing this story down xD
I will give a more detailed Update on this once it's truly published on amazon haha 3
Might even do a reverse "originify" and convert it into a shizaya story afterwards and post it here lmao xD Just for the hell of it xD
Shingeki no Shizuo (Voluntold) part 2 on 10th September 2023
10th October 2023 will be the rework of a new Shizaya story Go to hell (Volume 1 of 2) which I'm starting as soon as bcd ends xD (aka in a month xD) it's got a demonic theme and takes place in well… literal hell xD I'm so digging this haha just think of it, Shizuo with demonic eyes~ COUGH anyway xD More to that later hahaha
Yultesra Volume 2/3 on 10th November 2023
Sinful Desire Volume 2 on 10th December 2023
That's it for 2023, there is more planned ahead for 2024 as well, but let´s discern that when the time comes hahaha
For anyone who's interested, Yultesra 3/3 will be released on 2nd March 2024 (My siblings birthday) :3 And after that I will be writing the Prequel to the story xD But I don't have a fixed date in mind for that one yet haha
Oh and just to be clear, all of this stays gay xD Like, a relative asked why I don't make Izaya female in the new "originified" versions so it would be a straight romance and more "mainstream" and like, "bought more often"- and I was like dude
no xD
I might hope to sell a few copies to be able to write more, but not at the price of my soul xD
That's not how the stories were written. I may have to adjust the characters´ names and looks a little for law reasons, but that's it x'DD
Besides, the world needs more gay romance stories 3 I have been binge reading "Scumbag villain system" ever since it got released on amazon I can only recommend this soooooooo hard
xD I love it - I'm so hyped for season 2 of it´s animated version and the final volume 4 hahaha xD
If you guys have any good recommendations I'm all ears C; Also non gay, I'm reading Patrick Rotfuß "Kingkiller chronicles" at the moment for example and god fucking damn- I'm digging this so hard xD
So see you people haha on 10th November 3 I will make sure to update the last Behind closed door chapter(s) on that day and drop a link to amazon xD
