Chapter 003.
Drunk loving
I was in my room debating whether I should go to the party or not. I mean it's not like I would know any of his druggy friends, and Manny wouldn't pay any attention to me. But she would give me a lot of crap from not going. I could do homework though and tell her I had to watch Angie. But what senior stays home on a Friday night? I decided to go. I got there and I was right, he did have druggy friends. There was smoke everywhere, people were making out and having sex. It was disgusting, I tried to find her but I couldn't, there was too much fog. I squeezed onto one of the couches and layed back. The smell was terrible and I wanted to leave. Suddenly someone jumped on my lap and gave me a hug.
"Craig! You came!" she said with a smile.
I think she was drunk, but I couldn't tell yet. She gave me a kiss on the cheek and smiled. She smelt like smoke and sex. This was kind of gross. She didn't look to good either, it looked like she was crying and her breath smelt like shit. Her hair was messy too.
"I was just about to call you, and then I saw you!" She slurred
"Well I'm here" I replied
She laughed hysterically and hit my shoulder.
"I know silly, or else you wouldn't be here!" She exclaimed
She was drunk.
"Manny, how much have you had to drink?"
"I don't know…" She replied "A couple…and I think I need a couple more"
She giggled and got up.
"I'll be back in like two minuets Craig, Don't leave!"
"Okay" I replied.
"Promise?" She asked pointing her finger at me
I nodded my head "I promise"
I could have left right than. I mean she wasn't there and I did go. I could have told her Joey wanted me to come home or something. I knew it was going to take her longer than a couple of minuets to get another drink. I should have stopped her from getting another drink anyways, her hang over is going to be terrible tomorrow, and who will she be calling to help? Me. I don't know why I always thought I had to help her, why I was always the one taking care of her problems for her. For some reason I got satisfaction from it, I liked to hear her knock on the window, even though I didn't always want to answer. I liked to have her sleep next to me, even though I didn't always want to share.
I was right; it did take her longer than a couple of minuets. I sat there for another hour. I was getting tired, and I felt like I was getting high, even though I wasn't even smoking the stuff. I got off the couch and tried to find Manny and tell her I was leaving.
I walked up to a guy that went to our school. His name was John, or Tom something like that, but I knew he was one of Manny's ex's.
"Hey have you seen Manny?" I asked
"Yea, I saw her go upstairs" He replied
I went upstairs and started yelling her name, but it's not like she could hear me through all this noise. I looked into the closest room and people were making out. I apologized for barging in and shut the door. I was about to open another door but it swung open almost hitting me in the face. The door shut again and I heard yelling.
"Don't you fucking open that door again, I'm not threw with you" I heard.
It was Mark or Mike, whatever his name was. I guess they were in a fight, I knew it wouldn't last long.
"I fucking hate you, I want to leave!" She yelled back It sounded like she wanted to cry
"No!" He yelled
It seemed like Manny tried opening the door again but she couldn't. I didn't know what to do…was I supposed to be a good friend, or person and open it…or was I supposed to let her deal with her own problem for once. I did the good thing and opened the door. It was locked, I knocked on the door. Banging.
"Yo man, we're kind of busy right now, leave." Mark or Mike said.
"Manny are you okay?" I yelled
"Craig!" She exclaimed "yea, I 'm fine…Mark is just being an ass"
Manny finally pushed the door open and stumbled. She looked at me and smiled and then looked at her now ex boyfriend Mark.
"It's over Mark" she said
Her shirt was ripped. She wiped her face and buttoned up her pants. I looked at Mark and he had a huge scratch on his face. Manny stumbled out of the room, a drink in her hand.
"Come on Craig." She said grabbing my hand.
She pulled me out of the house, and we started walking. It was kind of cold so I gave Manny my jacket. We had a wile to walk and she didn't want to call a taxi for some reason, when I offered to pay. We finally got to my house. Manny sat on my couch and I got her one of my shirts. She put it on and gave me a smile. I sat down next to her; I was tired and wanted to go to sleep. She touched my face with her soft and smiled again.
"Thanks Craig" She whispered.
"For what?" I replied
"For being there for me at the right time, always…" She said looking down. She looked back up. "I love you" She whispered.
I was going to say something but she covered my lips and shushed me.
"You'll ruin the moment"
She gave me a kisses all over my face and then she finally kissed my lips. I had kissed Manny many times before but for some reason this time felt different. Maybe it's because she told me she loved me. I don't know but I did like it. She pushed me down on the couch and that's when our make out session started. It got more intense and the once cold room got really hot, Manny started to unbutton my pants and I was taking off her shirt. Even though it was the best thing to happen to me in a long time, it felt wrong. I told her to stop.
"No" she said biting her lip and giving me another kiss
I pushed her off of me.
"Manny you're drunk, you don't know what you're doing" I said
"No Craig this is what I want" she said trying to give me another kiss.
I got off the couch.
"No Manny" I exclaimed "I don't want to take advantage of you"
What was I doing? I could have had her, we could have had sex. I could have been the happiest man a live, why did I stop? Why did I feel so bad?
"What the fuck Craig?" She asked in anger. "Isn't this what you've always wanted?"
I didn't say anything, I just stared at her.
"Oh don't try to act stupid Craig. Everyone knows, everyone knows about your little crush on me!" She started "But it's not really that little is it Craig?"
I still didn't say anything; I sat back on the couch and looked at her.
"Is Craig sad now? Did you think it was a secret? Did you think you were hiding something? Like no one knew that you were madly in love with me?" She laughed "its obvious Craig…I told you everyone knew!" she said throwing her hands in the air and dancing. She took a cigarette out and lit it.
I knew she was drunk, but I didn't think she would be this mean. I was embarrassed though, I didn't think anyone knew, and here she was rubbing it in my face.
Manny sat down next to me and looked me in the eyes.
"Come on Craig, you don't hide things very well, you as long as everyone else knows that" She said laughing
"Manny…" I started…but I didn't know what to say.
She blew smoke in my face and then put out her cigarette.
"So come on Craig, let me see what you have to show me. It's not like I haven't seen you naked before" she giggled. "…and you know, if all else fails I can always have another abortion"
She tugged on my pants.
"No Manny" I said
She looked at me with hate in her eyes.
"Fine Craig, I gave you a chance!" She yelled.
"I can't believe I made a fool out of my self." She whispered
She grabbed her stuff and ran out the door. I chased after her, but I was so tired I had to stop. I couldn't sleep that night either. I called her cell a billion times apologizing. But her machine kept on coming up.
"Hi it's me…you know what to do"
So I left her a billion messages telling her I was sorry. The next day her parents called, said she was missing.
