Chapter 6:

Mika woke up and went to get a peek of her baby brother. She was surprised to see him cuddled up against Ryuichi, but she said nothing. It hurt her, that Tatsuha had his dream of meeting his idol coming true at last and he couldn't even remember anything. She sighed and closed the door, what hurt more was that Tatsuha seemed to trust Ryuichi more than any of them. She closed her eyes and wondered just how she was supposed to get back to work, leaving her younger brother here…she really wanted to spend time with him, but she had taken too many days off from work..

Tohma found her leaning against the wall limply and put his arms around her. "Come on Mika, its ok. He'll be here when you get back. Ryuichi said he'll take him out today, Eiri made a list of all the places Tatsuha normally frequented. It should bring back his memory…it's worth a try!" Mika nodded and they went to get dressed.

Eiri had already woken up and was yanking a sleepy Shuichi towards the living room. They were on their way back home because Eiri had to complete his book and Shuichi thought they'd imposed on Mika long enough. Soon the house was empty.

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Tatsuha woke up to Ryuichi's giggles. He frowned slightly and looked at the green haired man. Wait is he giggling in his sleep? Whoever heard of anyone giggling in their sleep? Tatsuha could help but smile as the older man giggled once more. "Mmm….I'll eat you if you tickle me again Kumagoroo…" Tatsuha's face suddenly had a wicked grin. So Sakuma Ryuichi was ticklish…he reached down and tickled Ryuichi on the waist.

The man sat up squirming. H opened his eyes and looked at Tatsuha's wicked smile as the teen reached to tickle him once more. Ryuichi squeaked and slipped off the bed and stood up. "Tatsuha, don't do that no da! I was having a dream about Kumagoroo monster."

Tatsuha rolled his eyes. "So where is everybody?" Ryuichi shrugged and walked out the room. Tatsuha followed him and saw him pick up note from the coffee table in the hall.

"They've all gone to work, na no da. But they've left me a list with all the places I'm supposed to take you to today." Tatsuha nodded and then announced that he was going to take a shower.

Ryuichi nodded and picked up a cinnamon doughnut from the refrigerator and walked up to the room Tatsuha used. Maybe he could read for a few minutes.

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Tatsuha turned off the tower and rubbed himself down with the towels. Then he realized he hadn't brought any clothes with him to the bathroom. Cursing he wrapped the towel around his waist and stepped out of the bathroom. He walked into the room expecting it to be empty when he found Ryuichi staring at him. Tatsuha blushed under Ryuichi's gaze, before ignoring the awkwardness and turning to rummage around in his bags.

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Ryuichi couldn't help but stare at the teen's body. It was all tight and hard. His skin was so smooth; Ryuichi tore his gaze away from the boy's body to look him in the eye. The teen was blushing, and then he turned to rummage in his bags. Ryuichi sighed; Mika had told him this was Tatsuha's usual room. "Hey Ta-kun. You might want to look in the cupboards; I guess you usually left a pair of clothes here, just in case."

Tatsuha began looking in the cupboard. He slipped on his boxer's under the towel and then slipped it off. Ryuichi's eyes ran down his legs and tight ass, before he could stop himself. Concentrate on the book, you baka. Ryuichi stared at the book for Al he was worth until Tatsuha had finished. Then he went for his own shower, taking his clothes with him.

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"This is your mother's grave. Eiri told me we should stop by here first." Ryuichi explained as they bought some flowers and went to the grave sight. Tatsuha stared at the tombstone that read 'Uesugi Tomoe' willing his memories back, but nothing happened.

He ran his hands through his hair in frustration; this was his mother's grave for crying out loud! This is where he was supposed to be remembering everything…he was at least supposed to remember his mother here. Ryuichi patted him on the shoulder giving him a sympathetic look.

Next they went to the club, Silverfish, which Tatsuha had started hanging out at. After that they went to the amusement park, the record store, the school in Tokyo that Tatsuha had attended when he was six. Each stop was more frustrating than the last.

They had lunch in Tatsuha's favorite restaurant where they made the best tempura. Ryuichi looked at the boy worried, he was wearing himself out. He decided they should try Kyoto and Tatsuha's home. Mika had called her father and explained Tatsuha's condition to him, and the old man was more than willing to let Tatsuha stay in Tokyo.

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The drive to Kyoto was slightly long, so Tatsuha fell asleep on the way. Ryuichi glanced at him as they drove. He was such a beautiful boy; Ryuichi wished he had met him before. He drew up in front of the house.

Tatsuha woke up and looked at the house intensely, willing himself to remember. The door opened and his father stepped out. Surprisingly the old man enveloped Tatsuha in a hug. "My son, you're back." Tatsuha nodded, looking slightly surprised. The old man hung his head a little realizing Tatsuha didn't even recognize him. Ryuichi smiled apologetically before ushering Tatsuha in. they went to look at his room.

They both gasped when the door opened. Ryuichi stared at him self from every direction. There were Ryuichi collector's item mugs, key chains and even song quotes from his songs pasted on the wall. There was even a Ryuichi pillow. Ryuichi exchanged a glance with Tatsuha.

"Well, who knew that my number one fan would turn out to be my best friends' brother-in-law?" he joked, but the boy's eyes were downcast. He put his arm around the teen. "Tatsuha, what's wrong?"

Tatsuha looked up about to say something when his father walked in announcing that he was stepping out for a moment. Tatsuha nodded and waited for him to leave before looking at Ryuichi a serious frown marring his face. "What's wrong? Did you just realize that I used to be obsessed with you? Which means that meeting you should have been my dream come true? Ironically, when my dream has come true I don't even remember anything!"

Ryuichi blinked at the anger in his tone, before hugging him again. "It'll be all right…and when you do remember I'll still be there to make everything ok…"

Tatsuha half smiled at that before pulling away and looking through some of the stuff on the table. He played around with a pen without looking at Ryuichi. He began in a low voice. "You know what was weird? You were the first thing I remembered. I just walked into that club you found me in, I remembered all the lyrics of your songs, all the dance moves I'd practiced for them and your face. I never forgot your face…I started listening to the music and it was right there, liked I'd seen you before." Tatsuha still didn't look up into his one-time idol's face. "I should have remembered my family or something but I just remembered you…that got me wondering…why? Why did I remember just you? Why do I have this crazy feeling I've known you all my life if I've just met you? Wan I in lo…" Tatsuha stopped and looked up before he finished the sentence, not wanting to go too far.

Ryuichi was standing inches away from him. he hadn't noticed. The older man smiled and came closer pulling the younger man into his arms. "I don't know the answer Tatsuha-kun. Though I'm flattered that you remembered me…I'm sorry." He held the teen for awhile, feeling his warm breath against his neck. When Tatsuha looked up Ryuichi found himself drowning in pools of black.

He bent down and softly captured the teen's lips with his own. When he didn't meet resistance, he deepened the kiss, slipping his tongue into the boy's mouth. He tasted so good, like chocolate. Tatsuha's arms linked around his neck, he pulled the boy closer, running his hands down his back. As the boy began to gain some confidence, they're tongue's began a battle for dominance. Ryuichi pushed him backwards onto the bed, straddling him. he kissed him again, more demanding now.

Tatsuha moaned into Ryuichi's mouth as the singers fingers began to rub Tatsuha's nipples, moving in slow circles. Ryuichi's mouth left his mouth traveling to his ear. Tatsuha stiffened as Ryuichi nibbled on his earlobe. He moved a little more boldly now, lightly caressing the bulge in Ryuichi's pants. The singer gasped, his eyes widening at the sudden pleasure. He started undoing Tatsuha's shirt quickly, kissing every patch of skin, he uncovered. Suddenly the door banged downstairs bringing him back to his senses.

Ryuichi clambered off Tatsuha hastily. The teen buttoned up his shirt and breathed deeply trying to calm himself. They went downstairs to bid Uesugi-san goodbye.

One they got back into the car, Ryuichi kissed Tatsuha once more. "We should start driving back…Mika will kill us if we don't get home for dinner." Tatsuha nodded, and turned to look out of the window. They drove back in silence, both trying to figure out what exactly had happened and where it fit in their lives.

Tatsuha stared out of the window. Had he really been in love with this man…a singer he'd never met? Where the hell was all this going? He wanted Ryuichi…that was for sure, but hadn't there been anyone else in his life? Why can't I remember anything?

Ryuichi drove on autopilot, his head filled with unnerving thoughts. He was feeling a little guilty, it seemed like he was taking advantage of Tatsuha's vulnerability. Shut up! You're not taking advantage, the boy wants you…the boy used to be in love with you! Used to be…that's what bothered Ryuichi, the boy used to be infatuated with him. Was it right in doing this when he didn't remember what he wanted? Apart from Tatsuha, another doubt was about Ryuichi himself. Am I ready for a relationship? No…I'm not. Not after Isabella. But Tatsuha was different. He really didn't want to let the teen go…why am I doing this? I should just go back to my own apartment and leave his family to help him. he looked up into Tatsuha's intense eyes as the boy turned to ask him something. No…he wouldn't be going anywhere anytime soon…

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A/N: what am I doing writing? I'm supposed to be studying for that economics exam on Friday…I'm such a doofus! Ok pple I need to get top bad and study tomorrow! So have fun!

Taka