A/N: first off, I have to say that I got help for Ryuichi's past from a friend, Kairen…I have no idea if he registered at yet, so I do not know his id. I forgot to mention him last time, too sleepy to think you see. So this chappie is dedicated to him.

Chapter 10:

Ryuichi stared at the mirror. He made a few faces, trying to pick which one was cool. Then he started to practice. "Um…Tatsuha…lets go catch a movie somewhere shall we?" Ryuichi shook his head…no that was lame. He had to come up with a better way of asking Tatsuha on a date. He tried again. "Tatsuha….want to go on a date with me?" "Let's go out for dinner today…it's a date…"

His phone rang, interrupting him. He picked it up wondering who would be calling now. It was Noriko, asking him to get to the studio in five minutes. Tohma wanted them to finish recording the album today, so that it could be released next week. Ryuichi agreed and went to change. He pulled on a defining black t-shirt and a pair of blue jeans. Then he went downstairs wondering which car to use. After that night when he'd told Tatsuha about his past, he'd moved back to his own house for a while. It had seemed a lot more convenient.

He decided on the sleek green jaguar convertible. Jumping in he drove to work. The moment he got there he was ushered into the recording room. Bad Luck was there too, they had decided o take half the day off just to watch him. He should have been flattered. Noriko began to argue with him about some trivial matter where he'd decided to change the tune a little. It was alright to do that, it didn't mess up her playing, but she was a feeling a little cranky, what with the baby on the way and all.

By the time he was done Ryuichi was tired and famished. Even Bad Luck had cleared out, he'd been working continuously on an empty stomach. And he still hadn't decided what to do about Tatsuha. He walked to the washroom to clean up a bit, before he left. The bathroom was nice and wide…this wasn't the normal one used by the employees, this was the one Tohma had set up for his best singers.

It had a room with a full length mirror, the cubicles lined the left of the wall and the washbasins were on the right, slightly hidden by the mirror room. Ryuichi started to wash his hands. He looked at himself in the mirror; no one could look that disheveled. He looked around, no one else was there…no one would be coming in because, Tohma had already left, so had Noriko.

Ryuichi cleared his throat. "Ok, Ryuichi, you can do this…it's going to be really easy…yeah give him that smile. Tatsuha…I've been thinking, we've spent a lot of time together, and uh done a lot of stuff together…" he blushed lightly at that glad no one wa there to see him. "So I was thinking we should go out on a date…officially." He stopped and sighed. Ok that was good, but it was too long. He wondered if he could get all those words out.

"Sure, why not? I was waiting for you to ask me…"

Ryuichi looked at the mirror. It was just him. "Ok, Ryuichi, you're an old man now. You've lost it…you're hearing voices."

A soft chuckle was heard. Ryuichi could see Tatsuha stepping out of the shadows in the mirror. He whirled around going red. "Tatsuha! What … why ….how….?"

Tatsuha ran his hand through his dark hair. "Just thought I'd come to see you. Thought you might be in here, the receptionist said you hadn't left." He smiled. "God, that really wasn't what I thought you'd be saying…after all you have been avoiding me for a week."

Ryuichi flinched a little. "I'm sorry about that. I've been really busy, I wanted to get in touch…but…" a sweet pair of lips cut him off.

"It's ok, Ryu. I was just a little confused, but if I'd known that you were thinking of asking me on a date, I might have felt better." He kissed Ryuichi's neck softly. "So shall we go now? You look like you'd like to get some food…"

Ryuichi smiled softly. "Yeah, I guess now is as good a time as any. Let's go, Ta-kun." Walking away he tried not to remember Tatsuha's whispered 'I love you' on the last night they'd spent together. He knew Tatsuha didn't remember and but then again, he didn't want to believe. He'd only believe it if all that doubt in the younger man's eyes had been cleared out.

They chose a nice quiet café. Tatsuha claimed that this was his favorite place, they had karaoke! The good thing was not too many people came in here and Ryuichi could just be himself. Tatsuha asked him what he wanted. They got some pizza, Tatsuha assuring him that it was the best pizza he'd ever taste.

In the meanwhile Tatsuha asked Ryuichi if he wanted to sing karaoke. The green haired man raised an eyebrow. "Ta-kun, I've been singing all day…you think?"

But Tatsuha pouted. "Come one, just one song for me…what do you say? Pwease?" Ryuichi sighed; he didn't think anyone could refuse that look.

He walked up to the stage and frowned at the list…since this was Tatsuha…he decided on the old favorite, sleepless beauty was the best choice, he'd sung it so many times after all. Glancing over at Tatsuha he realized he didn't want to sing the song robotically this time, it would mean something this time.

He started to move as the song began. The music began to take him over completely.

Tooku de me o hikarasete

Mezameru monotachi matte iru

Yoru no jouheki sasowarete

Usturisumu mure no nukegara ni

Tatsuha watched as Ryuichi opened his eyes and looked right at him. his breath quickened he'd never seen Ryuichi look at intense before. His heart sped up a little as the singer sang right to him. His head began buzzing as he got lost in the singer's gaze.

Umarekawareru anata yo hitori

Hohoemanaide hitomi o irodoru

Nozonda sekai ga totsuzen hai ni

Natte mo kiseki ni mada

Meguriaeru

Tatsuha stopped listening somewhere in the middle of the song. Something was irritating him at the back of his mind. Frowning slightly he gave in, suddenly images of Ryuichi smiling from the screen, Ryuichi stripping on the encore song, Ryuichi's gaze on the screen, Tatsuha jumping wildly at the concert, Ryuichi with Shuichi on hit stage, Ryuichi singing shining collection at the Tokyo bay, merged with the memories of Ryuichi's concerned face when they had first met, Ryuichi jumping in to save him, his hurt and angry look last week, his face when he talked about his past, his silly mask, his Kumagoroo obsession, Ryuichi telling him everything was going to be fine…just Ryuichi…

Tatsuha opened his eyes in time to see the man finish off …just Sakuma Ryuichi…his god…his love…his world. Ryuichi finished, staying in that position for a moment. Then he straightened smiled at the people clapping and walked back towards Tatsuha.

"Ta-kun, I've never felt better in my life! Oh I see he pizza's here…why aren't you delving into it already?" Ryuichi slipped into his seat and gave the boy a grin.

Tatsuha smiled and picked up a slice of pizza. "That was amazing! I've never seen you sing like that since I…god that was awesome!"

Ryuichi winked at him. "I was trying my hardest to run some on!"

Tatsuha blushed and mumbled something. Ryuichi leaned forward. "I can't hear you Ta-kun." He said in a sing song voice.

"I said it might've worked." Tatsuha went even redder.

Ryuichi laughed. Tatsuha closed his eyes. He loved the sound of Ryuichi genuinely laughing, no pretences. They walked back to Ryuichi's apartment as fast as they could.

As soon as they made it in, Ryuichi pushed Tatsuha against the wall and began kissing him. Tatsuha kissed back with equal passion. Ryuichi suddenly stopped. "Maybe we should go upstairs first."

Tatsuha agreed and they went in. Tatsuha had never seen Ryuichi home before. He looked around at all th pictures and videos. "Gosh, I can't believe I have everything you have! I must have bugged the hell out of Tohma to get them! Did I tell you how awesome you were today? God, I almost fainted when you looked at me like that!"

Ryuichi looked up with a frown. "What happened there that you aren't telling me about Tatsuha?"

Tatsuha looked at him a little surprised, wondering how to phrase it. he had got all his memories back and it had made him realize just how much he loved Ryuichi…Ryuichi the god, he singer, the lover and most importantly the man. It scared him.

Ryuichi was by him in a minute. "Ta-kun, what's wrong? Why are you looking at me like that? What happened?"

Tatsuha kissed him softly. "Why do you ask Ryu?"

"Because you're suddenly acting like a fan boy…it's weird, you've been so aloof these last few weeks and now it's like you'd dance with glee because I sang to you…it's almost like your memories are back …" he caught the look in Tatsuha's eyes and leaned forward his eyes wide. "Are they Tatsuha?"

Tatsuha gulped. "Yes, my memories are back…completely…"

Ryuichi smiled a little and then grimaced. "Is there a but, in there? Or an and? Why are you looking so scared?"

Tatsuha looked away. "And…I…realized that I…I'm head over heals in love with you…."

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A/N: ok I have to stop here! Got tons of work! Ja ne!

Taka