The red queen stared daggers down at the spiky collar she clenched in her hands, ashamed and confused. What had happened tonight? What had she let herself do? Bombalurina shook her head unbelievingly as tormenting thoughts continued to race through her mind. She had allowed herself to get close to him, to let him touch and tease her, something she had sworn on never to let happen again. It had brought out a feeling she didn't want to encounter with the tom ever again. It was almost like she had been…seduced? No. That wasn't possible. She couldn't feel anything for Tugger, could she? She froze. If she was harbouring feeling toward the Maine Coon, how long before they would be discovered? Before she would do something she would most defiantly regret. He had hurt her in the past, there was no doubt about it. He always wanted what he couldn't have and every time she had ever in her lifetime went with him, she had only ended up being hurt or refused in the end. Snap out of it Bomba! You cant have feelings for the tom even if you wanted to. It would never workout and you would only be left in the end, being hurt and abandon once again. Besides things don't work out for queens like you. The red queen let out a hiss of aggravation. This was stupid, so stupid. She couldn't possibly care for Tugger still, after all this time.
No. She wouldn't allow it.
Bombalurina threw herself down on the bed and let a sob escape her mouth. Things never worked out for her- they couldn't. Every time she had felt like she belonged somewhere, that someone loved her, she was always let down and ended up in tears oblivious to all but her. How long could she keep this up? How long could she keep going before she broke down in front of everyone and let them see the real her? The queen who wanted desperately to find an everlasting love- a queen that wanted to be rid of the endless nightmares that haunted her every night as she went to sleep. As steamy tears slid down the queens pale cheeks, she longingly looked around her sisters den. Even though her sister and brother in law were absent at the time, she could still feel the love and warmth of their home. She yearned for it. She yearned for the respect her sister got from the tribe elders, she yearned for the promise of family that Demeter had always and would always have, but most of all she yearned, no ached for the love that the golden queen received every night and morning. A love that someone like her would never have and a love that she would never deserve.
A noise coming from the entrance of the den caused the queen to look up startled.
"Bomba, there you are! Where- why did you go?" Demeter asked baffled as Munkustrap entered.
"I had to leave- I couldn't stay there anymore! Not with what just happened- not with, with him." The crimson queen answered, voice trembling no longer able to keep her frustration from showing.
Demeter and the silver tabby immediately sat down beside the hurt queen. Munkustrap looked confused at his mate, he thought that everything so far was going great…Why was Bombalurina in this state?
"Bomba what do you mean? I thought you had a good time tonight- I thought you would of liked it!" Demeter said putting a soothing hand on her sisters shoulder. "You looked like your were having fun!"
Bombalurina shuttered, her fur bristled as she rested her head on the golden queens shoulder.
"I cant handle this much more Dem! I- I don't know what's come over me lately! But- but I- I-"Not able to finish her sentence tears falling from her eyes, Bombalurina buried her head into her sisters shoulder, allowing the two mates for the first timeto see her cry. Demeter wrapped her arms around the sobbing queen mortified. She had never in all her life seen herBombalurina cry, other then when she had found her sobbing in her den over the fact that she was pregnant. Something was wrong- terribly wrong.
"Bomba maybe I could get Jenny to see if your sick- or Jelly!"
" No Demeter leave it alone!"
" Here, Munkustrap can carry you back to Tugger's if you want and I co-" Bombalurina broke down into sobs again.
"NO! Please don't make me go back there! I cant! Please Demy I just cant!" The red queen begged through her sobs. " I cant!- I just cant!"
Demeter rocked the traumatized queen back and fourth. " Shhh- Bomba. Its o.k. You can stay here tonight."
Munkustrap embraced the queen, throwing concerned glances to his mate. Bombalurina clutched tightly to the grey fur that was pressed against her as Demeter curled down beside the two. What had caused her sister to get this way? All the gold queen could do was watch helplessly as her sister cried herself to sleep.
As the sunlight peeked its way into the den where the three cats lay sprawled out on the floor, Bombalurina began to stir. Hesitantly rolling over and opening her eyes she noticed that her nose was in the midst of wisps of silver fur. Shooting up from her position she noticed that Munkustrap had his arms wrapped around Demeter who was on the other side of him, and his tail around her. The two must of curled up around her last night to try and calm her down. What had she ever done to deserve them? Bombalurina silently got up not wanting to wake the sleeping cats, deciding that it was best to leave the couple alone. As she made her way out of the den and headed across the junkyard she heard Jennyanydots talking to Jellylorum. Deciding to drop over and say high she headed over to where the sound was coming from. What the queen heard next made her blood run cold.
I know it was a short chapter but the next one will be longer. Please review I need to know if i should keep writing this.
