Chapter 3
What the hell am I doing,I thought. I can't let him stay here. I'm going to get killed if I do this. But I really don't have a choice now. He's only going to stay here for a while so maybe I'll be ok.
I wanted to tell him how much I missed him. It had been at least a year and half since I had seen him. I had gotten so used to him being around him that I started to like him. But I never told him. You were never supposed to love anyone if you were an assassin. And that's what we were.
I knew he still was. That's the reason why I never wanted to tell him that I still cared about him…or that I loved him. He would just tell me that I was being stupid and that I could never love an assassin. He had a job to do.
Why can't you just leave me alone,I thought. They're going to try to kill us if they know you're here. Please Kirill…just leave me alone. I don't want to have anymore memories. I don't need to remember anymore…
But he was here now and I couldn't just stop him from leaving. I'm not a rude person. I'm just someone who killed a lot of people…and who's probably gonna wind up going to Hell because of all the stupid things I did in the past. I'm not a sinner…I'm just a really stupid person…
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I tried to distance myself from Kirill as much as possible that night. But nothing worked. He was here and I had to face that fact because he was in my house. At least I told him he could sleep in the guest room because I was scared that something might happen.
But he was ok with it. I could only say "Thank god" to myself over and over again. But I knew that something was going to happen. I just didn't know what. And I didn't want to know what because I was too scared to know the truth.
Before I went to bed I sat on the windowsill,looking out at the city. The door suddenly opened. It was Kirill.
"You shouldn't be here,"I said.
"Stop being afraid of me."
"You're an assassin Kirill. I could get you arrested."
"Why haven't you?"
Good point,I thought.
"I just wanted to thank you,"and he left me alone.
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One step closer
By: Linkin Park
I'm about to break
I
need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to
the edge
And I'm about to break
I'm about to break
This
room to breathe
This room to breathe
This room to breathe
I
cannot take this anymore
Saying everything I've said before
All
these words, they make no sence
I found bliss in ignorance
Less
I hear, the less you say
You'll find that out anyway
I find
the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to
disappear
All these thoughts, they make no since
I found bliss
in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just
like before
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to
break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to
break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I
need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break
These
are the places where I can feel torn from my body
My flesh, it
peels during this ride we can cut upwhat we like
I'm about to
break
Waiting alone, I cannot resist
Feeling this hate, I have
never missed
Please, someone, give me a reason to rip off my
face
Blood is a pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And
pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And
pouring
And pouring
And pouring
Shut up when I'm
talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood is
pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up when I'm talking
to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood is
pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
I'm about to
break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I
need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break
Everything
you say to me
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to
breathe
And I'm about to
Everything you say to me
Takes
me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need
a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the
edge
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to
me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to
break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step
closer to the edge
And I'm about to…
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