Chapter 4

Why hadn't I gotten him arrested,I thought. Because he would kill me if I did something like that. Friends don't betray friends. But was he really my friend? He was more like my comrade. But he didn't think like that. Assassins never think like that.

We have no allies and we have no friends. But why was Kirill acting like this? This wasn't like him. He has to be hiding something,I thought. I wanted to find out more about this Jason Bourne that he was going to be hunting down.

Why was he after him? What did he want from this guy? Was it all about the money? How much were they going to pay him for killing this guy? But why did I want to know all this? Why did I even care? Was I starting to have feelings for Kirill? No. I couldn't do that. It would be against everything.

I can't love him anyways. He is an assassin. It wouldn't be right. But I'm not going to turn him in. I don't care about dying and I'm not afraid to die…but he is…well…was my comrade. I'm not going to betray our trust.

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Crawling

By: Linkin Park

Crawling in my skin

Crawling in my skin
Without a sense of confidence
Consuming, confusing
Crawling in my skin
Without a sense of confidence
I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take
There's something inside me
That pulls beneath the surface

Crawling in my skin
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Fear is how I fall
Confusing, confusing what is real
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me
That pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self-control
I fear is never ending
Controlling, I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence
I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will, I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting
How I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence
I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Without a sense of confidence
Without a sense of confidence
Without a sense of confidence
I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take
Without a sense of confidence
Without a sense of confidence
Without a sense of confidence
I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence
I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

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How am I not supposed to by afraid of him? What if something happens? What a minute. What the heck is wrong with me? Nothing is going to happen.

But why did thank me? For letting him stay here? No. There's gotta be something else. But what? What else does he want from me? I need to know. No. I don't need to know. I want to know…