Chapter 5

I watched as the sun rose over the city. It was just like any other day. But something was different for me. But I wasn't going to tell any one. No one had to know my little secret because I had no friends here. No one was going to care.

I went over and looked out the window,sighed,and smiled. Please someone tell me that he's going to leave today,I thought. Wait…he said he was going to stay for a while though. That didn't really say anything to me though. Is he going to stay here for a couple of days,a week,a month,a year? The door started to open. I wasn't surprised this time because I knew who it was.

"Good morning,"he said.

I smiled and didn't say anything.

He walked closer to me. "Are you still afraid of me?"

"Why do I need to be afraid of you? I've known you since I started working with you…"I paused. I didn't know if I was supposed to say anything else.

He put his arm on my shoulder. "You're hiding something…aren't you?"

I shook my head. "No…No I'm not."

He then put his gun to my neck. "Why didn't you just tell me if you turned me in?"

"If I had turned you in,they would have been here last night and you would have been gone. I didn't turn you in."

He put his gun back in his pocket.

"I don't have any reason to turn you in."

"Why?"

"You haven't tried to kill me."

He said nothing and just walked off.

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I need to be more careful,I thought. I could have gotten killed. But would he kill me? Would he even try to kill me if I had turned him in? Probably. I need to stop being stupid about this.

I'm not afraid. Why do I need to be afraid of him? I was an assassin once too. He isn't here to kill me. He just needs a place to stay. Why am I being so stupid? I needed to get a hold of myself for once. But I needed to find out why he wanted to kill this Jason Bourne. Should I ask him?

No. It wasn't my place. I needed to leave him alone. What he was doing was his own business and none of mine. I just hope that he doesn't die. I want to see him again…And when he comes back,I can tell him how much I care about him…

I don't want him to leave me now. Why can't I just tell him how much I care about him? What's wrong with me? I need to tell him before he leaves me… I need to tell him that I love him once and for all.

But what would happen? What would he say? I don't care anymore. I'm not afraid of him. He told me not to be afraid of him anymore. So why am I? I need to stop telling myself to be so stupid. I need to get out of this room.

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The shower was running as I went downstairs. I'm not going to turn him in,I told myself over and over again. I need to distance myself from the phone. I can't turn him in. I told him that I would turn him in.

I went in the living room and sat on the couch and waited for the shower to stop running. I wanted him to come downstairs so I could stop worrying about all this. You're being stupid Nicole,I thought. He's not going to kill you.

The shower finally stopped running. Oh thank god,I thought. Now I can stop worrying about this.

Fifteen minutes later he came down the stairs. I tried not to look at him but it was really hard. I moved over so he could sit on the couch. I finally started to relax a bit. Everything was going to be ok now.

I wanted to tell him that I didn't turn him in. But there wasn't any point now. I could tell that he already knew. He moved closer to me and put his arm around my shoulder. Ok,this isn't right,I thought. Does he have feelings for me now? This wasn't supposed to happen.

He then looked at me,straight in the eyes. "Nicole…I wanted to tell you something."

"Yes…"

"You're…you're beautiful. I wanted to tell you that the day I met you."

I didn't know what to say. He really did have feelings for me,I thought. But…but he's an assassin. He's not supposed to have feelings for me. He's not supposed to care about me.

The next thing I knew,he embraced me and our lips finally met.

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My lips were trembling. I didn't know what to do now. I was scared. This is never going to work,I thought. He's not supposed to love me. And I can't love him.

He then started to get up. "I'm sorry I have to leave."

"When…when are you going to leave?"

"My plane leaves for India on Friday."

That's three days from now,I thought. "What will you do until then?"

"Stay with you of course."

"Don't leave."

"What?"

"You're going to wind up getting killed."

"Have I gotten killed yet?"

I sighed. "What if this is different?"

"There isn't going to be anything different about it. I'll come back. I promise you." He kissed me again and walked off.