Chapter 6

I wish people would stop promising me stuff. Nothing good ever comes out of it.And no one ever keeps their promises.Why was his promise any different? What if he didn't come back?I would only be able to shake my head and said,"I told you so,"over and over in my head.

But he actually had feelings for me.Didn't he know that wasn't supposed to happen?But I'm not an assassin anymore.Was that the reason why everything changed?Nothing should have changed.But he cares about me and that's a BIG change.

I couldn't distance myself away from him anymore. It wasn't working. He care about me.But what about me?Was I going to be able to tell him that I loved him?I had feelings for him too.

Something's going to happen,I thought.But what?Is he going to leave me sooner?Is he going to die?I want to know what's gonig to happen to Kirill.And I don't want him to die.This is so stupid.He doesn't have to do this.He can stop this right now and not get hurt...or even get killed...

But why am I thinking like this?He hasn't even left yet.He's still here and I need to relax while he's still alive....I mean,while he's still here with me. I should stop him right now.

He did promise me that he would come back though.Shouldn't I just listen to him?But he's an assassin.They don't keep promises.I never made any promises when I was one.Why is he making one?Does he truly care about me?Does he really love me?

I didn't want to go to sleep that night.I wanted questions to be answered.I wanted Kirill to tell me if he really loved me.And I wanted to tell him that I loved him.

But I can't love him.And he can't love me,I kept telling myself over and over again.Why can't he realize that he can never love me?God I'm scared right now,I thought.

You can't leave me,I thought. I want you to stay here and I never want you out of my site.I don't want you to kill this Jason Bourne guy.I want you to stay with me where you belong. It isn't fair that you have to leave me...

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One step closer

By: Linkin Park

I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

I'm about to break
This room to breathe
This room to breathe
This room to breathe

I cannot take this anymore
Saying everything I've said before
All these words, they make no sence
I found bliss in ignorance
Less I hear, the less you say
You'll find that out anyway
I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts, they make no sence
I found bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before

Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break

These are the places where I can feel torn from my body
My flesh, it peels during this ride we can cut upwhat we like
I'm about to break
Waiting alone, I cannot resist
Feeling this hate, I have never missed
Please, someone, give me a reason to rip off my face
Blood is a pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring

Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to...
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About two seconds later I realized that someone was trying to wake me up. I turn my head. His hand was on my shoulder.

"Are you all right?"he asked as I started to wake up.

I sighed. "Yes. I'm fine."

"Looked like you were having a nightmare."

It wasn't a nightmare.I was having another one of those flashbacks again.God I wish those would just go away. "I'm fine. Really."

He sat down next to me and we embraced.I wanted to tell him to never leave my side again.But I couldn't because the next thing I knew was that I was in bed with him.