Prologue
Six month's ago
Sunday December 26th, 2017
Monika's POV
After Natsuki's funeral MC just ran out of the clubroom. I tried calling his name but it was no good. I chased after him. I had no idea where he was going but I was really worried. It stopped raining by the time that I got to the bridge. Already I didn't know what he was going to do next so I decided to call out his name to see if that would get his attention.
"MC! Don't" I shouted getting his attention. MC snapped his head in my direction. Good it worked. I thought with relief. I reach out to grab him desperately holding on for dear life. He didn't give much resistance while I held onto the lapels of his jacket. "MC listen to me I'm not letting you go, not for one single second." I said with a frown. "Just please, Lets talk this out" I continued. I hope he listens to reason. I thought hopefully.
"MC, this … This isn't a solution to what happened MC." I began. I just hope this works and he doesn't go through with it. I left Sayori and Yuri back at the clubroom I could tell from Sayori's frown that she too is worried about her childhood friend.
Well who wouldn't be. "This is only going to make everything worse, think about the people your going to leave behind if you do this" I said. "Do you understand?" I asked. I wasn't sure if he was listening to my words or not, but I had to try and bring him back from the abyss.
"I." MC started. But I cut him off before he could acknowledge what I just said to him. "This is not how your story ends, please." I started. I noticed he's using the railing for support and his whole body is trembling, I managed to get him to listen to me for a bit. "MC look at me, Please you can't do this." I said with more tears in my eyes.
I noticed he met my gaze and saw the tears in my eyes with a lump forming in my throat already. I didn't want to go to another funeral, we just lost Natsuki I can't loose another club member. "MC your not thinking of the bigger picture here" I said now that I think I have his attention.
"Sayori, do you know what will happen to her if she looses you?" I asked. "I know you, know MC." I added. "Do you really want that?" I asked further. "And Yuri? I can't begin to imagine what she would do." I said continuing to try and talk MC down.
"Why should I care?" he asked bitterly. I wasn't sure if that surprised me or not that he responded to one of my questions or not. "She's a good chunk of the reason! Monika." he said. I just hope I can save him from ending his own life. I thought .
"Lets go back, please" I pleaded with him. He takes hold of my hand as we begin to walk back. "We all love you MC, we'll always be here for you through thick and thin, no matter what." I said. He released his grip from me since we were far enough from the railing of the bridge.
"N-" he started. "No" said MC forcefully. He shoved me with everything he had and ran towards the bridge railing again, hoping over it he continued to run. I stumbled backwards and caught myself before I fell and hit the concrete. I realize what he's going to do, I let out a scream as I scramble to my feet and chase after him.
Time felt like it slowed down as recoiled with horror at what he was about to do. He jumped off the bridge and began his plummet down towards the water. Damn, he's really going through with it. I thought in panic, I noticed a shore line close to where I could haul him. Hopefully it won't be that far to swim. I see him hit the water with little to no struggle.
I just hope my swimming lessons pay off I thought as I took off the clothes that would weigh me down. I dove in after him,I noticed he had blacked out so I swam to him. Getting a hold of him this was going to be a fight back to the surface.
But I was not about to loose him! As I was swimming with him in tow I thought back to the time that Sayori introduced him to the club, to the first poem he wrote for Natsuki, to the first time the spent underneath the window sill, to even her spending time at his place baking cupcakes for the festival. The very day that I got angry with him I didn't know that Sayori was going to take her life that day, I still blame myself for that. I finally got to the surface and began to swim towards shore.
There I saw my school uniform,I was down to just my bra and underwear next time just wear a bikini if your going to be doing something like this in the future Monika! I cursed myself for that as well. Thankfully I was redressed and got out my phone. I dialed the hospital and requested an ambulance and they said that one would be dispatched to my location. Hours later they got him into the ambulance and I was riding with them weather they liked it or not diving into water half naked not the brightest idea I thought embarrassingly.
The Hospital
Osaka, Japan
Reception room
I was told by the doctor I didn't care to remember his name that MC is in a coma and only had a 30% chance of waking up. I decided to call Sayori tell her to come to the hospital. This was going to the toughest news that I am about to tell Sayori, of course I saw Yuri there as well. Well this should be interesting I thought sadly.
I saw Sayori and Yuri get out of her car in the parking lot and walk in the reception room I noticed that Sayori just rushed me like a football player. "Is he okay?, when is he going to wake up?" asked Sayori in a panic.
"The Doctor said he has no idea, he only has a 30% chance of waking up from his coma." I said. I could tell by the look in her eyes that she was about to go ballistic and she did and told me "That's okay, I do hope he wakes up" she said in a odd way that made me think she was going to try again to take her life. Yuri mostly stayed quiet the whole time which suited me just fine. After we talked some more I decided out of the blue to get things prepped in case she wants to spend the night.
We all walked out of the hospital and Yuri offered to give me a lift back to my place. I agreed and we all got into her car and drove off. The ride was mostly silent which is exactly what each of us needs right now. I saw my house in the distance and Yuri pulled into my driveway. Getting out of the car I headed towards my place and closed the door behind me. I don't want to give Yuri the satisfaction of knowing what I was really planning.
I then notice Yuri pull out of the drive way and head off towards Sayori's house. Well best to start working on the spare bedroom for her.
Sayori's POV
I couldn't believe what I had just heard, my childhood friend has a 30% chance of waking up from his coma. Maybe it would be best if everyone is without me. All I am is just a burden to everyone including MC. I notice that Yuri is pulling into my driveway. As the car comes to a stop I get out and close the car door behind me and walk towards the front door of my parents house. Of course my parents would be busy.
Not that it mattered much to me anyway. I headed upstairs towards my room and found the noose from the day of the festival. This is going to be it, finally I won't be such a burden to everyone even MC. Instead an idea struck me, I decided to get my diary out and write in it. I just hope that he doesn't find this entry and thinks I took my life over a number it would be a pointless death. No I had to be strong for him that one day he would wake up.
Sunday, December 26th 2017
If you wake up
Then my life was worth it
Please live your life with no regrets
Even tho I didn't say anything
I've always...
Always...
Loved you.
Sayori
I tore out the page and hid it underneath my bed I couldn't bear to look at it. I couldn't take my life a second time. It would be wrong to Monika, Natsuki, MC, and even Yuri. No. I had a better idea. I pulled out my phone and decided that I would spend the night with Monika. Because right now I was on the razors edge of going through with it. And I needed a friend to talk to more than anything. I couldn't be seen as a coward and a failure in MC's eyes. The very day he saved me from going through with it. The day of the festival. It's something that I can never forget.
Monika's POV
My phone suddenly rang as I had finished with the guest bedroom. "Monika here" I said into the phones speaker. "Yeah do you mind if I spend the night?" asked Sayori on the other end.
I thought about it and internally agreed I lost one club member and nearly lost MC, I can't afford to loose Sayori. "Yeah, I've got a guest bedroom all set up for you." I said. I could tell that she was happy and would be over soon.
Minutes later
I heard a knock at my door. Upon opening it I saw Sayori with a duffel bag in her hand. "Can I come in?" asked Sayori politely. "Sure come on in, You can set your duffel bag in the guest room for the moment. I'll get us some coco." I said with a smile. I walked towards the kitchen and began to work on making the coco. It looks like she really needs something to drink anyway.
As far as the school knows they had a student take their life followed up by another student's attempted suicide. So thankfully we are excused for the day since I got a text from them anyway. I thought I'd have to lie to the school but they figured it out and offered counseling? Normally I'd take them up on it,but I have to do everything that I can to keep Sayori from ending her life. I thought scared. I just had to make sure I didn't show it.
Finally Sayori emerged from the guest bedroom and took a seat on the couch in her pink shirt and shorts. After the hot coco was done I took the two cups into the living room and handed one to Sayori. "Careful it's rather hot" I warned her.
She took a few sips and set it back down on some trays that I had setup. I could tell that she was trembling, and I knew exactly what it was. Sayori broke down her eyes spilling like dam's as she latched onto me crying her eyes out.
"It feels like my entire world is falling apart, first Natsuki is gone now I feel like MC is gone as well!, it's like my heart being ripped out of my chest and just stabbed at several times!" said Sayori as she cried into my shoulder.
All I could do was just stroke her until she calmed down enough. I really didn't know what to say I really wanted to break down as well. Already a lump was forming in my throat and tears were threatening to spill out as well.
I continued to hold her for what felt like hours, eventually she past out. I moved one of the trays with my cup of hot coco on it and picked her up and carried her to the guest bedroom and tucked her in. I was about to walk out when I heard her talk or mumble something in her tearful sleep.
"MC, don't leave me I don't know what I would do without you." said Sayori sleepily. I don't know what I would do without him either, I hope he wakes up soon. I thought sadly. I walked back into the living room and picked up the two mugs of hot coco and put them in the fridge and just left the two trays out. I'll deal with them later.
I walked up the stairs to my own room and got out of my uniform and into my green nightgown. I closed my eyes calming myself for a bit before I climbed into bed to get some much needed sleep.
The next few days are going to be rough ones. As I was about to close my eyes I get a flurry of texts from Yuri. This is no surprise I wonder what she's on about this time? I thought as I opened the messaging app on my phone.
Y: "This is all your fault Monika, your the one that pushed Natsuki to cut herself."
M: "How is this my fault?! When I found MC's phone I saw the texts and the photo's that YOU sent him and your the one that pushed Natsuki to cut herself. This club was suppose to be a safe place where people could write poems and learn to express themselves. Instead you decided to bully Natsuki when her dad was doing that on a constant basis."
Y: "And now MC's in a coma because of you! You are but the worst Monika I hope you rot in hell!"
M: "No, none of this is on me. This is on you Yuri, if Sayori found out you and I both know that she would attempt to take her life for the second time! Do you really want that?"
Y: "I frankly don't care about her, she was and still is too fragile to deal with Death and you Monika are a joke of a president!"
M: "Really? Well consider this club disbanded since I can see where this is going, don't contact me and if you do I'll be sure to block you!"
With that I proceeded to exit out of the messaging app, though I had a funny feeling that Yuri was going to send me one more message. Not that I was going to bother to read it nor did I even care. I blocked yuri's number anyway. Shutting off my phone I closed my eyes and went to sleep.
The Next Morning
Waking up I headed downstairs and saw Sayori cooking which came as a surprise. "Monika I was thinking, after breakfast I think it's time that I tell you the reason I came here. I came here because I am at the razors edge of ending my life. I couldn't go through with it MC was the one that saved me that day on the festival and for that I owe him." said Sayori with tears in her eyes threatening to spill. Maybe I shouldn't have been so harsh on him, it just wasn't right. I thought sadly.
"And I want to visit the hospital to say goodbye and maybe tell my parents about my depression." she added. I was taken aback by this, but smiled all the same. "Then I'll be by your side the entire time." I said. Both myself and Sayori had served breakfast for ourselves, it was eggs with bacon and toast. Nothing special. We ate in silence not speaking a single word.
Hours later
After taking the plates to the sink to be washed I had to get dressed and ready for the day. Luckily I taught Sayori how to make coffee so that was going to be next, at least to really wake me and Sayori up. While the coffee was brewing I thought back to the very moment when MC attempted to take his life.
Why, I know it has something to do with Yuri but I'm it must be something with her cutting. But why bully her as well? That doesn't make much sense I thought.
Ignoring that the coffee was finally done. Grabbing a nearby mug I poured us a cup of coffee, taking the mugs into the front room I set them on the same trays that we used for our hot coco which should be still in the fridge ready to be heated up.
Finishing up the first cup of coffee I took both mugs back into the kitchen to be washed. "Alright Sayori lets go." I said. Our first stop was the hospital, and this wasn't going to be an easy one for her or me for that matter.
I decided to wait in the waiting room while Sayori went on ahead to say her good byes. I already said mine while riding in the ambulance with MC that day.
Sayori's POV
I walked into MC's room and saw him hooked up to all kinds of machines. I pulled up a chair as tears threatened to spill from my eyes. I took his hand in mine as it was hard to speak but I had to. "My dad got offered a job in the capital and we will be moving soon. The doctors only said you have a 30% chance of waking up from this coma of yours, I wish I could be the first person that you see but that won't be the case." I said.
With that I walked out not saying a word, the next part was telling my parents that I have depression, I really need someone by my side. Monika said that she's going to be my side and I need to do this now more than ever. "Lets go Monika, I don't wanna be here anymore." I said. She nodded and we left.
Monika's POV
I didn't bother calling up Yuri for a ride since that would only cause more drama than what's there already. After the hospital we walked to Sayori's house. Walking inside we saw her parents just doing what they normally do.
After Sayori got their attention she told them she had depression. I noticed that her mother fainted and her father couldn't believe what he was hearing. He quickly rushed towards the kitchen and began looking up a doctor in order to help her.
Meanwhile Sayori continued talking after her father walked back into the living room. "My daughter, I found someone who can help you plus you already know about us moving to the capital because of my job offer." he said. Sayori nodded at that and well I guess I took my cue to leave and head back to my house. This was not going to be easy being the first person that MC see's when he wakes up.
6 month's later
Osaka Hospital, Japan
