This is super-short, and I apologize. But it's a song fic, and mostly a part of his memory... I'll make the next one a lot longer, I promise. But I didn't want to end the song and then continue the story. It would seem weird...
Anyhow, I made this song up, because I couldn't find a song to match the mood. Please don't steal it. And if you hate it, ignore it, kay? I'm only thirteen, and I'm not Michelle Branch or anything... Well, the next chapter will be a meeting between Shuichi and his dad. And this chapter will leave you will a zillion more questions. Gomen! - Sorry I didn't update yesterday. I was exhausted... And I still am. So if something doesn't make sense, just point it out. I probably wrote it in my sleep anyhow.
Oh, and what the heck is a beta? People say they have betas, and I have no clue what they do or what they are. Are they computer programs or something? Please tell me in your review!
Oh, and thank you reviewers! I got so many reviews! Please keep on reviewing! I'm glad so many people like this story, and I haven't even gotten to the good part. (the next chapter) I won't post it if you guys don't review, because then I won't think anyone likes it... -cries- So, if you really want to know what happens, review! - Okay, here's the chapter. It's not my favorite because it's so short, but I really tried hard, especially with the song!
The song is titled 'Tonight' and is mine. If you really want to use it, ask me and tell me why. (I don't know why you would though. It's really bad...) Don't be offended if I say no. (I doubt that will happen) Usually I'll say yes if you give me credit, kay? Good, now, finally, on with the shortest chapter in history!
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation, but I do own the song, 'Tonight'. If you steal it, I will report you! I worked VERY hard on that song! -cries- Tonight is dedicated to all my reviewers!
Chapter 2 Pt. 2: Memories
The clock struck two and a dong echoed throughout the room. A small boy covered his eyes, fearing everything around him. He rocked himself back and forth, soothing himself silently.
Beside him stood someone, someone he didn't want to name…The boy wanted to escape the room, escape reality, escape life. But one person was blocking his path. This person had red eyes, like the devil himself. The boy began to cry, wishing to get away from this person… And he left. The boy thanked God, or whoever made the man stay away, if only for a night.
I was always by your side
Never complained and didn't ask for much
I wanted you to like me (like me)
But you couldn't have it that way!
You had to make me cry
Make me wanna die
I needed to crawl away
'Cause of you, but that's okay!
The boy wanted to think he was okay. He wanted someone to tell him that everything was okay, that nothing was wrong, that he was safe. But no one did. Silence was his only friend, but not his only enemy. He stopped crying and closed his eyes, waiting for sleep to take him to a dream world, a world he could never be in.
Cause I'm okay
I'm alright
You are gone for tonight
I won't cry anymore
'Cause you're not here
I can sleep soundly tonight
The boy let a smile form on his face, because he was safe for the moment. He was safe… He felt like laughing, but he didn't dare. Silence was his friend and enemy, so he didn't want to disturb it. Actually, he enjoyed the silence. It meant that no one was there, that he was alone. Tonight, he was glad. Tonight he was happy, because he was alone.
Tonight I can smile
Tonight I can laugh
Tonight I'll wait a while
Before I have to go back
To the fear and the rain
I'll cherish this night forever
Cause you're not with me!
The clock struck three and there was a dong. Time went by very fast in the silence. The boy knew that his time was passing by quickly, like a bullet train. He enjoyed this night to the fullest, because it might just be his last night like this. He felt like he was fine for that moment, like everything was alright, the way it was supposed to be. But was he fooling himself, or was he really happy? He remembered the man, and shuddered.
Cause I'm okay
I'm alright
You are gone for tonight
I won't cry anymore
'Cause you're not here
I can sleep soundly tonight
'I'm happy' he thought. 'I really am. How can't I be? He's gone, right? He isn't coming back for awhile, right? Someone tell me he isn't coming back soon. Please…' The boy felt like he was on air, and even spread out his arms, waiting for the wind to blow him away. Tonight was the best night he ever remembered, because HE was gone. HE wasn't here, at least for now.
Yes, I am fine
You are gone
For tonight
I can be happy!
I can dance
I can sing
You can't break my wing
Tonight
Tonight
Cause tonight is the best night ever
The boy stared at the clock again, willing for it to freeze. He wanted this moment to last forever, he wanted time to stop. He wanted a lot of things. For a moment, he saw the clock's hands stop, or maybe it was an illusion. But a second later, the clock's hands moved again, and the boy knew he was only dreaming….
Cause I'm okay
I'm alright
You are gone for tonight
I won't cry anymore
'Cause you're not here
I can sleep soundly tonight
No, it wasn't true. Looking at the clock, he realized something. Nothing was alright anymore. It hadn't been alright since the day he talked. Ever since HE came, nothing was fine, and nothing was okay. Even when the boy tried to sleep, HE came back in the form of horrible nightmares. HE was everywhere the boy looked. HE ruined everything.
I still have nightmares
Even when you're gone
I can't escape you
For very long
You'll haunt me forever
But that's okay!
No, it's not okay…. (whisper)
The boy fought the urge to cry, to collapse into the darkness and never wake up again. He watched as the clock struck four. No sound came this time. Perhaps he was imagining the sound from the beginning? Or maybe it was there, and he had lost the ability to hear. The boy didn't know, and didn't care…. Or at least, he told himself that….
Cause I'm okay
I'm alright
You are gone for tonight
I won't cry anymore
'Cause you're not here
I can sleep soundly tonight
No…..
He was fooling himself, he truly was. He had told himself that as long as HE wasn't here, HE couldn't hurt him. But that was a lie. Every time he closed his eyes, HE was there, waiting to hurt him. HE was always there, and there was nothing he could do to stop it.
Cause I'm not okay
I'm not alright
You aren't really gone tonight
'Cause you're still here inside
I still can't sleep soundly tonight!
The boy began to cry, letting the tears flow down his cheeks and on to the floor. He was lost, hopeless and scared. There was nothing he could do except cry. He had no one to save him, no one to keep HIM away. No matter what happened, he wasn't okay…. He couldn't ever be okay, because being okay was only an illusion he made for himself, just like the sound the clock made… It was only an illusion.
Tonight
Tonight
I'm not okay
Tonight…
And that wasn't even the worst of this nightmare the boy called life. It was only the beginning….
Shuichi sat up straight, breathing heavily and sweating like crazy. He took a deep breath and looked around, expecting HIM to be there. But he wasn't. Shuichi was safe in Yuki's apartment. There was no HIM anymore. There was only Shuichi and Yuki, no one else.
Shuichi let out a sigh of relief. He was so scared before, but it was only a dream, an illusion. It wasn't real. Then, Shuichi looked beside him. There was a phone. Then, he remembered…
It wasn't a nightmare. It was real. He had to face his nightmares again, alone again. Shuichi buried his face in his pillow and started to cry.
A/N: Yeah, it was short and the song was horrible. Sorry! Someone suggested giving hints about the past, so I made a wholepart just for that. Please review though! I cherish every single review I receive, and reply to each one. So please, review! I promise it'll get better soon! (in the next chapter!) I guess this is sort of just a side story. Chapter 3 will be longer! YAY!
