Chapter 12

I knew this wasn't the smartest thing for me to do. Oh who was I kidding? This was this stupidest thing that I had ever done. But I was doing it now and no one was going to be able to stop me.

I didn't think that going to India first would be smart. I had to go to Moscow and ask around and ask people what was going on. But who? What if Kirill had told them that I had been out of the work force for a while and I wasn't coming back?

Now the question was: Should I go to India, or go to Russia? This didn't make any sense at all. I was getting too confused and I was getting way ahead of myself. I need to start in India,I thought. That's the only place I know where he is.

But what if he isn't and he's in Moscow? No…He would have to go to India first because that's where Jason Bourne is…and then he'll pick up the money in Moscow and…oh only God know what'll happen next.

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I then started to get my stuff reading. My plane would be leaving for Goa, India in only a couple of hours and I couldn't be late. I'm going to find you Kirill. I want you to come back and be with me. You know that this is stupid.

I hated not listening to him though. But that didn't matter anymore. He knew that this was stupid. This should've never have happened in the first place to the both of us. But we didn't have anybody when we were younger. No one to love us or anything.

He never told me about his past though,and I never really told him about mine. My life had been a disaster since I was a child. My parents had died when our house caught on fire… and I just had to be there when it happened… I don't remember how old I was…but that's the only thing I remember…

I was pretty much an orphan after then…and then these people took me in and trained me to become an assassin…a trained killer. Having no emotion and wanted to go after the people who had destroyed my house I learned quickly…and then Kirill came in and everything changed.

He was sharp too. He barely ever talked though…sometimes I think that his life must have been pretty messed up to do the things that he did. It must have been messed up more than mine…

I started to get feelings for him after one of our victories. I didn't want to say anything though; having known the rules of being an assassin since I was young girl I knew what was going to happen if I said anything about love. We were bad people…that's what the world saw (and still does.)us as.

But we have feelings too. Doesn't anyone get that? We might not be perfect either,but we have feelings. But these feelings I have for him just won't go away…I love him so much and I have to find him now because I don't have a choice. And I don't care what happens. I just want to find him now.