Chapter 14
I had a hard time sleeping that night. He was now finally by my side,only that he was going to have to leave me again. This wasn't right. I should tell him that we should leave now and forget about this. What was wrong with me?
I got up and went outside and looked out the balcony. It was such a pretty morning. I didn't want to do this Kirill,I thought. But I needed to see you again. I know that I can't stop you now. But I want to be with you…once more.
"Nicole?"asked a voice. It was Kirill. "What are you doing out here?"
"I…I couldn't sleep."
He stood by me and put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer to him. I didn't want this moment to end. I felt so safe by his side. But he was an assassin. How was I supposed to live with that?
"I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye."
"It's ok. It doesn't matter anymore."
"Yes it does. I didn't meant to hurt you."
I sighed. "I know. I understand."
"I just…I guess I've never felt like this before…"
"I know what you mean. I haven't either."
"Did you really mean that?"
"When I said that I loved you?"
"Yes…"
"What are you going to say if I did mean it?"
"Just answer the question."
"Yes…yes
I meant it."
"I really don't know what to say…you know the rule…"
"But you said that you cared about me Kirill. Rules are meant to be broken once in a while."
"I guess so."
"And then what'll happen?"
"What?"
"I just want to know what's going to happen after you kill this guy."
"I wish I knew."
"Why can I help you?"
"You quit."
"What they don't know won't hurt them."
"You know I didn't want you here in the first place."
"And nothing happened."
"I was afraid you would say that."
"Then what are you afraid of?"
"I don't want something to happen to you."
"They don't know anything about me. This person doesn't know me either."
"He might…you never know…"
"You're the one chasing him. Not me."
He went silent.
"What's wrong?"
He shook his head. "It's nothing."
"Ok."
"How long are you going to stay here?"
"I don't know. I hadn't really planned that."
"Stay here until I kill him."
"Ok…"
"So I can tell you when everything's ok."
"All right. Then what…?"
"I don't know what will happen after that. That's all I'm going to tell you now." He started to walk back inside. He stopped and turned around.
He looked at me for a while and then walked back over to me. He put his arms around me and we embraced. I looked into his eyes,and for a moment,I didn't see the evil in him. I didn't see the assassin. I just saw a person who needed someone to love him. I wanted to be that person.
"Why do you have to do this…?Why can't you just stay with me…?"I closed my eyes and smiled.
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The sun was beginning to rise as we went back to the room. I got the feeling that Kirill was going to be leaving me soon. I sat on the bed and didn't say anything…well,more like hesitated to say something. I knew what was going to happen,I just didn't want to come back to reality.
I watched as he packed his things,but I didn't say anything. I was too mad at myself for not trying to stop him when I had the chance. Why didn't I stay home like I was suppose to,I thought. Then this wouldn't have happened.
Why did I let him into my house in the first place? That's what started in all…but then everything happened and couldn't stop them. I can't stop him from trying to kill this guy…that's his business…not mine.
"I'll be back in couple of hours,"he said.
I nodded and didn't say anything.
"Are you all right?"
"Yes,"I said faintly. "I'm fine."
He kissed me. "I'll come back. Don't worry about me. Just stay here ok?"
I nodded. "Ok.
"Goodbye,"he then walked out of the room and left me.
