Chapter 19
I started not to worry so much about the files. I was just glad that he was here with me. Nothing else mattered now but having him with me. But I had to come back to reality. He was going to be leaving me in less than a month. Oh well. I might as well enjoy the days he was going to be spending with me
But something else wasn't right. What if Bourne wasn't dead? Then Kirill would have to leave me and start chasing him again. This wasn't going to be fair. But then again,nothing in life was supposed to be fair.
Don't leave me,I thought. What ever you do,don't leave me Kirill…
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One step closer
By: Linkin Park
I'm about
to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one
step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I'm
about to break
This room to breathe
This room to breathe
This room to breathe
I cannot take this anymore
Saying
everything I've said before
All these words, they make no sence
I found bliss in ignorance
Less I hear, the less you say
You'll find that out anyway
I find the answers aren't so
clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these
thoughts, they make no since
I found bliss in ignorance
Nothing
seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I
need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I
need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break
These
are the places where I can feel torn from my body
My flesh, it
peels during this ride we can cut upwhat we like
I'm about to
break
Waiting alone, I cannot resist
Feeling this hate, I
have never missed
Please, someone, give me a reason to rip off my
face
Blood is a pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And
pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And
pouring
And pouring
And pouring
Shut up when I'm
talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood
is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up when I'm
talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood
is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
I'm
about to break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about
to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to
break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the
edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to
break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step
closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little
room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And
I'm about to
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"Nicole! Nicole wake up!"said Kirill.
"What…what happened?"
"Are you all right?"
"Yes…I'm fine."
"Were you having a nightmare again?"
They aren't nightmares,I thought. They're flashbacks… I shook my head. "No. It…it was something else…"
I got out of the bed and went to the bathroom and took some medicine. I stopped and looked at the mirror for a second. Calm down,I thought. Everything's going to be ok. He's still here with you. What's wrong? He hasn't left you.
"Are you sure you're all right?"he said.
I nodded.
He put his hand on my forehead. "You're sick."
"I just took some medicine. I'll be fine."
"Are you…scared?"
"About what?"
"About me leaving…if I have to?"
I sighed. "No. I just don't feel good. I'll be fine ok. Don't worry about it." I walked out of the bathroom and sat on the bed.
He walked over to me and put his hand on mine. "I could hear you know."
I started breathing harder and harder.
He sat down on the bed and put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer to him. "I know you're scared Nicole."
"I don't want you to leave me. I'm always getting these visions that something's going to happen to you."
He kissed me. "Nothing's going to happen to me. I told you the job was finished didn't I?"
I nodded. "Yes."
He kissed me again. "Then don't worry about it. I want to stay here with you."
I smiled and said nothing.
"Now go back to sleep. Everything's going to be ok. I love you and nothing's going to happen." He smiled and went back to sleep.
I just sat there and looked at him. How can you sleep and not worry about what's going to happen? What if something does happen Kirill and I can't do anything about it? What if…oh god. I don't even want to think about that.
Maybe I'm just being stupid. Maybe nothing's going to happen and I'm just over thinking this. I should just trust his words. Everything's going to be ok. He's going to be ok and nothing's going happen.
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I got off the bed and went downstairs into the kitchen to get something to drink. I looked at the clock. It was close to 6:30. I didn't want to go back upstairs. I would probably just get upset again.
But I knew that something wasn't right. In my heart I knew that something wasn't right. Something told me that Jason Bourne was still alive. I should just try to find him and kill him myself. But then again,this is none of my business.
I went to the living room and took out my laptop. I started to hear something beeping. Oh crap,I thought. I knew that I was right. I knew that he was still alive. But I couldn't tell Kirill. I shut off my computer so he wouldn't know anything. Oh god,I thought. Please don't tell me he heard the beeping noise.
I started to hear footsteps. I shut off my laptop and put it under the couch so he wouldn't see it.
"There you are,"he said as he found me. "You scared me there. I thought you had left." He smiled and walked over to me and kissed me.
"I wouldn't have any reason to leave."
"What's wrong?"
"I couldn't go back to sleep."
"I see…"
I went silent.
"Are you sure you're ok?"
"Yeah I'm fine."
He felt my forehead again. "You're fever's coming down. That's good."
"Yeah."
He sat down on the couch and kissed me. I put my head on his lap and went back to sleep.
