Chapter 20
The day was so peaceful. I didn't want it to end. But I knew it was going to have to. Should I tell him,I thought. No. Then he would leave me. And I didn't want that. I didn't want him to leave me after all we've been through.
What's wrong them me? Why can't I just tell him? He'll just go off again,and hopefully kill the guy this time. But I don't want that…because I know everything now. But like usual,I wanted to know more. I wanted to go deeper into this…this thing that was going on.
But nothing had happened since the day we had left India. No one had called him,no one had told him to go back to Russia(because it hadn't been a month yet.),or anything. And it was nice. I was starting to enjoy myself. Most of all,I was enjoying having him here with me.
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The next morning the phone started to ring. I woke up,and Kirill wasn't beside me. Oh god,I thought. Please don't tell me…
About five minutes later he came marching in the room.
"I need to go back,"he said.
"It hasn't been a month yet."
"Yeah I know."
"How do they know he's still alive?"
He shook his head. "I don't know."
"You don't have to do this Kirill."
"He's supposed to be dead."
"This is stupid and you know it."
"I thought we talked about this."
"And I don't want you to leave."
"I don't have a choice."
"Yes you do!"
He grabbed my hand. "Stop it!"
I looked at him. I wanted to cry so badly. This is was stupid! Why did he have to leave me? Didn't he know that he had a choice?
"I can't back out of this now Nicole. I told you that,"he said calmly as he let go of my arm.
"Yes you can…"
"It's so easy for you."
"This has never been easy for me Kirill."
"You have a life."
"And so do you. This is stupid and you know it."
"I need to leave now. Don't try to stop me or come after me. Leave me alone."
He packed his things and started to head downstairs,and I followed. "Kirill please. For the love of God don't do this now!"
"We've already been over this a million times Nicole."
"But I love you…"
He walked over and put his hand on my face. "I know you do Nicole. And I love you too. But I don't have a choice. The job isn't finished."
Oh I should have just told him about yesterday,I thought. "Ok…"
"You aren't going to stop me?"
I shook my head. "You do want you need to do. I'll stay here."
He kissed me. "I love you Nicole."
"I love you too Kirill."
"I'll call you when I get there all right?"
I nodded. "Ok."
He smiled and kissed me again. "Don't cry. I'm not worth crying over."
"Yes you are…you are to me."
"Don't kid yourself."
"I know. I'm just being stupid."
"Don't say that. Well. I gotta go. I love you,"and he walked out the door and left me.
