Chapter 24
Sleep was the only thing I didn't feel like getting. I felt like crap,and plus he was leaving me soon. I hated having this feeling that he might not come back this time… I felt like I was being stupid though. He's going to be fine,I thought. Everything's going to be ok.
I tried to go back to sleep,hoping that everything was going to be ok. I hated having to feel like this,especially with him here. I still wondered how he found me in the first place. He had probably hacked into my stuff because I hadn't picked up the phone when he had called me. I knew he wasn't stupid.
I looked at him and smiled and tried to get some sleep…
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One step closer
By: Linkin Park
I'm about
to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one
step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I'm
about to break
This room to breathe
This room to breathe
This room to breathe
I cannot take this anymore
Saying
everything I've said before
All these words, they make no sence
I found bliss in ignorance
Less I hear, the less you say
You'll find that out anyway
I find the answers aren't so
clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these
thoughts, they make no sence
I found bliss in ignorance
Nothing
seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I
need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I
need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break
These
are the places where I can feel torn from my body
My flesh, it
peels during this ride we can cut upwhat we like
I'm about to
break
Waiting alone, I cannot resist
Feeling this hate, I
have never missed
Please, someone, give me a reason to rip off my
face
Blood is a pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And
pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And
pouring
And pouring
And pouring
Shut up when I'm
talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood
is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up when I'm
talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood
is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
I'm
about to break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about
to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to
break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the
edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to
break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer
to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to
breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm
about to…
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I soon felt someone trying to wake me up and I suddenly woke up. My breathing was starting to get harder and harder.
"Nicole! Oh god. You're finally awake,"he said. "Are you all right?"
I sighed and nodded.
"What's wrong?"
I shook my head. "It's nothing."
"Stop it Nicole. I know you're lying to me. What's wrong?"
"I've been having nightmares about my past again."
"Do you know why?"
I shook my head. "It might just be because I'm sick."
"What are they about?"
I sighed. "Different things…things I don't want to remember…"
"Like what…?"
"Different missions…having to see my parents die over and over again. I hate it!"
He put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer to him. "Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh… It's going to be ok."
"Why did you join?"
"What?"
"Why did you join? Why did you want?"
He sighed. "Because my past was like yours…but I was never really truly happy."
"Oh."
"But you know I shouldn't be telling you things like this. We're not supposed to give away information about our past."
"Do you think they really care?"
He smirked. "You're very stubborn."
"You can be too sometimes."
He smiled and kissed me. "Are you going to be ok?"
I nodded. "Yes."
"Get some sleep. I'm not going to leave you for a while so everything's going to be ok."
"For how long?"
"What?"
"How long is everything going to be ok?"
"Nicole…stop."
I sighed. "Sorry."
"I'm not going to leave you ok?"
"Ok."
"I don't want to do this either…but I really don't have a choice."
I sighed. "I know. Stop reminding me."
"Everything will be over when this can stop."
"After he's dead you mean."
"Yes."
"Does he really have to be dead?"
"Yes."
"Ok."
"You wouldn't understand."
Good point,I thought. I sighed. "I just wish I could go back."
"After this there won't be any point to go back. But why would you want to go back?"
"Because I have you now."
"I'm just an assassin Nicole. I'm a bad person and that's all I am."
"Not to me you're not Kirill. To me you're something more and you know that."
He smiled and we embraced. "Would you really want to go back?"
"To be with you…yes."
"You're not lying?"
"I wouldn't have any point to."
"Then you can help me."
"How?"
"By tracking him down for me again."
"Ok."
"Can you do that for me?"
I nodded. "Yes."
He kissed me again. "That would mean so much to me."
"Are you still wired?"
"Haven't taken it off."
"Good. But when are you supposed to be leaving?"
He sighed. "I don't know that yet. But you need to get some sleep. You're going to get worse if you don't get some sleep."
"What about you?"
"Don't worry about me. I'll be fine."
