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CHAPTER 6
Comas, jumping and owls
An owl dropped by Lily and hooted scaring her.
She suspiciously eyed the strange bird, and then took the letter off its leg. She carefully broke the seal she knew belonged to the Ministry of magic. As she read the letter she felt her eyes grow wide, but she would not let herself cry, not again. She had fixed that little mistake and nothing would break through again. Lily just sat and stared at the letter, thinking. Ally upon noticing her friend acting strange, tried to snap her out of her state.
"Lils, are you ok?" Ally asked her, snapping her fingers.
"Lily, Lily!"
Still Lily paid no attention.
"LILY!" Ally was screaming.
"Lily, please pay attention, are you alright?"
Lily just stayed in a trance, her eyes glazed over and her hands still clutching the letter.
"LILY, EARTH TO LILY!" Ally frantically tried to get her to respond. It was no use. Lily just sat there, gripping her letter and staring into space. Ally saw the letter and tried to grab it.
Lily immediately was awoken from her thoughts.
"Ally, what are you doing?" she as calmly.
"Well, you-you were acting strange and I-I-I couldn't get you to respond so I-"
"Oh don't worry, Ally, I'm fine." Lily cut her off, "Now if you'll excuse me, I have to go."
Lily curtly nodded to her friend and promptly exited the great hall, taking her letter with her. Suddenly she felt overcome with anger. How dare he? How dare he do that to them?
"ARGH!" She screamed and quickened her pace, storming up to the common room in a whirlwind of anger.
Everyone was at dinner so she didn't expect anyone in the common room. She burst through the portrait hole and immediately took out her wand. She flicked her wand at a table and it flung into a wall. She smiled and repeated it with another table. She pointed her want at a chair and it burst into flames causing her to laugh a little. She did the same to two more chairs before she heard hurried footsteps come downstairs and a confused face came into sight.
"What the Hell? Evans, what are you doing?" A voice startled her out of her state.
"Go away, Potter." She said through gritted teeth. She cooled down a little and slumped on the couch, putting her wand in her pocket.
"Nah," he said before flinging himself onto the couch beside her. "What's that you got there, Evans?"
Lily screwed up her letter and dropped it by the couch, "Potter, I am warning you, please leave, now."
"But, Evans, I rather like it here."
"GO!" she shouted standing up.
"Wow, Evans, it seems someone has there monthly. What's got you so uptight?" he asked cockily.
She closed her eyes and then snapped them open. Once again they were burning green fires.
"NONE OF YOUR GOD DAMN BUSINESS POTTER! GET THE HELL OUT OF MY SIGHT!"
"CALM DOWN EVANS I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHY YOU'RE SO GRUMPY." He yelled back, she wasn't going to beat him this time.
"POTTER, I WOULD RATHER ROT IN HELL THAN TELL YOU MY PROBLEMS!"
"Well with that attitude, no wonder you have no friends." He smirked.
Just keep pushing, Potter, she thought to herself, I dare you.
"Ally is my friend." She stated simply.
"Please, she just feels sorry for you, she would dump you in a heart beat if you weren't so pathetic. I feel sorry for her, having to hang out with such a frigid hag like you." He said with his voice rising.
Lily thought for a moment. What if what he says is true? What if Ally doesn't really like me? If that's true no one likes me. I'm just a useless loner, with no one to turn to.
"What's the matter, Evans, cat got your tongue?" he teased.
"I HATE YOU JAMES POTTER, AND I ALWAYS WILL!" She bellowed.
"YOU ARE SO SNAPPY AND RUDE NO WONDER NO ONE LIKES YOU, EVANS, WHY DON'T YOU JUST DO US A FAVOUR AND DIE! TRUST ME NO ONE WOULD CARE!" Damn it, Damn it, Damn it, James thought, why did I say that. She always makes me say the wrong things. Merlin, this seems familiar.
To his surprise Lily was laughing, but it was a scary laugh full of cold humour and ice.
"You know what Potter," She said still chuckling. "You're probably right."
Lily turned and swept out of the room.
Geez, what's wrong with her? She's so damn dramatic and moody. I wonder what got her so uptight.
James noticed a crumbled piece of paper by the couch where Lily had been sitting. Letting curiosity get the best of him he slowly picked up the letter and read it.
Dear Miss Lily Evans,
We regret to inform you that your home in Surrey was attacked on Wednesday 22nd of this month by you-know-who. As your sister was out she was not harmed, though your father was not so fortunate and he lost his life. We are terribly sorry for your loss and hope you feel better soon. We are arranging a place for you to stay this summer and we are sorry for the delay in getting this letter to you.
Sincerely yours,
Euphrasy Sprats
Damn it, James sighed as he read over the letter, I just can't go right with that girl can I?
And he turned and ran after her, once again.
Boy, he thought while searching for her, this is getting to be a reoccurring thing.
WITH LILY
Potter is right, she thought, no one would miss me. No one would even know I was gone, I bet. This way everyone would just be happier, if I can't help them any other way, this is how I will do it.
Lily's mind was racing as she made her way up to the Astronomy tower. This is where I'll do it, she thought.
No one will care. I have lost every one who ever meant anything to me. First Mum, now Dad. That's all I had. Dad hadn't been the same since then but I still loved him. Now…Now…he's gone. It's my fault. Once again, if I weren't a witch he would have lived. Just like Mum.
She looked down, it was a long fall, No regrets, she thought.
I have always wondered what it would be like to be free, soon I'll know. I won't hurt anyone but myself, and that's just physical pain, it won't hurt for long. Soon, I'll join my mother and father. Soon, we will be reunited.
Though, I will miss Ally, but when I'm gone she will be free to make new friends, I'm just holding her back.
NO MORE! I have been a burden on people to long.
That ground looks terribly hard, maybe I should put a softening charm on it. It will still get the job done and it won't hurt so much. Yes, that's what I will do.
She pulled out her wand and muttered the softening charm.
Ok, this is it, she thought stepping out to the edge, I'm sorry to whoever finds me.
She sniffed.
I will not cry. That will make me weak, I need to be strong to do this.
She noticed a figure down by the lake, they seemed to be searching for something.
Probably Potter, she snorted, probably looking for me so he can see me cry again. Jerk.
"Goodbye cruel world." She muttered as she took a deep breath and stepped out into the cool breeze.
The wind whizzed past her, then surrounded her body, pushing her down fast. She let a scream escape her numbing lips as she soared through the air. No one can say quite what was going through her head as she fell, but it was certain whatever she was thinking stopped when she made contact with the ground.
WITH JAMES
He ran through the halls of Hogwarts, searching for any sign of Lily Evans. Nothing. Everyone was at dinner so no one got in his way. He searched the entire castle and decided to go outside and look. After a while he became very worried.
Alright, where would I go to get away from it all? He asked himself.
But his thoughts were cut short by an ear piercing scream, and he turned his head in time to see a figure fall from the Astronomy tower, and hit the ground with a sickening crack.
Too late, he thought, she's done it, I've killed her. Oh god.
He quickly ran towards where he thought she had landed and the sight made him sick to his stomach.
There was what used to be Lily Evans. Her Once creamy skin was now a shocking clash between transparent white and purple. There was blood coming from numerous places all over her petite form. Her body was splayed at an odd angle that was seemingly impossible to bend that way having bones. Her piercing Emerald eyes were now blue and wide open and staring into nothing. There were several bones protruding from her flesh and the blood that was covering her seemed to be forming a pool around her. He leaned close to her and sat on his knees not caring about the blood soaking into his robes. He grabbed her hand and held it close. A few stray tears made their way down his face as he stared at her. He kept looking into her cold, lonely green eyes, no matter how much it made him sick, hoping she would return the gaze. But she did not.
"Lily," James muttered holding her hands still tighter. "Lily, why?"
He left his tears shining on his face like badges, as a few dripped onto her body.
Her hand was unusually cold, but James still held it.
"Lily, I know you can't hear me, but Lily I am so, so sorry." He swallowed the lump in his throat.
"Lily, I didn't mean to hurt you like this and it's all my fault. I can't believe I said those things to you."
He closed his eyes and continued.
"You only came into my life a while ago and now I can't imagine it without you, please don't go."
He laid his head on her chest which was fragile and he felt that a few of her ribs were broken.
"Lily, I will miss you so much and I can't believe I'm going to say this, but-"
He was cut off by her shallow breaths.
Wait, her shallow breaths. It was a miracle.
I should have known, he thought, if anyone could survive a fall from the Astronomy tower, it's you Lily Evans.
He hopped up and sprinted faster than he ever had before, back to the castle.
SCENE CHANGE
James had never ran so fast in his life, he felt as if his legs were going to fall off, but he kept pushing himself.
He knew Dumbledore would be in the Great Hall as it was still dinner time, and had to risk making what Lily had done public to save her.
He burst through the doors of the great hall, covered in sweat and looking pale. Everyone turned to look at him, there was nothing but silence.
"Professor Dumbledore, Sir, come quick it's Lily Evans."
Dumbledore rose from his seat quickly and followed James out. Ally was looking shocked but ran out after them none the less. Remus and Sirius decided to follow their friend also.
James led Dumbledore to where lily was, and pointed.
"She-she-jumped, and I-I-I found her like…this. I think s-she used a softening charm on the ground, and she is still very f-f-faintly breathing." He turned to face the Headmaster, James was scared. Never before had he seen Dumbledore so grave.
The sound of Remus, Sirius and Ally arriving snapped James out of his reverie. He turned to look at the three.
Remus and Sirius had wide eyes, and they seemed to be drained of all colour, and they looked as if holding back from throwing up. Sirius was trying not to let Ally see but she fought past him. As she set her eyes on the form of Lily, she screamed. Sirius held her tight as tears flowed from her face.
"Shh, don't look, Ally, don't look." He whispered.
She beat on his chest hard for a few minutes letting her sobs take over her. Suddenly she spun to look at James.
"YOU!" she shrieked, pointing her finger at him, "WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO TO HER!"
"WHY COULDN'T YOU JUST LEAVE HER ALONE, HUH?" She walked closer. "WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST LEAVE HER ALONE? WHY DID YOU DO THIS? SHES DEAD NOW POTTER AND IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!"
She immediately leapt onto him, pushing him to the ground. She swung her fists at every part of him she could.
"I HATE YOU" she screamed over and over slapping and punching him with all her might. James didn't even try put up a fight, he knew she was right. This was his fault, so he took the punishment willingly. Sirius hoisted a hysterical Ally off of James and held her tight.
"Now, Now Ally, I'm sure he didn't do this." But James noticed Sirius was avoiding eye contact with him as was Remus. They both looked disgusted with him, and couldn't make themselves look at him.
"Let her go Sirius," he said quietly. "It's what I deserve."
"No. Mr Black please keep a hold of Miss Knight and will you all follow me to the hospital wing and wait outside."
Dumbledore had magicked a stretcher and was levitating Lily to the hospital wing.
SCENE CHANGE
"James," the soft voice of Remus called him. "We need to talk."
They had been outside the hospital wing for six hours and none of them were saying a word to each other. James had knelt down outside the door with his head in his hands. Sirius was comforting the slightly less hysterical Ally and Remus was drifting in the shadows.
James stood up. Sirius and Ally were floating behind Remus as if he would protect them from James.
"James, tell us what happened, we're ready to listen." Ally said.
So James told them. He explained about how he was in the common room, and how he had taunted her, and about the letter. He explained how he had looked for her, and found her, then ran to find Dumbledore. Though leaving out where he talked to her whilst he thought she was dead.
"James," Ally cried embracing him in a hug. "I'm so sorry for blaming this on you, it's not your fault, I'm sorry." James just stood awkwardly as she hugged him tight.
"But it is, you see I didn't have to make fun of her like that. If I hadn't of done that she wouldn't of…." He let his gaze fall to the ground.
"No, James. That's not true. Lily lost someone close to her. The only one she had left. She couldn't live anymore like that. It's not your fault James. You were just in the wrong place at the wrong time."
She pulled away from him. Though on the outside this seemed to convince him on the inside it was still his fault.
"I'm sorry man," Sirius said before embracing James into a hug, not caring what anyone thought.
"Ahem." Dumbledore sounded.
"Oh, Professor, do you want me to tell you what happened?" James asked, not really wanting to.
"No need, I heard you explaining it to your friends, I simply came out to tell you if you wish to see Miss Evans you may. She is in a coma and Madam Pomfrey has fixed her as best as she can, it is still a little touch and go."
He motioned to the door.
"You go James." Ally said in a whisper.
James walked slowly towards the door.
He entered the dark hospital wing and saw a bed with the curtains drawn. He walked over and slipped inside, afraid of what he would see. There was Lily Evans, her skin almost transparent and most of her bones healed. There were still many scars and a lot of deep bruises, but she looked like a sleeping angel. James sat by her side and grabbed her hand once again.
He held her hand tight not wanting to let go. He let his finger tough her soft cheeks.
A coma, he thought, at least she's not dead.
He sighed.
"Lily Maree Evans. I said you would be my undoing one day." He chuckled.
"Look at me, I'm a mess, and I'm even crying. Only you can make me do that."
"Lily, this is serious, I need you to wake up." He sniffed back a few tears.
"Wake up, please, Lily wake up." He let more tears run down his face and drip onto her sheets.
"Lily, I need you, who will I fight with if you leave?" He smiled a watery smile.
"Lily?" he tried again. "Please, wake up." He pleaded. He knew it would do nothing but still he tried.
"Lily, I need you." His voice was becoming frantic. "Lily?" "Lily?"
"James." He jumped. Ally had tapped him on the shoulder.
"James, I think you should go now." So he let go of Lily's cold hand and left.
"Prongs, why do you care so much?" he voice of his best friend, Sirius, asked him.
"Because, Padfoot, I feel guilty."
"No other reason?"
"No," he shook his head, "No other reason."
SCENE CHANGE
For the next three months James seemed to be in a trance.
He would hardly eat, he never slept, his grades were slipping, and he almost never talked to anyone.
James spent every day at the hospital wing with lily. After classes, he'd be there. At Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner, he'd be there. During the entire weekend, he'd be there. He didn't go to Hogsmeade. He missed Quidditch. He even skipped a few classes to sit by her side.
He would just sit there and talk to her, holding her hand and praying she would wake up.
No one questioned him on it because as far as they knew it was just his guilty conscience waiting to be cleared. Well, most thought it was that reason anyway, except Ally, Sirius and Remus. Yet, they did not go to him with their accusations.
He looked horrible. His once tan skin had paled considerably and gave off an aura of extreme tiredness. His usually spiky hair lay almost flat from not washing it. He was getting thinner and thinner from not eating. He had terrible mood swings and could hardly walk straight. His robes were always dirty and looked as though they had been quickly thrown on. His grades were dropping from lack of study.
James didn't care though. He still spent every day by her side, hoping and praying. He ignored protests from the rest of the Marauders, his fan girls, madam Pomfrey, his teachers and Dumbledore. His fellow marauders were becoming very worried. The teachers were concerned and even Professor Dumbledore even seemed slightly nervous of James' behaviour. Though hard as they tried, none could stop him.
James sat by her bed as usual, clutching her hand, quietly talking to her when he noticed her eyelids flutter. At first he thought he was daydreaming again, as he often dreamed she was awaking. Yet on second glance her eyes were wide open. She sat up in bed, her emerald eyes wide.
"Potter," she spoke in a frosty tone, "Get out and never ever come near me again."
