Chapter 4
I woke up later that afternoon,still on the couch. I thought Kirill would be by my side when I got up,but I was wrong. I later found him in our room holding Katarina. I couldn't help but smile. I tried not to saying,but Kirill knew I was by the room.
"You're finally up,"he said as he looked at me and smiled.
"You two make quite a pair,"I said as I walked over to them. Katarina was looking at her father and smiling. I watched as she put her hand on his face and he took it. She grabbed his finger and tried to put it in her mouth. We couldn't help but laugh.
"Here,"he said as he hand her to me. I got up and her back in the crib. "She's getting so big."
"Yeah. I'm going to have to take that thing down soon so she can have her own room." I sat on the bed and put my head on his shoulder. He turned his head and kissed me.
"I love you."
"I love you too Kirill."
He sighed and looked away.
"What's wrong?"
He shook his head. "It's nothing."
"Please tell me what's wrong Kirill."
He smiled and looked at me. "I'm just glad to be here with you."
"Kirill…"
"I just get these feelings sometimes…"
"Like…?"
"I want to see if he's still alive."
I knew who he was talking about. "He is Kirill…"
He went silent.
"You still want to go after him don't you?"
"Sometimes…"
I didn't say anything.
"He tried to kill you. Would you want to go after him too?"
"He didn't try to kill me Kirill. I got in the way."
"You know you weren't supposed to be out there."
"I only did it because I love you Kirill. I knew something was going to happen." I looked at my hand. There was still a big scar there from the day of the crash.
"I knew I shouldn't have listened to you. I was being stupid."
"Don't say that."
"It's true. I left you for two years,not even knowing that I would have a child."
"But now you know that you have a child."
"I wanted to be here with you when our child was born Nicole. There's so much that I've missed. And I hated not getting to see you. Death was knocking at my door every moment. I almost thought that I would never see you again either."
I went silent for a moment and then looked him in the eye. "When I saw you after the wreak,I thought for sure that I had lost you. I cried when I read the note later that night and when I saw the ring I almost lost it. I wanted to go back to site to make sure that it wasn't just a dream. The love of my life,I thought,was gone…and I was going to have a child. I didn't even think I was going to move on…but somehon I did. But having you here…just means the world to me."
"Seeing you again was like heaven to me,"he said as he kissed me. "I know this hasn't been easy for you."
"What did they do to you?"
"What? Oh. They erased almost everything from my mind,well,at least they tried to,and they did surgery on me for two years."
"Wow."
"I'm lucky I'm alive. Did you pray for me every night?"
"I prayed to God that he would bring you back to me."
"Looks like it worked."
"Yeah…"
"Are you all right?"
I nodded. "I'm fine. I'm just tired."
"You can go back to sleep if you want to."
I shook my head. "It's ok. I'm fine."
"I'm going downstairs. Are you coming?"
"Yeah."
We got up from the bed and went downstairs.
