Chapter 19

I hated the fact that Kirill was going to meet him again. I trusted Jason,I just didn't trust them. He knew that I didn't want him to get hurt again. Not only that,but I was getting the feeling that someone might come in the house while he was gone and try to attack me and Katarina.

Kirill was going to be leaving this afternoon. I wanted to tell him not to go,but then he would know that I was scared. No,he probably wouldn't even listen to me and just go off anyways. I knew that he was right though. I needed to stay here and take care of Katarina.

"Well,I had better go,"he said before he left.

"Ok." I stared at him.

He kissed me and smiled. "Hey. It's going to be all right. I'll be back before you know it."

"Promise me that you'll come back."

"I promise. You should get some rest."

I nodded.

"I love you."

"I love you too,"and he left me.

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One step closer

By: Linkin Park

I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

I'm about to break
This room to breathe
This room to breathe
This room to breathe

I cannot take this anymore
Saying everything I've said before
All these words, they make no sence
I found bliss in ignorance
Less I hear, the less you say
You'll find that out anyway
I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts, they make no since
I found bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away

Over and over again
Just like before

Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break

These are the places where I can feel torn from my body
My flesh, it peels during this ride we can cut upwhat we like
I'm about to break
Waiting alone, I cannot resist
Feeling this hate, I have never missed
Please, someone, give me a reason to rip off my face
Blood is a pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring

Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up

Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to

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About 30 minutes later I heard the sound of my daughter screaming. Something wasn't right. I started to hear footsteps. Someone was in the house!

I hurried and grabbed Katarina and ran into the closet. I was so scared. Katarina was starting to calm down a little. I knew saw the door knob on the closet turn. Oh my god,I thought. We're going to die.

The door then swung open,and there stood Kirill. I just sat there in total shock.

"Nicole…? What are you doing up here?"he asked.

I took a little sigh of relief and I told him the whole story.

"So that's why you two were in the closet."

"Yep."

"I heard you screaming and I thought something was wrong."

"Oh god,"I whispered.

"What is it?"

I didn't want to tell him that I was having another flashback.

"Where you having more nightmares?"

I nodded. "Yeah."

He hugged me and kissed me. "It's going to be all right."

I wanted to cry. But I held in the tears. "I'm sorry…"

"Shhhhhhhhhhhhh… It's all right. Don't worry about it."

I was still holding Katarina in my arms. She looked so cute when she was sleeping. Kirill looked down and smiled,and kissed her on the forehead.

"She looks so much like you."

"Oh I wouldn't say that."

He kissed me on the cheek. "Come on. Let's go downstairs. She could use some rest too."

"Aren't you going to meet Jason?"

"I already did. I left like three hours ago."

"Oh. I didn't know I had been asleep for that long. God I'm so glad that something didn't happen to you."

"I told you that everything was going to be all right."