Chapter 25
It was so nice to get out of the hospital. I think the best thing was that Kirill and I were getting married in about five weeks. We already had the stuff ready for the wedding day. It was going to be very small and short. We really didn't have any friends. To tell you the truth we could just have the thing in our own back yard.
Megan already started to grow and she was only two days old. I couldn't believe how big she looked already. I just hoped that she wasn't going to grow up as fast as Katarina. Katarina was almost three years old and she's been walking and talking. She doesn't talk much though. I really hope that she doesn't grow up like her father. I want her to have friends. I want her to have everything that I never had…
I was starting to have dreams about my past again. I didn't want to tell Kirill though. I didn't want him to worry about me again. But I knew that he would be end up finding out about it(like he always did.).I had to make sure that I was tossing or turning in the bed,or I didn't up on the couch.
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One step closer
By: Linkin Park
I'm about
to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one
step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I'm
about to break
This room to breathe
This room to breathe
This room to breathe
I cannot take this anymore
Saying
everything I've said before
All these words, they make no sence
I found bliss in ignorance
Less I hear, the less you say
You'll find that out anyway
I find the answers aren't so
clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these
thoughts, they make no since
I found bliss in ignorance
Nothing
seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I
need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I
need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break
These
are the places where I can feel torn from my body
My flesh, it
peels during this ride we can cut upwhat we like
I'm about to
break
Waiting alone, I cannot resist
Feeling this hate, I
have never missed
Please, someone, give me a reason to rip off my
face
Blood is a pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And
pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And
pouring
And pouring
And pouring
Shut up when I'm
talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood
is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up when I'm
talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood
is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
I'm
about to break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about
to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to
break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the
edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to
break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer
to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to
breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm
about to
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I couldn't believe it. He had actually found out that something was wrong with me. Dammit. Damn these stupid dreams. Why can't they just go away!
About 3:00 that morning I felt someone shaking me. It was Kirill.
"Nicole? Are you all right?"he asked as I finally woke up.
I was gasping for air. "Yeah. I'm fine."
"Nicole…"
I didn't say anything. I just got up from the bed and went into the bathroom to take some medicine.
"Nicole,what's wrong?"Kirill asked me as he followed me into the bathroom. "This isn't like you."
"I'm fine Kirill."
"No you're not. Tell me what's wrong."
I tried to get passed him,but he grabbed me by the shoulder and made me face him. My lips started to tremble.
"Please tell me what's wrong."
I sighed and looked down. "I'm…I'm starting to have dreams about my past again."
"About what?"
"My parents dying again."
He took my hand and led me to the bed again. "Why didn't you just tell me?"
"I don't know Kirill. I guess…I'm just scared. Every time I have a dream about my past something happens."
"Like what?"
"You getting hurt…or…even worse."
He put his arm around my shoulder and kissed my forehead. "It's going to be ok."
"But don't you remember what happened last time?"
"But did you die?"
"You almost did Kirill."
"I know… But let's not think about that any more. You should go back to sleep. Our wedding is going to be in three weeks. That should make you happy."
He did have a point there. So with that I smiled and went back to sleep.
