Chapter 28
I tried to be strong for my family now. I just hoped that no one was going to try and kill us now. I wanted to get married to Kirill soon. I didn't want any of us to get hurt… I guess I was still scared…
But to tell you the truth,I was tired of being scared. I had no reason to be scared anymore if that guy was dead. He was out of business none of the people who worked for him had a reason to kill people anymore. I could finally be at peace.
I was glad that they had found a new pastor for our wedding. The only thing was that we would have to be married at another church. But that didn't matter. The thing that I cared about was me and Kirill getting married.
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Once again I was having a hard time sleeping again. I was having dreams about my past again. But this time it was different. I was having dreams about when I first meet Kirill…and the stuff that had happened two years ago…
I remember reading that note before I went to go find Kirill before all that stuff had happened. I think I still had the note with me…
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One step closer
By: Linkin Park
I'm about
to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one
step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I'm
about to break
This room to breathe
This room to breathe
This room to breathe
I cannot take this anymore
Saying
everything I've said before
All these words, they make no sence
I found bliss in ignorance
Less I hear, the less you say
You'll find that out anyway
I find the answers aren't so
clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these
thoughts, they make no since
I found bliss in ignorance
Nothing
seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I
need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I
need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to break
These
are the places where I can feel torn from my body
My flesh, it
peels during this ride we can cut upwhat we like
I'm about to
break
Waiting alone, I cannot resist
Feeling this hate, I
have never missed
Please, someone, give me a reason to rip off my
face
Blood is a pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And
pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And
pouring
And pouring
And pouring
Shut up when I'm
talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood
is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up when I'm
talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood
is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
I'm
about to break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about
to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to
break
Everything you say to me
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
And I'm about to
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the
edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to
break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer
to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to
breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm
about to
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That morning I woke up by myself. Not gasping for air or anything…just really scared. Should I tell Kirill about my dream,I thought. Well,I knew that was going to happen because he woke up two minutes later.
"Nicole?"he asked as he turned over. He looked at the clock. It was only 6:30 in the morning. "What are you doing up so early?"
"I had dreams again…"
"What happened this time?"
"I had dreams about the first day we meet…and dreams about happened two years ago."
He put his hand on my face and kissed me forehead. "I'll go get some water. Stay here." He was up and back in bed in less than five minutes.
"Do you remember that note you gave me before you went to go chase Jason in Moscow?"
"Yes I do."
"I might still have that note…" I moved to the dress drawer that was by the bed,and opened it. The first thing I saw was the note that Kirill had given me two years ago.
"Oh my god…"
"I almost thought the worst had happened. Kirill…"I paused.
"Yes?"
"I'm still afraid…"
"Of what?"
"What if someone else tries to hurt one of us? Or the children?"
"He's dead Nicole…"
"But that doesn't change the fact…." My lips started to tremble. He put his arms around me and pulled closer and I started to sob.
"Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…It's going to be all right. I'm here…"
"I'm so scared Kirill…"
"I know. But there's nothing to be scared of now."
"You don't know that."
"But you have me…and Jason. And we're going to be here to protect you all right?"
I nodded and didn't say anything.
He kissed me again. "You need to get some rest ok?"
"Ok."
"I love you Nicole."
"I love you too…"
"Now go back to sleep. I'm here and I'm going to make sure you're safe."
I dried away the tears and went back to sleep.
