Disclaimer: None of the HYD characters belongs to me.

Timeline: Manga volume 1.

Pairing: Tsukushi x ?

A/N: Thanks Juliagulia1017 for beta-ing this chapter. You were a great help!

"Speech"

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By Cocky-sark

Chapter 8

Previously

"There is nothing to be proud of! Just give me back my first kiss!" shouted Tsukushi, frustrated beyond belief.

Quickly, Tsukasa hugged her tight against his body and kissed her thoroughly.


So much for a peaceful life, Tsukushi groaned inwardly. She pounded Tsukasa's chest and pushed him away forcibly, "What the hell are you doing?" She was clearly irritated.

"You wanted your kiss back so I gave it to you!" answered Tsukasa matter-of-factly.

Tsukushi growled and clenched her teeth, "I didn't mean it that way! I just wished that we could turn back time so that I could stop you from kissing me in the first place!"

Tsukasa's eyes narrowed darkly. "Were you wishing that it was another man?"

Tsukushi blushed madly, she looked elsewhere, "Who I wished to kiss is none of your business!"

"It's that so," said Tsukasa in voice than the Arctic itself. He dangerously moved forward.

Huh? His eyes are not sane, thought Tsukushi. She took a step backward, then two... Maybe it would be wise to leave right now! Alas, in the blink of an eye, she found herself pinned onto the cold ground. "Do-Domyouji... What are you trying to do?" she stammered, her fear rising up.

"Who is he?" demanded Tsukasa, pinning Tsukushi's two arms above her head with one of his large hands. He was mad actually. How could she want to kiss another man?

Tsukushi's eyes grew round with terror. She never saw Tsukasa this furious and it scared her.

When she did not answer, Tsukasa pressed on. "Who is the guy you that want to kiss so badly? Is it Rui?"

"Hanazawa Rui? Why do you say that?" replied Tsukushi, startled. Does he know something?

"So it's Rui," Tsukasa snorted. "Let me tell you something, I will never give you to him!" He then proceeded to unbutton her shirt with his free hand. He saw her frightened face but he did not care. He just wanted her to be his then he kissed her.

Tsukushi was overwhelmed. At the difference of his rough actions, Tsukasa's kiss was gentle. She could have died of shame. Her body was reacting to his caresses and his kiss whereas her mind was screaming 'rape'. Only when she felt Tsukasa's hand running up along her thigh that she burst heavily into tears. "Domyouji... please... stop it... please!" she sniffed.

Tsukasa snapped out of his daze when he saw her tears. He had never seen her tears before. Never, that is, until now. Seeing her in this state made him feel like a royal bastard. He inched away slightly and she curled up into a ball while weeping.

"I won't do it again... please, stop crying." He said, trying to assuage her fears. "I promise I won't do it again." Then he gathered her in his arms and got up before walking silently toward the mansion.


The following day, Tsukushi found herself in a bed with Tsukasa. Strangely, she was not surprised. The young man was lying on his stomach, his serene face turning toward her. Tsukushi noticed immediately that they were not in the former mansion. She got up and went to the French window, and then her breath caught in her throat. The ocean was lying at her feet, infinitively. The sun was already high in the sky and the weather was hotter than Hong Kong.

"We are in my cottage in Po Toi Island." Tsukasa said softly while sitting up on the bed. He had known the exact moment Tsukushi had left his side.

Her first reaction was to ask him, "Where?" still admiring the view.

"Po Toi Island is located in the south of Hong Kong." he rose from the bed and went to stand inch away behind her. The young boy only wore his pajama bottoms; his chest was bare.

Tsukushi felt a warm aura behind her; still she did not dare to face Tsukasa "How? I mean... How did I get here without my knowledge? Why?"

"I carried you," he replied, "Shizuka wanted to tell us something important. There's only us, Kazuya, the F3 and her."

Tsukushi turned quickly, "I should get ready then." she had not looked at him once.


It was already lunchtime when Tsukushi and Tsukasa joined the rest of the group.

"Now that everybody is gathered, tell us your important news, Shizuka!" said Akira, impatiently.

Instinctively, Tsukushi and Rui's gaze met, the poor girl knew immediately what the news was.

"First, I wanted to say that I love you with all my heart," Shizuka began.

"We love you too!" replied Akira and Soujiro.

Then Shizuka took Rui's hand and pressed it gently. "I've decided to return to Paris... and settle down there."

"What?" cried the F3 in unison. Objections were shouted.

Rui had his blank face but Tsukushi knew better, He must be hurt right now! "Are you sure of your decision?" she asked faintly.

Shizuka turned her head to face the poor girl. "I am. I want to be more like you, Makino-san." she smiled.

"More like me?" Tsukushi gaped with surprise.

"You struggle to survive. You depend on nobody. I do not want a sheltered life anymore. I want to become somebody without my parents' money," Shizuka explained at once.

Tsukushi nodded in understanding, "But what about Hanazawa Rui?" she asked.

"Makino!" protested Rui.

Tsukushi looked directly into Rui's eyes, then she turned once more toward Shizuka, "Didn't you consider his feelings for you?" Tsukushi asked with sincerity.

"Tsukushi!" Rui protested again. All eyes turned to the quiet boy. Everybody wondered the same question, since when did Rui call Tsukushi by her first name?

Tsukushi clenched her fists on her lap, she bowed her head in defeat. "I didn't mean to be disrespectful. Please excuse-me!" she apologized as she rose from her seat. "I am going to take a walk on the beach." she saw Kazuya and Tsukasa ready to follow her and added quickly, "Alone."

Once Tsukushi was gone, Shizuka smiled genuinely. "I like her very much. She is like the little sister I've never had."


When Tsukushi headed toward the cottage hours later, she found Rui waiting for her on the terrace.

"You should eat something," Rui said softly.

"Where are the others?" she countered in a same mild tone.

"They are with Shizuka. She will leave in 3 days." he answered.

Tsukushi walked past Rui and said, "Then what are you doing here? You should be with her."

"I am where I wanted to be. Are you alright?" Rui replied coolly while going in front of her.

"I am," she said with a smile. "I'm more concerned about you."

"I will be fine," the young man assured.

Tsukushi shook her head. "No you won't! Hanazawa Rui, you love her!" she shouted.

"I know..." was Rui's answer.

"You will never have closure if you leave it that way," she added before leaving silently.


Tsukushi walked into her room. Tsukasa was there. He had gone to look for Tsukushi when he had found her with Rui on the terrace. The both of them seemed to be in a heated conversation over Shizuka so he had decided to wait for her in their room. The poor girl seemed to freeze at his view.

"Makino," Tsukasa began, he did not want her to be afraid of him, "I'm sorry for last night. I never meant to hurt you."

If Tsukushi was surprised then she did not show it. She tried to relax, "What did I do to deserve your anger?" Of course, she was angry with him. He just did not kiss her once but twice! In addition, the second time he could have raped her. Never in her life had she been so frightened by a man. Then again, here he was, his eyes warm and gentle; she was really confused.

Tsukasa did not know what to reply for a moment. "I just can't stand betrayal."

"I did not betray anybody!" she answered. Immediately, guilt stabbed her in the chest. What was the kiss with Hanazawa Rui then, she asked herself.


The three next days had gone by quickly. The little group had passed pleasant moments together. Tsukushi even took the F3 and Kazuya away for an entire day, just to ensure that Rui and Shizuka would be alone.

When they returned to Hong Kong, the mood was gloomy. They saw Shizuka to the airport that evening.

Shizuka hugged Tsukushi in a sisterly manner and smiled brightly. "Thank you, Tsukushi, for all the things you taught me," the older girl had asked Tsukushi for permission to call her by her first name.

"I--" began to say Tsukushi but Shizuka kissed her on the cheek.

"Don't say anything other than 'good luck', please," the older girl said.

Tsukushi smiled genuinely. "Take care of yourself and good luck, Shizuka-san."

Shizuka hugged the F4 and kissed them lightly on the lips. She and Kazuya bowed at one another. Fifty minutes later, she took off from Hong Kong. At the same moment, Rui left his friends without a word. He needed to be alone.


Tsukasa, Kazuya and Tsukushi went home without the two playboys. Indeed, the two young men decided to spend the night at a club. The atmosphere in the mansion was awkward. Tsukasa's guests as well as Sakurako, who happened to be there, were glaring at Tsukushi for no apparent reason. Tsukasa did not seem to notice their behaviors and went to take a shower.

Tsukushi glared back, "Well, now that Domyouji has left... What is your problem?" she asked to nobody in particular.

"You are disgusting, you whore!" spat out Asai.

"Hey, don't call Tsukushi-chan that! She will always be better than you!" Kazuya defended her. A boy gagged him while another tied him up then they tossed Kazuya aside.

Tsukushi narrowed her eyes at Asai and Co, "What are you talking about?"

"Don't feign innocence-- you two-timed Domyouji-san with Hanazawa-san!" reproached Sakurako.

"Whore!" was shouting all around the room.

Tsukushi could not believe it! "I did not!"

Tsukasa walked in the room and everybody grew quiet. "What is this all about?" he asked irritated. His gaze felt upon Tsukushi. She seemed uneasy.

"Domyouji-san, please look at this." Sakurako said while turning on the T.V.

One could see, Tsukushi and Rui making their way into a hotel room and coming out one hour later. Tsukasa's eyes widened with surprise. He looked over Tsukushi with ice in his eyes.

"It's not what you think, Domyouji! Hanazawa Rui and I--" She said. Tsukushi could not stand his cold eyes; she grew to understand them perfectly over the past weeks. His eyes were his soul and right now, he was hurt and he felt betrayed.

"Get out of my house!" Tsukasa said coldly. "I don't want to see your face again! The deal is off!"

Another barrage of "whore!" was shouted by the girls in support of his decision.

Tsukushi was taken aback; he didn't even let her explain herself. "Hanazawa Rui would have believed me," she murmured.

She went to her room, only took her personal belongings and left all the brand-name clothes behind. She packed a small bag and left the mansion. During the whole process, she would not let her tears fall. These rich brats will not have the satisfaction to see her cry.

Tsukasa stood in front of the French doors when he saw her walk away. Strangely, it was then that the rain decided to come down; Tsukasa saw that the raindrops had soaked Tsukushi entirely. The most painful sight was when she turned her head around; as their gazes met, he knew she had been crying. However, her last words still rang in his head, even now she still thought of Rui and that alone angered him further.


Tsukushi found herself at the entrance of the airport, she did not have enough money to buy a plane ticket, but she was soaked and tired so the airport was her only option.

"Tsukushi?" someone called her from behind.

She turned around and caught the sight of Rui. He was soaked as well; he must have wandered around the city. "Hanazawa Rui, why are you soaked?"

"And what of you? What are you doing here at this hour?" he retorted.

"I have to go home," and she explained the entire story.

Rui frowned darkly. He was angry. He should have been there; he should have protected her. She had always been there for him; she had been his support so now it was time that he would be hers. "Let's go back to Japan," he proposed and Tsukushi eagerly agreed.


Hours later, they landed at Tokyo Narita Airport; Rui saw her to her home, and then took his leave. Faking a cheerful smile, she entered into her apartment, the moment she passed the door her blood froze. Her family was packing.

"Tsukushi! You are already here?" said her Mama a bit startled.

"What's going on?" Tsukushi demanded.

"Papa was laid off 3 days ago but he found a place as janitor in Nagoya," explained Mama, anxiously. "We have to find you a small apartment, not too far from Eitoku," she added with a faint smile.

"What? I'm not going with you?" Tsukushi couldn't believe it. Her parents were disturbing. "Are you crazy? How in the world could you leave me behind?"

"Mama thinks it's better for you to graduate from Eitoku. Beside we already paid for your first year there," answered Papa.

Tsukushi shook her head in disbelief and despair. So much for a peaceful life.


Dear Readers, thank you so much for reading my story, it means a lot for me. As usual, merci à Juliagulia1017, Inu-kami, Az09, Kashuneko, LokiGirl, Kaneshirosan, Mangadreams, Gentileschi, Shin-Ora, Ren Aizawa and Alice.