Disclaimer: Inuyasha is not mine.
From Hatred To Love
Chapter 41- Hurting
"Kagome," Inuyasha began. The miko didn't look up at him Her face was still buried in her knees. The hanyou took another step forward. He had never seen Kagome act this way before and it made him confused..
He sighed when he didn't see any reaction from her. Her body was still shaking and he could smell the tears coming from her. The hanyou couldn't take it anymore. He walked up to the girl and took a seat beside her.
"Kagome," he said again, hoping to get a response from her. She didn't move. Inuyasha slowly encircled his arms around her body and rested his head on top of hers. Kagome stiffened. Inuyasha frowned and rose his head to look at the girl. She still wasn't moving.
"Kagome I... I need to explain," he began in a soft tone hoping that she would listen. She usually did listen to him when he made her angry, which was quite often.
"Save it!" Kagome said suddenly. She roughly pushed Inuyasha away from her causing him to fall over on his back. Inuyasha opened his eyes and looked at Kagome.
She was now glaring at him with tears running down her cheeks. When she opened her mouth to speak Inuyasha was afraid of what she would say to him.
"Don't bother to give me some crappy excuse about how she kissed you! I saw!" Kagome yelled and covered her face with her hands. Her voice began breaking up as the tears flowed freely down her eyes. "I saw you baka!"
Inuyasha sat up and moved over to Kagome. She seemed to anticipate his action and moved away from the inu hanyou. She slowly stood up and wiped the tears flowing from her eyes. Inuyasha's eyes were wide. He didn't know what to do or say.
"Don't come near me!" Kagome yelled, anger flashing in her light brown orbs. Inuyasha stood up so he could face her.
"Listen to me Kagome!" Inuyasha said loudly. The girl looked up at him, with tears in her eyes. Inuyasha's features softened. "I don't know what happened," he said softly. "I couldn't control my body for some reason."
"Oh so I see now, you're saying that you couldn't move your body?" Kagome asked but Inuyasha could tell by the tone of voice that she used, said that she didn't believe a word he said to her. He frowned at her and took another step forward.
"Would you at least listen to me!" The hanyou yelled in frustration. Kagome glared at him and folded her arms. Inuyasha continued. "I... I think she did something to my body, which prevented me from moving."
"That's impossible," Kagome said plainly. "Miko's can't do those things, no matter how well trained they are."
"Kagome I know what happened!" Inuyasha shouted. "She was controlling my body!"
"I thought you said that she prevented you from moving? Wow the story sure has changed a lot!" Kagome said sarcastically. Inuyasha growled and walked up to Kagome, gripping her arms with his clawed hands. This caused Kagome to flinch.
"Why don't you believe me? Kagome I love you, I would never hurt you like that!" Inuyasha shouted and wrapped both arms tightly around her small frame. Tears formed in Kagome's eyes as the picture of him kissing Liko came into her mind. Kagome didn't hug him back, her hands remained at her sides.
Inuyasha closed his eyes when he felt Kagome's body shaking with sobs. He felt horrible knowing that he was the one who caused her so much pain. He hated that Liko girl. How could she do this? Ruin the only solid relationship that he had.
'No it's not over!' Inuyasha's mind screamed. He pulled Kagome closer to him, hoping for her to hug him back but still she didn't.
"Let me go, Inuyasha," Kagome said coldly. Inuyasha opened his eyes to look at her. All he could see was her head, resting on his shoulder. "Let me go, now!"
Inuyasha hesitantly released the miko and looked down at her. She seemed like she was trying her best to hold back the tears. Her eyes looked into his seriously.
"I... I... I don't think we should be together, anymore," Kagome said seriously and averted his eyes away from his. Inuyasha's mouth widened.
"What is that supposed to..."
"I can't deal with this right now," Kagome said and closed her eyes. "I can't get the picture out of my head. I never saw you kiss anyone the way you kissed her, not even me."
"I told you before Kagome, she was controlling me! Please believe me."
Kagome squeezed her eyes shut and clenched her fists at her sides.
"I can't," she said softly and looked down at her feet. Tears were forming in her eyes again. Kagome felt like such a baby to be crying so much. "Inuyasha, what I saw... looked so real."
"It looked Kagome! It wasn't!"
Kagome ignored him and continued with what she was saying.
"I don't think we could be the way we were before we became a couple. It would be too hard for me to... so I guess..."
"No Kagome!" Inuyasha said and pulled her again into a tight hug. The miko broke down once again and rested her head on his shoulder. She knew that it would be the last time that he would be able to hold her like this. She couldn't be with him anymore. She wasn't even sure if she could still be friends with him after this.
"Inuyasha," Kagome whispered between sobs. "I'm sorry."
"You can't do this Kagome! You can't," Inuyasha practically begged the girl in his arms. He couldn't lose her. Not like this!
Kagome rested both of her hands on his arms and pulled them away from her waist. Inuyasha was looking at her wide eyed. He couldn't get her to believe him. Taking one last look at him, she began to walk away with her arms wrapped around her body.
Inuyasha quickly grabbed her wrist to prevent her from going anywhere. Kagome didn't look back at him. She snatched her wrist away from his hand. Inuyasha moved towards her but her words stopped him.
"Don't even try to follow me," Kagome said coldly. "I'm still a miko and I won't be afraid to knock you out until I leave."
Inuyasha was surprised. Would she really do that to him? She sounded dead serious. The hanyou couldn't do anything to stop her. All he did was watch as Kagome walked away.
Sango was fuming. She was practically stomping while she was walking. First she wanted to beat down that Liko girl, find out what the hell was in Inuyasha's head to make him kiss that girl and comfort her hurting friend, Kagome.
Miroku was behind the exterminator the whole time. She was scaring him, but at the same time he understood how she felt. He was still wondering why Inuyasha shared such a passionate kiss with the new girl when he showed no interest in her before. Not to forget Inuyasha's shocked and panicky behavior after. It was just strange in the monk's eyes.
'Maybe she did something to him,' Miroku thought and tried to keep up with Sango.
It wasn't long before they arrived at the large oak tree where the friends usually sat during their lunch break, but this was no friendly affair.
They spotted Inuyasha standing by the tree with his back turned away from them. He didn't move when Sango came behind him.
"Hey I need to talk to you!" Sango said loudly but the hanyou still didn't move. He remained rooted to the spot.
Sango continued. "How could you do that to Kagome?" The hanyou still didn't respond. Sango's anger skyrocketed. "Can you at least answer me?"
"Inuyasha!" Miroku said when Sango opened her mouth to say something. He decided that he cut his girlfriend off rather than making her say some cruel to the half demon. Inuyasha's ear's twitched slightly.
"What?" he snapped and folded his arms. The couple was startled by the hanyou's sudden outburst.
Sango walked forward and rested her hand on Inuyasha's shoulder. He shrugged it off. She frowned and walked in front of the hanyou. The exterminator couldn't help but gasp when she saw that his face held no emotion at all.
Kagome had managed to keep very calm and level headed when she arrived at home. Amazingly she had fooled her mother into thinking that she had an amazing time at the Prom. She lied and told Mrs. Higurashi that Inuyasha had dropped her off at the bottom of the shrine stairs and was too lazy to come up with her.
The miko walked lazily up to her room and opened the door entering her very pink bedroom. She then proceeded to remove all the hair pins from her hair. Kagome didn't look at herself in the mirror, for she knew that she probably looked like a zombie or even scarier, with all the tears that she had shed.
Tears welled up in the miko's eyes when the picture of Inuyasha kissing Liko appeared in her head. She didn't understand why Liko kissed the hanyou back as well. The girl was slowly becoming her friend. Kagome thought they had an understanding but maybe the only reason Liko was around her was to get closer to Inuyasha.
The miko covered her face with her hands when the tears began flowing freely down her face. She couldn't stop herself from crying no matter how had she tried to.
She wiped her damp cheeks and opened her closet to retrieve her pajamas but stopped when her eyes caught sight of the picture stuck on the door of the closet. It was a picture of Kagome and Inuyasha.
The hanyou had his arm around Kagome's shoulder with a smirk on his face, while Kagome's hands were around Inuyasha's waist. She was snapped giving the hanyou a kiss on the cheek
Kagome frowned and ripped the picture off the door, tearing it in half in the process. She wanted so badly to hate the hanyou for what he did to her but she didn't. She still loved him and she was angry at herself for that.
The weekend seemed to fly by quite quickly for Kagome. Before she knew it, it was Monday and she was a wreak. Most of her weekend was spent in bed crying and trying to forget what she saw that night.
The miko made her way downstairs to the kitchen. Mrs. Higurashi was there with her usual bright smile on her face. Kagome plastered a smile on her face and greeted her mother.
"'Morning Mama!" she chirped. For a split second Kagome thought she saw her mother's smile disappear into a frown and worry lines appearing on her forehead but it was soon gone when Mrs. Higurashi nodded at her with a smile and started singing.
Kagome glanced around the bright kitchen. Her eyes widened when she saw Sango sitting at the table looking at her. Kagome made her way across the kitchen and sat down at the table , her eyes still wide.
The exterminator smiled sympathetically at her friend and continued to stare at her. This made Kagome uneasy. It was as if Sango was trying to read every single thought going on in Kagome's head.
"Hi Kagome. How are you today?" Sango asked. Kagome avoided her eyes.
"I'm good," Kagome mumbled. Sango frowned and furrowed her eyebrows. Kagome was a terrible liar.
"Kagome," Sango began. The miko slowly moved her head to look at Sango. "Are you sure you're alright?"
Kagome smiled and nodded. Sango sighed and stood up, flinging her bag over her shoulder. For some strange reason Kagome wasn't telling her how she felt. The girls usually talked about everything. They promised each other when they were about five that they would keep no secrets hidden away from each other.
'She must really be hurting...'
"Let's go then!" Sango said with fake enthusiasm. Kagome nodded and followed Sango out of the door.
Inuyasha was having a lousy day. His weekend had been lousy in general. He couldn't stop thinking about Kagome and what had happened between them and every time his thoughts drifted to Liko, he growled and felt like ripping something to shreds.
Sango and Miroku had made sure to get him home safely after he stood in the same spot for twenty minutes. He had managed to explain what had happened with Liko, saying nothing more after. They seemed to understand and promised the hanyou that they would figure out what Liko did to him.
Inuyasha couldn't bear to see Kagome. Knowing that they were no longer together hurt the hanyou more than Sango and Miroku could ever know. He didn't attend school on Monday when it started back. He stayed in bed, with the covers pulled over his head.
"Master Inuyasha, are you there?"
Inuyasha's ears swiveled to the side when the very familiar voice of his personal maid. He refused to move and shifted to his side.
"What?" he snapped. Yumi jumped and hesitantly took steps towards the hanyou's bed.
"I was just wondering, sir..." she began and looked down at her feet. "If you're alright."
"I'm just peachy," Inuyasha replied sarcastically. "Could you leave now!" It was more of a demand than a question. Yumi nodded and walked out of the bedroom, taking one last glance at the budnle of covers, before closing the door behind her.
Rin was waiting outside when the maid closed the door. Yumi bowed at the older girl. Rin frowned. Worry etched her perfect features. Her hands were folded on her chest and her usually bubbly expression was now gone.
"Yumi," Rin began and looked at Inuyasha's door blankly. "You spoke to Inuyasha am I right?"
Yumi nodded. "Yes ma'am I did."
"How is he?" Rin asked softly. Yumi closed her eyes giving Rin an answer without saying a word. She quickly pushed the door open not waiting for a response from Yumi. She needed to find out what was wrong with Inuyasha. He was now her brother and she considered him as one before she got married to Sesshoumaru.
Inuyasha's body was covered under a bundle of sheets. The young woman quickly made her way towards the hanyou's bed, without hesitation. Pulling the sheets off the hanyou, slowly, Rin peered into his golden eyes.
He was looking at her rather shocked Rin expected him to say something to her but he didn't reply, instead he took the sheets away from Rin's delicate hands and pulled them over his head once more. All he wanted to do was be left alone, but Rin wasn't going to leave him.
"Inu... what's wrong?" Rin asked and rested her hand where she thought his head was. He shifted and grumbled something that she couldn't make out. Rin fromwned. "You know you can talk to me... now tell me... please..."
"You don't need to know," Inuyasha's muffled voice came from under the covers. Rin looked down. She knew what had happened. Sango told her about Inuyasha and Kagome. Rin was saddened about what had happened to the couple.
"I know what happen anyway Inuyasha," Rin said regretfully. "I'm really sorry about Kago-"
"Don't say that freaking name!" Inuyasha shouted, startling Rin. He was behaving like he did before he and Kagome became friends once again.
"I'm sorry," she said softly and lowered her eyes. She didn't know what to tell him.For once she didn't have any answers.
"Kagome and I are over," Inuyasha said suddenly. "... and I doubt I'll ever get her back again. I've lost her for good..."
A/n; Dun ... dun dun... yeah peeps what y'all think? Am I evil or what Well reviews might help me update faster. I can't forget to thank all my wonderful reviewers who reviewed da last chap... love y'all
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