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From Hatred To Love

Chapter 44- Realizations


Kagome stumbled into the girls' bathroom, dragging her bag along with her. Hopefully he had bought her act and wouldn't worry himself over her. She quickly went to a vacant washroom and slid to the ground.

She hated herself for everything she did. How could she not believe him? It was her fault that their relationship had fallen apart.

'It's all because of my lack of trust for him. Kagome no baka…' she thought and closed her eyes. She promised herself that she wouldn't cry today. If she did the hanyou would smell it on her anyway but no matter how hard she fought the urge to keep the tears at bay, she couldn't.

Her vision blurred as the tears slid down her pale face. She had remembered when she had returned to school after her confrontation with Inuyasha at his house. She ended up crying in the hallway, which sparked many students' interest in her life.

She could feel the sobs shaking her body. All the pain that she had felt from their breakup to now seemed to catch up with her, hitting her like a ton of bricks, snapping her back to reality. The truth was the chances of her and Inuyasha getting back together was very slim and that thought seemed to hurt her more than anything.

The miko held her breath when she heard footsteps. She tried her best to shut herself up but the best she could do was reduce her crying to sniffles. The footsteps were coming closer and before she could blink someone opened the door.

Kagome looked up curiously to see who had caught her crying and to her relief it was only Dawn. The girl stared at her with large, brown eyes. Her long brown hair was held in a low, plain ponytail, which allowed Kagome to see the girl's face clearly without her hair being in the way, like it usually was.

"Kagome?" the young girl could barely speak. She dropped to her knees in front of Kagome and stared into her chocolate eyes. "Are you okay? What happened?"

Kagome pulled her knees up to her chest, still staring at Dawn with shock. She hadn't expected anyone to find her. It was worst now because Dawn properly knew why she was shedding her tears.

She opened her mouth to respond but only managed to let out a high squeak. She didn't know what else to do so all she did was smile. Dawn didn't buy it and her eyebrows furrowed with worry.

"You don't have to pretend. I heard you crying from outside," Dawn whispered. Kagome was shocked once again but this time she managed to pull herself together.

"Gomen. I," Kagome paused for a moment, not knowing what to say, "I'm fine. I'll be okay."

Dawn still didn't look convinced. Kagome quickly wiped the tears from her eyes and beamed at her friend. Dawn smiled but instead of a genuine one, it was more of a said smile.

With Dawn's help Kagome was quickly on her feet. She used her hands to smoothen out her skirt and with quite a bit of effort, lifted her bag off the ground. Dawn was still staring at her with that same worried look on her face.

Kagome shrugged it off and continued smiling. She quickly washed her hands by the sink and looked into the mirror to make sure that she looked decent. Except for her slightly red eyes, she looked fine.

"Well I'm off to class now. It good to be early, ne?" Kagome said happily. Dawn slowly nodded and watched as Kagome made her way to the door.

"Wait!" Kagome turned around, wondering what Dawn could be calling her for. Dawn was looking down at her feet. "I just wanted to tell you, that you don't have to mask your emotions. If something's bothering you, I'm always here to help."

Kagome's eyes widened before her facial expression was replaced with a soft smile.

"Arigato, Dawn."


Inuyasha stared emotionlessly up at the blue sky, watching the clouds float by. He had managed to skip first period with ease and decided to wait until lunch to come down from the roof. He wasn't feeling for class at the time. With all that was on his mind it was amazing that he had managed to get of bed this morning.

He had felt terrible after seeing Kagome today. She had somehow managed to smile at him, hiding her true emotions. He hated himself so much for hurting her and making her wait on him but he didn't know what else to do. A relationship with Kagome didn't feel right when he knew that her trust for him is so little.

He dug his sharp claws into the ground, making small holes there. 'Why does everything have to be so damn confusing?' his mind screamed.

"Kagome, why didn't you trust me? What caused you to only believe what you saw? Damn it, I…"

The hanyou paused when his sensitive ears picked up something. Someone was coming. He didn't care whoever found him so he stayed put, eyes still focused on the sky.

"Inuyasha?"

The hanyou wrinkled his nose when he picked up the disgusting scent of Kikyo. His golden eyes turned in her direction to see her already taking a seat next to him. He frowned and ignored her presence.

Kikyo looked down at her feet silently for a moment. She could feel the anger radiating from the hanyou and she knew that she was the cause of it. She was surprised earlier that day when she felt an odd emotion. She later realized what it was, guilt.

It was quite different and a very strange for her to feel guilty. She had never felt guilty when she had committed her previous acts against Kagome maybe because her hate for the girl ran so deep that all she wanted for Kagome to disappear but this time she hurt Inuyasha.

She raised her head to look at him. He looked stunning. His golden eyes seemed to have a light sparkle in them as the sun shone on him, and his sliver hair whipped all over his face making him look like if he were from a fantasy world.

"Hey I just wanted to say," Kikyo began. The hanyou didn't respond which caused Kikyo to become nervous. " I just wanted to say that I'm sorry," It was only a mere whisper but Inuyasha picked it up easily. "I'm saying sorry to you, Inuyasha."

The hanyou scowled at her. Kikyo stared at him hoping to get a response. She didn't regret what she did to Kagome. The girl could suffer how much she wanted but Inuyasha seemed to be in pain as well and it hurt Kikyo to see him that way.

"Yeah so should be, bitch!" he shouted suddenly. Kikyo's eyes widened at his sudden outburst. "You and your stupid plan put me through so much crap and now you come here saying that you're freaking sorry to me? Why the hell should I forgive you, huh?"

Kikyo looked down at her feet once more. "I…I don't know. I just feel terrible for hurting you. I didn't mean for you to feel badly about Higurashi. I don't really care 'bout her but I do care about you, Inuyasha."

Kikyo looked back up at him. He stepped back, he had never seen that look in Kikyo's eyes before. She stood up and threw herself on him, hugging him tightly. The hanyou froze for a moment before pushing her away from him.

"What the hell are you doing," he asked in a deadly low tone.

"Inuyasha, I could help you get over Higurashi. I would do anything you ask me to do! Please give me a change!"

Inuyasha lowered his head so his bangs covered his eyes. He thoughts ran to Kagome for a moment. He loved her more than he could say.

'But how could I be with her if she doesn't trust me?'

His mind was swarming with thoughts. Then it occurred to him, it was just like three years ago, Kikyo did something to ruin their relationship. The only difference was that they were on speaking terms this time. The fight between him and Kagome was still fresh in his mind. Then suddenly he remembered something:

" Friendship starts with trust and I don't think you're honoring that!"

His eyes widened. He had remembered clearly that Kagome had said that. Their friendship had ended that day.

"I...I didn't trust her either…."

"Huh?" Kikyo said and looked up at him curiously. His eyes were sparkling with realization. Kikyo smiled deviously, hoping that the hanyou had accepted her offer. She waited for him to come to her but instead he walked to the edge of the roof.

"I've got to find Kagome!" he said and leaped off.

Kikyo stood rooted to the spot like an idiot. Had he rejected her? She shook her head rapidly and closed her eyes hoping that she had seen things Hopefully when her eyes were to open again Inuyasha would still be standing in front of her with that same confused look on his face. To her disappointment he was gone.

The miko couldn't take it any longer; she held her head and let out a deafening, high-pitched scream. She breathed in heard as it echoed throughout the school. She was getting more and more frustrated with Inuyasha. He had always managed to leave her for Kagome. Couldn't he see that she was offering herself to him, that she would do anything to make him happy?

She could feel her burning anger for Kagome reaching even higher heights than it had ever reached before. The girl had taken away everything from her. She clenched her hands into fists and looked menacingly in the direction that Inuyasha had gone. What else could she do? All her plans had backfired. She could feel the tears of anger surfacing as the thought of her never getting Inuyasha back came into her head.

"Well I see someone here has not won."

Kikyo spun around and saw Liko standing not very far from her, leaning against the wall. Kikyo scowled at the girl and walked up to her.

"Since my plan hasn't worked I need the money back," Kikyo stated calmly.

Liko looked at the girl emotionlessly, which caused Kikyo to back away. The girl could be scary sometimes but Kikyo soon shook off the feeling and looked bravely at Liko. She would not show her fear.

"Didn't you hear me?" Kikyo asked. Liko was still staring at her. Kikyo stood firmly in place, not showing any fear. When Liko finally replied the miko couldn't help but jump because of the darkness in her voice.

"You were hoping that weren't you? Well, I'm sorry to say I don't do refunds. I did what you told me to do, unfortunately the two people managed to work things out."

Kikyo glowered at the witch before her. She was already angry and Liko seemed to want to make her even more irritated. Her body began glowing a faint blue hue but this didn't seem to intimidate Liko at all. In fact the girl was smiling at her with what seemed to be amusement.

"Do you honestly think that you can beat me? You're pathetic."

Kikyo smirked slightly, which caused Liko's expression to change.

"You really underestimate me. You haven't seen half of what I could do," Kikyo informed her and chuckled softly. Liko couldn't help but raise one eyebrow, silently challenging Kikyo.

Kikyo immediately picked up on the hint and allowed her body to again glow a blue. She couldn't help but let out a small laugh at what she thought she would do to the girl so she could get her money back.

The evil miko closed her eyes slowly and allowed the blue light to envelop her body. She clasped her hands together tightly and began muttering something that Liko couldn't make out.

Before Liko could assume what was happening she felt a huge amount of energy collide with her body causing her to be pushed back to the edge of the building. The witch immediately opened her green eyes to glance at Kikyo but she wasn't there. Liko looked around frantically for any trace of her but it seemed that the girl who had hired her had disappeared into thin air.

Liko was rather shaken up by Kikyo's strength. She would admit to herself that it was very unexpected, especially from Kikyo. She knew now that she had to keep herself on guard. Who could know when the girl would show up?

Liko wasn't prepared for the hard blow that she received on her stomach causing her to stumble back a couple of steps. It didn't take her long to realize that she was at the very edge of the building, and it was a long way down. She knew if she had stepped back any further that she would have easily fallen to her death. Witch or not she couldn't avoid dying in certain situations.

She jumped when she heard the small cackle of Kikyo. She looked around her but still no sight of the miko. How was she to fight back if she couldn't see her opponent?

"Aw are you scared Liko?" Kikyo asked. Liko kept of looking around for Kikyo frantically. She thought she had seen something but it had turned out to be a trick of the light.

She suddenly felt two arms push her from her shoulders. The witch's body fell backward. Her green eyes showed nothing but fear and her brown hair whipped around her face. Her mouth was open ready to let out the only sound she could, a terrified scream but it seemed that no one would hear her because no sound came out. All she could do was watch the blue sky above her and the only girl who had defeated her, Kikyo standing on the building's edge looking down at her.


A/M: hey my readers. Well it's short but I have finished this chap and I'm almost done with the other one so I hope to update very soon for y'all. Oh and thank you to everyone who offered to be my beta reader I got one already.

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!

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