Kiss Paralysis

I've got the rest of yesterday.

Chapter 1, Harsh Dawns

He tossed relentlessly around his bed. Heavy eyelids and stubborn thoughts never coordinated well with one another. Summertime always ensured the constant heat and heat around Destiny Islands wasn't the more comforting dry heat but the damp-wet-sheets-sticking-to-your-body heat. He lifted the translucent white sheet from his slick pale body and walked over rickety floor boards towards the balcony. Riku opened the glass doors and embraced the breeze that came from the ocean. It was twilight, the stars were drowning in the hues of fading black and the seagulls' caws were barely audible. Riku always felt pacified in the ambience between light and dark, probably because he could relate to it. He closed the doors behind him and allowed his bare back to rest against the cool glass.

He emitted a sigh, not something he did too often, but he was relieved that outside his stuffy bedroom there was the ocean view. If he ever took his home for granted he would realize it when looking out to sea, this was home, this was paradise. His hunger for brave escapades died two years ago. Riku was nineteen now and content, it felt good to be home every single day.

Did you sleep well, Sora?

He laughed at his own musing, of course he slept well, Sora doesn't have sleepless nights anymore, his dreams ceased when their adventures ended. Orange started to mingle with the colors of the twilight transforming it into dawn. Unaware that he had been standing there for nearly half an hour he went back inside, hiding from the cruel light that burnt his eyes. Riku crawled under his sheets and buried his face into his pillow, the room felt colder. He liked it this way and when it was this way he could rest.

Bang, bang!

"Riku--wake up!" what is that obnoxious noise, Riku ignored it.

Bang, bang, bang!

"I've got something to tell you, it's really important!" why does it keeping speaking?

Riku removed a tuft of silver hair from his slothful eyes and looked at his alarm clock, it was 10:47 a.m. the least Sora could've done was called. He was more than sure that he had told Sora before to call before barging right on over.

Bang, bang, bang, bang!

He threw off his sheets and filed down the stairs in a lethargic manner, unlocking and swinging the door open with half closed eyes, and then squinting at the sun rays that threatened to blind him.

"About time you answered," Sora remarked in exasperation.

"What do you want? I told you to call before coming over," Riku's voice was raspy as he walked away from the door and into the kitchen.

Sora took that as his cue to follow, closing the door, and following after Riku, "You'll never believe what happened," according to his goofy-grinning face Riku was certain it had to do something with Kairi.

"Kairi agreed to marry you," Riku remarked sarcastically and stolidly as he opened the fridge to pour himself a glass of water.

"How'd you know? Did Kairi tell you already?" he inquired flagrantly.

Riku coughed on the water he had just sipped and stared at Sora, "You're joking, right?"

"No, I'm completely serious," Sora said honestly.

Riku felt a pang of agony stab his heart, he knew they were dating, but the both of them had been dating but it hasn't even been three months. For once Riku's intuition failed him, he didn't take Sora and Kairi's dating seriously because they always swore to friendship, not the intimacy that was dating, and now they're moving onto marriage? He experienced the darkness again, but this time he was in the dark confused and trying to find some sort of response to Sora's news.

"Aren't you guys moving fast?" he asked, hoping his opinion might sway Sora to take back his marriage proposal.

Sora furrowed his brows and he pouted his lips boyishly, a habit that he never outgrew, but Riku wouldn't want that habit to go away anyways, it was cute, "Riku, we've been friends since we were like seven, our relationship couldn't be any slower."

Riku took another sip of his water, he needed to relax, "You guys haven't even been dating for a year."

"So? We've known each other for about eternity," he over exaggerated, "I thought you'd be happy for me--you said you didn't have any feelings for Kairi, that you and her were just friends, you weren't lying were you Riku?" Sora's dynamic emotion changed from defensive to sympathetic.

"I don't have feelings for Kairi," Riku replied sternly, "I just think you guys might be biting off more than you can chew."

Sora frowned and kicked at the make-believe sand on the kitchen floor, "If you think we're going fast now, wait till I tell you this, we're getting married June."

Riku still remaining relatively placid averted his sea green eyes to Sora's, "That's next month."

"Yeah, Kairi wanted to," he shrugged.

"Any specific reason?" Riku asked resting his back against the doorframe.

"She said that if you get married in June you'll always be a bride and she didn't feel like waiting an entire year to get married, so she decided next month would be better," Sora explained.

Riku took a while to reply but he eventually took another sip of water and nodded, "Where will it be at?"

Sora shrugged again, "I dunno, we're s'pose to make plans at dinner tonight, I came to invite you, we'll be eating at The Landing."

Riku brushed his bangs away from his forehead, "I'll go."

"Good! Meet us at seven, you know how Kairi gets when one of us is late," Sora gave a pat on Riku's shoulder as he crossed the threshold.

Riku followed him towards the exit of his bungalow home, "It's never me who's late," he smirked.

Sora laughed and smiled sheepishly, "Yeah, but there was that one time--no, never mind, that was Tidus who was late."

Riku opened the door for Sora, his smirk still on set on his lips, "You'll be late to your own funeral, Sora."

His friend only laughed at the joke, his brilliant blue eyes dancing, "Thanks Riku," Sora began walking out, but paused half way out of Riku's front yard, "Thanks for everything," he turned around to beam his appreciation towards Riku, then departed, waving as he did so.

Riku was still being giddy about spending time with Sora since Kairi had deprived it from him. He kept staring at his friend who walked clumsily down the street until he was entirely out of sight.

When Riku's euphoria faded he came into realization that he was in a dilemma. How was he going to confess with this much pressure? Riku knew he wouldn't be able to continue a guilt-free life if he didn't tell Sora. He went inside his house and closed the door behind him. He'd tell him after the plans were discussed that night.

Riku would have to reach high for the courage that was collecting dust on the top shelf, he'd need it for tonight, he had to confess tonight.

A/N: Review please, authors like critiquing on their work. Not much of a first chapter but don't worry it'll get better I'm more than sure that I'll throw some good stuff in there for yaoi fans, so stay tuned.

Disclaimer: Who owns Kingdom Hearts! Not me! Square-Enix sure does though . . .