Kiss Paralysis

The colors of the morning are always a stunning sight.

Chapter 12, Dawn's Rainbow

"Riku, you know this can't go on," Sora rasped as his fingers tightened their hold on Riku's back.

The breeze on his neck and the cigarette breath only made Sora more vulnerable to Riku's seduction, "OK Sora, when the sun comes out we'll wake up from this dream and never remember it again."

That was painful. Forgetting this would be painful but Sora knew better. Tonight would be their last dream together.

Somewhere between Riku's hickies and feverish kisses Sora had removed his clothes and sometime after that Riku had done the same. The nighttime sounds were pacified, no erratic sounds of crickets just a low hum and wind. Something wet touched Sora's toes and he realized that they had managed to roll closer into the waves of the ocean. The dampness only enhanced Sora's arousal and he moaned into one of Riku's kisses.

"Sora," Riku whispered in his ear.

Riku's voice always was strong, no matter what he said you could always hear his power echoing. Sora arched his back, indicating to Riku that he was unable to take the sweet torture of it all. He embarked on his escapade, starting from Sora's lips, midway at his naval, and soon at paradise. Sora dug his fingers into the sand, feeling the small grains go underneath his fingernails.

"R-Riku," he whimpered, "just . . ." his cheeks turned a bright red and even though it was night Riku could see it.

Doing as Sora requested he entered, receiving a satisfied humming noise from Sora. Riku began to pump slowly, going deeper and faster gradually. Sora's arms held tight around Riku's neck, his hands touching all his back muscles and then back to Riku's neck, his fingers twisting through his silver hair.

By now Riku had gained extreme speed, his organ harder and more eager. Sora had finished the phase of pain and was now entering a state of ecstasy.

"Riku, Riku, Riku . . . !" Sora sang his name in different notes but was always singing in a crescendo.

"Sora--" A guttural moan that sounded like a beast.

"Mmm!" Sora could feel their climaxes colliding, it was something dazzling that he had never shared with anyone else, and for some reason he would never even dream of sharing it with someone else, not even Kairi.

Riku panted above Sora, his silver bangs masking his brilliant ocean green eyes. Sora weakly removed those bangs and kissed his forehead, allowing Riku to rest atop him momentarily. After Riku's breaths slowed he rolled onto Sora's left side but his arms never removed themselves from Sora's body. He held him constantly, a subliminal message it seemed like, he just didn't want to give him up.

Sora kissed Riku's neck, his cheek, his lips, his chest, his collarbone as he was over dominated in Riku's heavy arms. He looked at the moon and they laid there without a word. Lately their conversations had grown into this sleepy silence. Sora wasn't sure if it was awkwardness, no that wasn't it, whatever it was it wasn't completely solacing.

"The sky is turning blue," Riku noted.

Sora hadn't noticed, he was still feeling quixotic from Riku's embrace, "Already?"

"Yeah . . ."

He didn't want to go through with it any longer. Sora didn't want to have the burden of not loving Kairi to his fullest potential, sure he loved her but not at this level. No! He couldn't believe himself--what was he thinking? How could Sora let this happen again? He loved Kairi, Riku is just a dream, a momentary dream, the kind of dream you don't even remember when you wake up in the morning.

How could he let Riku talk him into this . . . how could he let Riku make him feel this. It was all lust, it had to have been.

"Maybe I should just go now," Sora said, his arms growing limp within Riku's embrace.

"I have till dawn," Riku replied, acting as if the agreement was a signed contract.

Sora's brows knitted together, "Riku, what if someone sees?"

"Everyone is asleep in the huts, we're on our part of the island that we've never told anyone about."

"Riku . . ." Sora said sternly but tiredly in which made it lose its stern effect.

The stars were getting erased and the intense black night was withering away to a deep blue. In this time Riku only made gestures of affection, kissing Sora's hands, running his fingers through Sora's hair, simple and clean actions. Sora reverted back to that calming state he had felt earlier in the night.

Riku could feel Sora's tension dissolving and fading like the darkness of the night. As much as he wanted to halt that sun and remain in that twilight before dawn he knew that Sora belonged to Kairi. Whether it was obligation that bounded Sora to Kairi or that fairy tale ending everyone expected from the both of them Riku didn't know. Sora and Riku would ultimately be rejected by their childhood companions if they were to find out, Riku supposed that he could handle that sort of ordeal but Sora who was so attached to everyone . . . his heart would surely break.

"The sun is coming out," Sora whispered wistfully.

Hesitantly, Riku removed his arms from Sora and suddenly that feeling you get when you realize you're no longer being held--the solitude of it all was multiplied. Riku wiped the sand the clung to his body and then went under the small waterfall. Sora watched this, he could feel the attraction rising within him once more but he fought to deter it. He grabbed his clothes into a ball and went under the waterfall once Riku was done.

"Man," Tidus yawned as he lazily placed his sandals on, uncaring if they were even placed on his feet correctly.

He stretched as he walked out of the hut, feeling the dawn sun exemplifying heat upon his bare chest. Eager for playing blitz ball he headed to the shack that contained all the supplies but stopped abruptly when he heard soft talking, it was quite a distance away but he was positive there were two voices. Tracing back his steps he found himself walking down a path he had never really paid any attention to in the past, he crouched lowly to the ground, wondering if it was Sora and Riku practicing for earlier today--they probably weren't expecting him but he could get them in a headlock from behind and it'd be victory!

Riku and Sora were walking in opposite directions by now but Sora had walked only five steps when he felt the urge to turn back, "Riku," he turned around and grabbed his forearm.

Riku stopped and turned around, looking at Sora's expression through his wet hair, "What is it?"

"I . . ." Sora's grasp tightened on Riku's forearm but slowly let go, "can't stay with Kai--"

"Take that!" Tidus grabbed Sora into a headlock and Riku was a bit shocked that he hadn't noticed the obnoxious boy's presence earlier, since when did Tidus become a shadow ninja?

"You're up early," Riku's face stoic as he took out a cigarette from his back pocket, realizing that was the last one he had left.

Tidus grinned, "Well I figured since we're playing blitz ball this afternoon I'd get a head start on practicing!"

Riku smiled and lit his cigarette, "I don't know if I'll be around to play."

"Aww c'mon Riku!" Tidus begged.

Sora sighed, he wasn't entirely sure if he was relieved that Tidus had stopped him or angry, either way he knew he'd have to put up with early morning practice. All he wanted to do was fall asleep in Riku's arms.

"Hey guys!" came a voice that matched the same energy as Tidus's, "want some breakfast?" Selphie called out, a basket in her arms.

Kairi was soon followed after, still very tired it seemed, her composure calm and her hand rubbing her eyes every so often as she walked to the group, "I heard screaming and I woke up," she mentioned sleepily, leaning on Sora's shoulder.

Riku forced his pretty smirk and took a grape from Selphie's basket, "Let's eat breakfast and then we'll train," he then suddenly ducked a blitz ball grazing his hair and pounding Tidus right in the face.

"Ouch!" he yelped, he had flown backwards and was on the ground.

"Ay, sorry Tidus," Wakka apologized apathetically, "meant to get Riku."

Selphie giggled cruelly and began to set a blanket down for everyone to sit on. Kairi noticed Sora had drifted off to one of the palm trees and she was quick to follow.

"Something wrong, Sora? You've been a little distant since last night, aren't you glad Riku's back?" she asked as she fit herself perfectly into Sora's arms.

"No, nothing's wrong, but look at that dawn, looks kinda like a rainbow," he remarked, he knew very well a lot of things were wrong but this was the best thing he could think of at the moment as an excuse, everything he had said to Kairi was some sort of excuse, some sort of white lie.

"A rainbow?" Kairi asked, removing red bang from her eyes and then making an observation for herself, "I guess so, if the colors of the rainbow were only violet, orange, blue, and pink," she responded.

"I like it."

"I do too."

A/N: It's being updated slowly but surely, don't expect the next chapter soon--unless I somehow get motivated to write it. I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, consider this chapter a VERY belated present.

Disclaimers: Nope, Santa didn't give me ownership over Kingdom Hearts for Christmas.