Chapter 12: Searching
Brooke woke up slowly noticing Lucas wasn't with her, normally she wouldn't worry but she couldn't hear anyone moving around the house at all. As she rose up she saw an envelope with her name printed in Lucas's handwriting on it. Thinking he had went out and had just written her a love letter so she would feel better she smiled picking it up she opened it and began to read it. Her smile quickly faded and her eyes welled up with tears she picked up the phone and dialed the one person she knew would be hurt just as much as she was.
"Hey Brooke" Haley answered immediately upon hearing her sobs she began to ask her what was wrong.
"Lucas left me" Brooke sobbed into the phone.
"Brooke what are you talking about?" Haley responded.
"He left and left me a letter can you please come over to Lucas'?" she asked.
"I'm on my way" Haley replied as she ran out her door. Upon getting to Lucas' she barged into this room "Brooke what's going on?" Crying all Brooke could do was hand the letter to Haley.
"Oh my god Brooke I'm so sorry" Haley said she too was on the verge of tears as she wrapped her arms around Brooke the girls cried into each others shoulders.
It had been two weeks since Lucas' sudden departure Brooke was a wreck she refused to leave his room she ate very little and still hadn't received a letter from Lucas that was until today. Karen had just walked in his room to see Brooke curled up on his bed hugging his pillow.
"Brooke I thought you might want to see this?" Karen said.
"Karen I don't want to be rude but I don't really want to" she replied not moving.
"It's from Lucas" Karen replied causing Brooke to leap off the bed and grab the letter from her hand and rip it open.
Dear Cheery,
I know you probably hate me right now and you have the right which wouldn't surprise me if you destroyed this without reading it. Anyway I'm writing to let you know I'm ok but missing you like crazy. I know what you're thinking "If you miss me why not just come home?" well it's not that simple. I'm afraid to I know you deserve better than me holding you back from your dreams and I needed us to be apart for me to be able to see if this is all I want. I know I've probably destroyed any chance with you and that kills me. I can't tell you where I'm at because I know you'll be here and I just need time I got to go remember I love you.
Love, Broody
After reading the letter she began to tear up again Karen moved in putting her arms around the devastated girl.
"Karen why doesn't he want me?" she asked.
"Brooke I don't believe for one minute he doesn't want you" she replied.
"Then why did he leave me I love him so much I can't live with out him" she said sobbing.
"I think he just needs to make sure he's doing the right thing, he may have gone about it the wrong way but I know Lucas and I know he'll be back soon" she replied. "Brooke when he does come back if he still wants all this are you going to take him back?"
"In a heart beat Karen I will wait as long as I have to wait for him" she said.
It had been three months since Lucas' departure from Tree Hill he had gotten himself a job in New York City and was living well but something was missing…Brooke. He knew he had to do this he had to test his love for Brooke Davis even though he had decided he wasn't dating since he was in his mind at least engaged. However he had been hanging out with a girl he worked with named Rachel they had decided to go for a walk in Central Park.
"So Lucas have you decided whether your staying or not?" she asked him as they walked.
"No Rachel I haven't I mean I miss Brooke and I know she's who I want to be with but I just can't bring myself to go back I'm afraid when I do she'll have moved on" he replied.
"Look Lucas of course I want you to stay but I know you love her nothing I can do will change that" she replied fighting with herself she wanted so bad to kiss him.
"I know Rachel you have been a good friend to me and I appreciate it" he answered. They had sat down Lucas was thinking heavily as he felt Rachel getting closer this was making him uncomfortable. He turned to ask her to move over when he was met with her lips on his he responded to her kiss but immediately knew he shouldn't pulling away. "Rachel we can't…." he said.
"I know I just wanted to one time and I have to say it was amazing wouldn't you say" she asked.
"It was an eye opener" he replied. He had made up his mind he was going back he had to tell Brooke something had changed.
Brooke had slowly made it out of Lucas' room. However she spent every night there clinging to his pillow reading and re-reading his letters to her. She could tell he still loved and wanted to be with her even if he didn't know it himself she would wait for him no matter how long it took.
Lucas had told Rachel of his intentions packed his bag and made his way back to his former life. The life he had dreamnt of his whole life.
Karen knew Brooke was in Lucas' room and she wasn't going to stop her. She understood her pain all to well she just wished there was something she could do for the devastated girl. She blinked she thought for a second she had saw Lucas's car pulling up she shook it off too nerves and continued reading when her kitchen door slowly opened and in walked the person she had been waiting to walk in for a long time now…Lucas. He motioned for her to stay quiet as he entered the room.
"Lucas" she whispered "you're home, why do I need to be quiet?" she asked.
"Because I want to surprise my fiancé" he said quietly making his way to the room he knew she was in. As he peaked in the room he saw her curled up facing the door that led outside sobbing into his pillow. It broke his heart to hear her crying. He knew now he made the right decision.
"You know cheery if you keep crying into my pillow like that it's going to melt" he said, Brooke didn't move she was afraid she was imagining things slowly she turned to see the most beautiful set of blue eyes looking right back at her.
"Broody!" she exclaimed leaping into his arms how she longed to feel them around her again and now he was back. Lucas smiled smelling her hair. "Please tell me you're back for good" she said.
"Of course I am cheery I told I would come back to you didn't I?" he replied pulling her into a deep passionate kiss.
"Broody I've missed your kisses so much" she said as they parted.
"Brooke I need to ask you something?" he said as they sat on his bed.
"Yes broody?" she replied.
"Well I was wondering if after what I did if you still wanted to marry me?" he asked. Brooke turned around looking Lucas right in the eyes.
"Well Lucas I can't say I wasn't hurt but I know it's what you needed to do, but before I say yes I need you to promise me you're not leaving again" she said.
"Brooke I did what I needed to do and now I'm back for you, for good you're my whole life" he replied.
"Then yes broody I still want to marry you" she replied. They spent the rest of the night in each others arms just like it was before.
