Title: Lost Memories

Disclaimer: … Gravitation doesn't belong to me… isn't that obvious? And the song isn't mine either.

Summary: Yuki and Shuichi's life together is going just fine. Until one day, Shuichi got hit by a car and woke up with no memories of only Yuki. No matter how hard Yuki and the others try, Shuichi just wouldn't remember. Having Shuichi giving him the cold shoulder, Yuki finally got a taste of his own medicines. Yuki is willing to do anything to get Shuichi to love him again, even if it means that they have to start all over again. What will happen in the end? Will Shuichi ever remember his once Lover? Story is set after Track 13, after Yuki had returned home from New York.

Chapter 13 – Fairytales

Shuichi ran down the street.

Shuichi-kun, you might not remember but I know you can feel it.

"Yuki, where are you!" Shuichi shouted into the night sky.

He loved you so much that he was willing to change for you.

Shuichi finally stopped running when he reached Yuki's apartment front door.

Can I be your Yuki again, Shuichi?

Shuichi put his hand over the doorknob and took a deep breath.

How can Yuki just let go? Ichigo was everything to him.

Shuichi slowly opens the door and stepped inside. It was all dark excepts for the lights that are shining through the windows, but Shuichi could tell… the apartment was empty. Shuichi walk further inside.

"This feels like a total déjà vu." Shuichi whispered. "How come my heart is hurting so much right now?"

Shuichi walks into the living room.

"I was here just not long ago. Yuki invited me for dinner but I ended up slapping him." Shuichi sighed.

Shuichi took another step forward when he suddenly hit something. Shuichi slowly kneel down on the floor and found a bag. Shuichi reaches inside and took all the items out. There were five 'Bad Luck' and Nittle Grasper's CDs, some of Shuichi's old lyrics, a lighter (the one that Yuki had with his and Shuichi's picture on it) and an envelope.

Shuichi picks up the envelope and took a closer look. 'To Shuichi' was written on the front. Shuichi nervously opened the envelope to retrieve the letter then he took a deep breath, before beginning to read the letter.

Dear Shuichi,

By the time you have found this letter, I should have already disappeared from your life. To tell you the truth, you will never see me again. I still can't get over the fact that you are going to get married to another person soon so please forgive me for I won't be attending to your wedding. Shuichi, I had finally decided to move on with my life so I am going to try to forget about you… just like how you had already forgotten about me long ago. All the things that you will find along with this letter are already meaningless to me so I am returning them all to you. Even though it's only been a short year, I am still really grateful since I met you. You gave me the chance to worried, to get mad, to blame to hate and most importantly to love again. Thanks for everything Shuichi. I had and always will love you.

Sigh,

Yuki

Shuichi ran a hand over the letter; tears stains could still be seen.

"Shuichi…" Shuichi said as tears roil down his cheek. "You are a stupid idiot. You pushed away the person who loved you a lot."

Do you really want him out of you life forever Shuichi?

Shuichi snaps his hand up and look around the empty apartment.

Do you really want things to end like this Shuichi?

Shuichi shook his head and stood up. "No… Yuki can't just leave like this."

With that, Shuichi ran out of the apartment.

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On the other hand, Yuki was holding his bags while standing in line, waiting to buy a plane ticket.

'Just a little while longer and I can finally be free again. Then I am going to hide myself from this cruel world and no one will be able to find me and hurt me again. I will just start a new author career in another country with another pen name.' Yuki thought.

Yuki look up at the ceiling and sighed. 'I just wish things didn't had to end like this for us.'

"Sir… SIR!"

Yuki quickly snapped back to reality when he heard someone yelling at him.

"Yes?" Yuki asked with a glare.

The salesperson smile nervously at Yuki. "Is you turn in line so I just need to know where you are going to buy the ticket to."

Yuki thought for a minute. Where did he really want to go?

"Make the plain ticket for England. When is the most nearest take off time?" Yuki asked.

"Well… the nearest one takes off in exactly 45mins from now. Or else you would have to wait for another 3 hours for the next one.

"Welcome welcome fans! This is Laura Hariki reporting live at the stadium where Bad Luck and Nittle Grasper are going to perform tonight."

Everyone in the airport turn to look at the big screen TV located at the waiting area.

"There are still one more hour to go until the concert really starts but over 2/3 of the whole stadium are already filled with people! All you fans out there should get yourself ready so go to the washroom no or go get your snacks ready because the live concert will begin really soon!"

Yuki stare blankly at the TV. 'Music was always very important to him…'

"I want a ticket to England; make it the one that leaves in 3 hours!" Yuki suddenly turn back and shouted and the salesperson.

The salesperson nodded. "That would be $2000 sir."

Yuki slammed a $5000 bill down, grabbed the ticket and walks towards the waiting area.

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Shuichi ran around the whole city, searching for the blonde an asking everyone that he can find. But unfortunately, no one had saw Yuki.

Shuichi finally stops running and pants. "Yuki… where are you?"

"Shuichi!"

Shuichi quickly turn around when he heard his name being called.

Tatusha ran towards Shuichi. "Shuichi! We had been looking for you everywhere! The concert is about to start and you are not even prepared!" Tatusha said.

"But I need to stop Yuki from leaving! I need to talk to him!" Shuichi protested.

"Do you know how much trouble you will cause and get in if you skip the concert? Aniki can wait but your fans can't! You still have to change and get your hair done!" Tatusha said angrily.

"NO!" Shuichi turned around and was about to run away but Tatusha grabbed his hand, preventing him from moving.

"Let go Tatusha! You can I both knows that if Yuki want to avoid us, no one can find him so I need to stop him from leaving Japan!" Shuichi shouted.

"Tohma already promised that he will for sure find Yuki for you after the concert! I can guarantee you that there is no one, and I mean no one who Tohma can't find!" Tatusha yelled.

Tatusha started to drag Shuichi away towards his motorcycle.

"But I…" Shuichi said sadly.

"You are a pro right Shuichi? Your music doesn't only belong to you. There are a lot of fans that are waiting for you back at the stadium right now. Sometimes you just can't be that selfish and run off like this. We are all counting on you and Ryuichi for a great show tonight. If you can't concentrate on a little concert because of your lover, then you don't deserve to be a famous lead singer." Tatusha reasoned.

Shuichi froze.

"Shuichi, I am sure Yuki won't be happy either if he knows that you gave up your concert for him." Tatusha said.

Shuichi's head dropped down to look at the floor and his bangs covered his face. Then he nodded weakly and just let Tatusha lead him back.

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"Shuichi!" Ryuichi yelled as Tatusha and Shuichi entered the makeup room. (Author's Note: LOL, I wasn't paying attention for a sec just now while typing and I typed 'make out' room instead of makeup room.)

Shuichi smile weakly at the older singer.

"Shuichi, you ready?" Hiro asked his best friend.

Shuichi turn to look at Hiro and nodded.

"Shuichi, if you feel that you won't be able to do the concert, Ryuichi can just take the whole show." Tohma offered.

Shuichi shook his head. "Some of the fans here today came because they wanted to hear me sing."

"Good job Shuichi, that's what I call a pro!" K said with a laugh.

"Okay guys, 5mins till show time." Sakano said.

"Okay Okay, Shuichi go change! Everyone else grab whatever they need. Is who time baby!" K said.

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"Hey all you fans out there! Are you ready to rock and roll!" The MC on the stage yelled out to the audiences.

The crowds cheered loudly.

"Then let's welcome our stars of tonight. Bad Luck and Nittle Grasper!" The MC shouted.

The crowds cheered again. Then the whole stage became dim dark for a moment before spot lights began flashing everywhere. Nittle Grasper and bad Luck began to walk on stage from either side as Ryuichi and Shuichi began to sing 'Shining Collection'.

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Yuki smile as he watches Shuichi singing on stage.

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"…make me shiny…" Shuichi suddenly stopped singing and dropped his microphone onto the floor.

Everyone stopped what they were doing and turn to look at Shuichi.

"Shu-chan?" Ryuichi asked.

Shuichi then dropped down onto the floor and began to cry. Everyone went froze for a minute until the crowds began to yell out 'Shuichi-kun! What's wrong? Are you alright?'.

Ryuichi was the first one to recover from the shock on stage. He slowly walks over to Shuichi and kneel down beside him.

"There had been something that is bothering Shuichi lately and I guess Shu-chan won't be able to concertrate until he gets to express himself." Ryuichi said through the microphone.

Shuichi slowly look up at Ryuichi. Ryuichi gave a gentle smile.

"The stage is all yours for now Shuichi. Say everything you need to say tonight. Don't let yourself regret." Ryuichi said.

With that, Ryuichi walks backs to the backstage. Everyone went dead silent as they wait for Shuichi's next action.

Shuichi stood up and wipe his face with his hands. "Please give me one last chance." Shuichi mumbled, before turning to Tohma, Noriko, Fujisaki and Hiro.

The music began to play as Shuichi await for his cue to start singing.

"You can do it Shuichi-kun!" Someone shouted from the backstage.

Shuichi's eyes widen in surprise and turned to look at the owner of the voice.

"Karen…" Shuichi whispered.

Karen smile and nodded.

(Author's Note: From this point on, everything that is in Italic would be Shuichi's flashbacks.)

Shuichi smile and turn back to face the audiences as he began to sing.

"Forgot how long it has been, since the last time you told me a love story. Thinking and thinking, I started to panic. Is it because I did something wrong?" Shuichi sang as he clenches on to his shirt.

Shuichi ran after his lyrics as the wind blew it away but he stopped short when he saw a person in front of him. A person with beautiful golden eyes.

"You cried to me that there are only lies in a fairytale, I can never become your prince. You might not understand this buy since the day you told me you love me, the stars on my night sky only grew brighter and brighter." Tears began to fall from Shuichi's face once more.

The first time when Yuki and Shuichi kissed inside of the elevator. Shuichi could tell though, underneath the cold voice and cold heart is a gentle person that is waiting for someone to bring love again.

"I wish to turn into the angel which you love in the fairytale. Open my arms, turn into wings and to protect you. You have to believe, believe that me and you can be just like in a fairytale. A happy ending and together forever." Shuichi sang.

The night when Shuichi went to visit Yuki's house after his concert. It felt really cold and lonely when he first when to his house. Shuichi couldn't believe how anyone can live in there all alone.

"You cried to me that there are only lies in a fairytale, I can never become your prince. You might not understand this but since the day you told me you love me, the stars on my night sky only grew brighter and brighter." Shuichi uses his hand to wipe some of his tears away.

The time when Yuki kicked Shuichi out of his house and Shuichi got rapped by ASK's lead singer. Shuichi never blamed Yuki though. He can never get mad at Yuki no matter what. He loves Yuki so much.

"I wish to turn into the angel which you love in the fairytale. Open my arms, turn into wings and to protect you. You have to believe, believe that me and you can be just like in the fairytale. A happy ending and together forever." Shuichi sang.

The time when Shuichi and Yuki went on a date at the amusement park. It was the happiest day in Shuichi's life. Yuki was even willing to take a picture as a memory with him.

"I wish to turn into the angel which you love in the fairytale. Open my arms, turn into wings and to protect you. You have to believe, believe that me and you can be just like in the fairytale. A happy ending and together forever." Shuichi smile weakly at all the memories.

The first time when Shuichi discovered that Yuki had left him to go to New York. Shuichi felt so lonely and hopeless back then. In front of his friends and family he pretends to be alright but he knows that he was only lying to himself. The pain made him realized that he can't ever live without Yuki.

"I wish to turn into the angel which you love in the fairytale. Open my arms, turn into wings and to protect you. You have to believe, believe that me and you can be just like in the fairytale. A happy ending and together forever." Shuichi look up at the night sky.

The time when Shuichi finally found Yuki at some old building at New York.

"Let's together, write our own happy ending." Shuichi slowly finishes off.

Silence filled the whole stadium as Shuichi just stare blankly at the sky.

"Even though it's only been a year, I feel like I had already lived my life to the fullest. Bad Luck is not one of the hottest bands in Japan, which had always been my dream ever since I joined N-G. 'Fairytale' was written before I had the car accident and it was dedicated to the most important person in my life. 'Fairytales' is about my feelings towards him. I might never see him again but I still hope that he was able to listen to this song. I love you… please come back to me." Shuichi said while turning back to look at the audiences.

Suddenly, every person the stadium stood up and started to clap.

"Wow! That was the greatest song I had ever heard Shuichi-kun!" Karen shouted from the back.

"Ya! You are the best Shuichi!" Ryuichi shouted while giving Shuichi thumbs up.

Shuichi turn to smile at Ryuichi and Karen.

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Yuki could only stand there in shock. "Shuichi…"

Yuki slapped himself on the cheek to make sure that he was not joking.

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"And finally, I just want to say, without that person and of course my friends being there to look after and to guide me, Shindou Shuichi would have never become what he is today. I am also really happy that there are a lot of fans out there that supports me and actually enjoys Bad Luck's songs. For that…" Shuichi bow down to the audiences. "… I thank you all."

The audiences began to clap again. Shuichi look up and gave a big smile.

"Now let's continue on the concert!"

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(Author's Note: I don't know how to write a concert and I don't think any of you would read a long concert anyways so let's just pretend it happened already and it's really successful.)

"Thanks for all your hard works tonight! Have a nice evening and see you guys soon!" Shuichi said while bowing to the stage crews as they were tidying up.

"You too Shindou-kun!"

Shuichi smile and turn back to his friends.

"You seem happier then before now." Noriko said.

Shuichi nodded. "Because I got to sing my song. And guess what? I gained back all my memories."

Everyone gasped. "When?"

"While I was singing 'Fairytales'." Shuichi said.

Tohma sighed. "Isn't destiny a very unpredictable thing? Yuki should be long gone by now. Shuichi, since the concert is over, you are free to go find Yuki if you really want to."

Shuichi shook his head. "I am just gonna leave this to fate now. If destiny allows it, Yuki will come back to me again. I had already sung my song and done my part already. I am sure Yuki should have heard it somehow."

Ryuichi smiled. "You had sure grown up a lot Shuichi. I would have never expected to hear something like this from you before."

Shuichi return the smile. "Sometimes, a lot of things happened that forces you to grow up but I do admit, I was too naïve back then. I see the real world now."

Hiro chucked. "At least something good happened today, Shuichi finally grew up."

They all started laughing. Shuichi pouted. "What is that suppose to mean Hiro? I wasn't that childish right?"

"I am not going to put in any comments." Hiro said.

"Anyways, is getting late. We should all go home right now because there is still work tomorrow." Tohma said.

They all nodded in agreement.

"I am going to drive Noriko and Ryuichi back to theirs apartments. Anyone else needs a ride?" Tohma offered.

"Is ok boss, K drove his car here today so I will just hit a ride with him." Sakano said.

"I need a ride home Tohma." Fujisaki said

Tohma nodded. "Then how about you Hiro? Shuichi?"

"I brought my own motorcycle today so no thank you. You are coming with me right Shuichi?" Hiro said.

"Is ok Hiro, you can go home first. I will come back later. I want to take a walk around first." Shuichi said.

"Okay then Shuichi. We will be leaving. See you guys tomorrow." K said.

Shuichi nodded and walks away.

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Shuichi walks slowly down the path in the park. With each step that he took, his shoulder slumps down more and more. He might feel more relief after expressing himself but his heart was still in pain. He understands that there is no point of going out to find Yuki again because he doesn't want to force the blonde to stay with him. If Yuki really does want to go back to him, Yuki would come back by himself.

Shuichi looks around and realized that he had come back to the exact spot where it all started.

Shuichi gave a small chuckled. "It was still just like yesterday when me and Yuki first met here. My first impression of him was a rich brat who can only diss other people's works."

Shuichi smile and took out a piece of his lyrics from his pocket. "I wonder if I let this lyrics get carried away by the wind, will it lead me to Yuki again?"

Shuichi thought for a moment before he began to laugh. "You are acting childish again Shuichi. This is not a real fairytale. Things like this only happen in fantasy stories to make everything perfect. This is the real world. The real cruel world where there are sad endings also. A real world where people want so much to escaped from."

"People who want to escape the real world are usually people who don't have love. That's why they chose to hide in their own fantasy worlds so they won't get hurt or feel alone."

Shuichi's eyes widen in surprise. He let go of his lyrics and the wind began to carry away the piece of paper. Shuichi turn to look at the source of the voice as the person catches his lyrics as it flew by.

"Yuki…" Shuichi whispered.

Yuki took a step forward. "Baka Shuichi. Baka, baka, baka, baka Shuichi."


Author's Note: AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH, I am ending it here. XD I know this is a very late update but I didn't have any ideas for the ending but I wanted to finish this story before school starts so I forced myself to think of something. So…. How was the ending? I left it like that because I want to give some imagination room for the readers. Well, another story done. I am really thankful to everyone who stuck by this story and always forgives this stupid author whenever she has a late update. I will really miss your reviews. This would probably be my last story for Gravitation or at least until I could think of something else to write. Thanks for everything. Please feel free to come back to read my story once in a while. XD