Hey everyone, sorry I haven't updated 'a question worth asking' but my muse is lending itself only for this story today, I did try finish up my other stories, its just not coming to me. A warning to anyone that reads this story, it might be a little OOC, but I just need to write it this way. Thanks again for reading and please forgive me, as I didn't have much time to proof read.
Disclaimer: it's not mine I swear!
Lorelai reluctantly ascended the stairs and started getting ready for work. She avoided looking too hard around her room. She wasn't ready to see all those boxes gone. When she was finally finished and looked as presentable as she could muster, she headed off to work.
Michel was the first person to greet her when she arrived at the Dragonfly Inn. As usual, the first words out of his mouth were words of annoyance at her for being late to work. For the first time in a long time or ever for that fact, Lorelai walked straight past Michel and headed into her office without even giving him a glance. Feeling that the behaviour was odd, Michel went to talk to Sookie. Michel found Sookie in the kitchen clearing up ready for the dinner crowd.
'Something isn't right with Lorelai' Michel told Sookie with a hint of concern in his voice.
'What do you mean?' Sookie asked confused.
'She didn't say anything'
'What?' Sookie asked even more confused
'She didn't say anything to me when I complained about her arriving late at work' Michel stated desperately.
'Nothing?'
'Nothing'
'Wow'
'Sookie, do you know what's the matter with her?'
'No, but I am going to go find out. Where is she?'
'Office'
'Thanks Michel'
Michel exited the kitchen and headed back to the front desk while Sookie went to find Lorelai. When she reached the office door, Sookie knocked and waited for Lorelai to respond. If she was in a bad mood, the last thing Sookie wanted to do was go in their unannounced.
'Come in' Lorelai said dryly
'Hey sweetie, how are you doing?'
'I'm fine. How are you?'
'I'm okay, but somehow I don't think you are.'
'What!' Lorelai snapped at Sookie, immediately feeling guilty though. 'Sorry'
'what's the matter, you can talk to me, you know'
'I know, I'm not sure if I want to talk just yet'
'Oh ok, I wont push you' Sookie started heading for the door before something occurred to her. 'Hey, how was your few days off. Did you manage to get everything you needed done?
Sookie hadn't realised at the time, but that was the worst question to be asking Lorelai. Immediately tears started to well in Lorelai's eyes. She couldn't blink them back quick enough, and Sookie saw them.
'Hey sweetie, what's going on? This isn't you.'
'It is me now' Lorelai stated matter of factly.
'What's that supposed to mean?' Sookie asked, her voice full of concern
'Sookie...' Lorelai was just about to ask Sookie to leave her alone when Sookie interrupted.
'You lost your ring!' she screamed when she saw Lorelai's bare hand wiping away the tears.
'What? No'
'Then where is it?'
'Its at home,' Lorelai answered. Her voice showing no emotion.
'Thank God, Luke would have killed you if you lost it. Why don't you have it on?'
The mention of his name was too much; Lorelai didn't see herself ever getting over this pain.
'I'm no longer engaged'
'What!'
'I broke off the engagement Sookie'
'What!' Sookie yelled for the second time before collapsing in the chair across from Lorelai
'You aren't going to make me say it again are you?'
'But why?'
'So many reasons Sookie, so many reasons. It wasn't going to work out. I just needed to get out before any of us got hurt' Lorelai told Sookie with a pained expression on her face.
'And what, you're not hurting now?'
'Of course I am, I hated having to break up with the man I love'
'What do you mean you had to break up with him. You didn't have to do anything. You guys are great together. What happened?'
'April happened. Anna happened'
'What! Lorelai you aren't jealous of her are you? They were together 12 years ago.' Sookie stated, confused at this new information.
'I know, it's not that easy Sook. This got to complicated and too uncomfortable'
'Uncomfortable?'
'Yes. We couldn't be just Luke and Lorelai anymore. There was always something or someone getting in our way. That is a sign'
'No, a sign is the snow that fell when you told Luke about the wedding plans.'
'Yeah the wedding plans he had me cancel'
'Postpone, not cancel'
'Postpone would have been if he gave me another date. Its been 5 months Sookie, 5 months and no plans to get married.'
'Come on Lorelai, you cant tell me you are giving up on you two. You are meant to be together'
'Yeah, then we will find our way back to each other'
'You're both stubborn and you know it. If you quit now, you will never give it a go again'
'We will, if we are meant to be together.' Lorelai stated, sounding more like she was trying to convince herself and not Sookie.
'Lorelai! ... When did this happen?' Sookie thought it best to try get information out of Lorelai now instead of moaning at her.
'Thursday night after our dinner'
'That romantic dinner, just the two of you' Sookie stated unbelievingly.
'Yes. It was a great night. We went back to Sniffy's. It was magical cause we haven't been there in months. The conversation was normal and we laughed like we haven't in a long time' Lorelai told Sookie in a dreamful voice. Trying to hold on to the good memory.
'Then what happened?'
'He took me back to the diner and we had coffee and some beers. We made love and just laid there holding each other without any interruptions'
'I am failing to see where the end to your engagement is'
'Sookie!' Lorelai exclaimed before taking a deep breathe and continuing. 'We were laying there and I was thinking about the day we would get married and I was just about to ask Luke if he had though of a date, you know a time when he would be ready to get married when he tells me he is going away with April next weekend.
'So?'
'I guess you don't remember what next weekend is either' Lorelai said, now starting to get angry again with both Luke and Sookie.
'No, what?'
'June 3rd is this Saturday coming'
'Oh' Sookie said, seeming to understand a little bit more where the problem is.
'Even after I told him, he didn't see what the problem with him going away camping with April would be'
'Sweetie...'
'I just snapped, I snapped and got up and got dressed.'
'What did he do?'
'Surprisingly nothing. He must have just thought it was one of my mood swings'
'Okay?' Sookie said urging Lorelai to continue.
'I was so angry with him for just dismissing everything, that I took the ring off and placed it on the table.' The anger that welled in Lorelai was slowly being replaced by the incredible sadness again. ' I told him I couldn't do it anymore and that he should pick up his things today. I told him I was sorry and I left'
'Oh sweetie'
'He didn't even chase me. And the logical part of me says, well hey he was naked but the childish insecure side said, hey he agrees with you. He is glad its over.'
'Honey you cant think that'
'I know he doesn't want it to end, I know he loves me, but that's not enough anymore Sook. I wish... I wish it was'
'Cant you speak to him, go away and reconnect. You cant just give up'
'He phoned and I explained where I was coming from and then today, when he was at the house, he asked if we could go away, but honestly Sook, I don't think it would make a difference.'
'When he was at your house?'
'Yeah, he came to pick up his things. I had boxed most of it for him already.'
'He actually moved out'
'Yes, he should be all finished by now. He was coming back for his second truckload after I left. It was too hard being there when he was moving his stuff.'
'I just cant believe this, what does Rory say about all this?' Sookie asked looking over at Lorelai sympathetically.
'You are just choosing the right questions today, aren't you.'
'What happened?'
'She is upset. She says I shouldn't give up on me and Luke. She has basically taken Luke's side in all of this.'
'There aren't sides, she probably just needs time to get used to the idea that she isn't getting the father figure she has been waiting for.'
'Again with what Luke has said. Your making me feel guilty about my choice now.'
'Good, now what else do I need to do to get you back in Luke's arms where you belong'
'Nothing' Lorelai answered frustrated.
'I just don't know what to say now'
'To leave it is best Sook, I just want to move on a get over him as quick as I can. I don't want to cry over him anymore'
'I can't believe I never saw this coming, you two always seemed so happy'
'Oh don't get me wrong Sookie, we were happy. Its just things changed and I don't like change.'
'Cant things be changed back?'
'I'm not into the whole murder my boyfriends family scenario'
'I'm not suggesting that, it just seems…. I don't know'
'That's exactly how I felt Sookie. I didn't know what to do and it took me months to get up the courage to end things' Lorelai was talking normally now, she was managing to block out all emotions again.
'You've been thinking about breaking off the engagement for months?' Sookie asked shocked
'I won't lie, it crossed my mind more than I care to say, I had it as my last option.'
'Wow' Sookie sighed
'Yeah, shouldn't you be getting the dinner started?'
'It can wait'
'No don't worry about me, I'm fine. I will catch up on this paperwork here and then head home.'
'Don't you want to talk anymore?'
'I think we did enough talking for today, I am just going to work and get my mind off of everything. We have a few maids off so I can help with the making up of the rooms.'
'Okay, but you know where to find me'
'Thanks Sook'
Sookie got up and headed back to the kitchen, not before insuring Michel that everything was okay. Whether it was or not now, Sookie was going to make sure it would be. When she got to the kitchen, she picked up the phone and dialled a number she hoped would have the answers.
Again, I am sorry about how I ended it, but I just wanted to get this chapter out there and get your opinion before I continued. Thanks for all your support and reviews. They are appreciated beyond words. So please keep them coming.
What does Sookie have planned? Will she get Lorelai back in Luke's arms? I don't know cause I haven't written the next chapter, lol but if you review I will write the next chapter and we can all know.
Thanks again.
Ronata
