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Chapter Seven: Warm Touch
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I feel soft warm arms wrapped around me and I snuggle closer against someone. I'm so sleepy right now that I just want to drift back into dreams, but a sharp pain begins to stab into my heart. Slowly my eyes open and I see that I am back inside.
I'm lying on my bed, but I'm not alone. Someone is lying next to me, their arms draped around my waist, their head pressed gently into my back. My whole body is stiff and achy as well as covered in fresh bandages. I groan out as I turn over only to find a pair of red eyes staring at me intensely.
It feels somewhat awkward, lying in the same bed as Hiei with him looking at me that way and holding me. I begin to turn red slightly and I blink trying to clear my eyes from the traces of sleep that are lingering behind.
"Hiei?" I ask confused still somewhat muddled from sleep.
Hiei's only response is to pull me closer, as he presses his face into my chest. "Kurama..." he says possessively as I feel his nose rub lightly against my chest. His arms are encircled around me so that there is barely an inch separating our bodies.
"Is it.....all true?.....did it all really happen?..." I ask, closing my eyes, hating how my voice sounds so terribly weak.
I hear Hiei sigh, then he whispers into my ear, "Don't think about that right now." He playfully bites on the edge of my ear lobe and I jump back in surprise.
"Hiei!?" I say, confounded at his new behavior. I pull away and rub my slightly stinging ear.
"Kitsune....you don't remember....do you?" he says, bitterly, and his eyes dim for a moment.
"Remember what?!" I exclaim. Sure, I can remember some things now, like my mother's death and some of my life as a human, but other parts are very vague.
The bitterness in him seems to have gone away and he grips my right bicep tightly. "I guess I'll just have to show you all over again..." he says intensely as he roughly pushes me flat down onto the bed and leans over me.
I'm a little uncomfortable as he bends down and begins to kiss me roughly, while his hands entangle themselves in my hair. This is all too weird for me right now. I already have enough with my mother....and now Hiei is.....well I just don't know....He's never acted like this with me before, that I can remember. I squirm under his touch, not knowing how to feel, heat rising through my entire body.
As though sensing my uneasiness he breaks the kiss and looks down at me, with a grin on his face.
"I'm going to make you want me kitsune....just you wait.....you'll be begging in the end..." he whispers lightly, as he pulls away and stands up.
Hopping lightly off the bed, Hiei yawns and stretches. "I'm going to find Genkai now. She'll need to give you your medicine again."
Once I manage to catch my breath (and my sanity) I curl up in the sheets. Everything is just too complicated...too damn complicated. What is really bothering me though, what is lurking deep within me, eating away at the core of my soul, is the fact that I still can't remember who killed my mother, and how it actually happened. The painful memory of her ripped body comes to my mind along with a few scattered memories of some happy times we had together, but nothing else. Not one single damn thing! It's driving me totally crazy. I want to remember so bad, but.....but what if I find out....and it hurts me even more?
And what was with Hiei's behavior? What did he mean by 'don't you remember?'. What happened between us before? Could it be that he's just making it all up, and acting that way to distract me from my pain? I'm not sure...It's hard to tell. Hiei is a hard person to figure out.
I touch my lips absentmindedly. "I can still....taste him..." I murmur to myself quietly. I bury my face into the bed where he was laying just minutes ago. The scattered scents of his body still cling onto the sheets as I press my nose into them.
To my surprise, I actually feel somewhat cold and empty without Hiei's arms wrapped around me. Just the smell of him is making my mind incoherent and yet feel somehow contented. What is with me?
"Oh mother...if only you were here..." I whisper miserably, taking a fistful of the sheet in my hand and squeezing it tightly. "I......miss.....you so much...."
A drop falls silently onto the sheet, spreading out through the fibers. More are joining it, tears keep flowing from my haunted eyes to roll down my cheeks and cascades onto the fabric.
"Kurama?" I heard a soft voice call hesitantly. I quickly wipe away my tears and turn around. I didn't even hear this person come in.
My eyes take in a young girl with soft sea-green hair that falls gently against her pale cheeks. Her frame is small and almost fragile wrapped in a pale blue kimono as she clutches her hands together nervously. Her eyes are what capture me though for they are a deep blood red....just like Hiei's.
A faint trace of a name comes to me and I try to remember it. I recognize this girl, I've seen her before many times. If only I could remember her name!
The girl cautiously walks over to me and places a hand lightly on my forehead. "Genkai is away for a while and she told me to take care of you." the girl says quietly.
I hear the door open again and Hiei walks in too. He sits down in the chair by the bed and watches as the girl starts to pull out different medicines that she is going to give me. A faint memory starts to come to me, of this girl.....wait....wasn't her name.....
"Yukina!?" I say suddenly, startling her so that she makes a slight noise and jumps.
"Yes, Kurama..." she asks, pausing from her work to look at me.
I smile. "That's your name...isn't it....Yukina?"
She nods slightly to me a smile on her lips. "You're remembering Kurama..." She says happily as she un-bandages a wound on my right arm and gently applies the medication.
After about ten minutes she finishes and bows slightly to me. "I must leave now Kurama. I hope you get better."
Hiei's eyes follow her as she leaves and I grin at him. "She is your sister, isn't she?" I ask.
Hiei bristles at the question and a sharp nod gives me my answer. An uncomfortable silence seems to linger in the air afterwards.
"Hey, can we go outside again?" I ask trying to break the desolate mood. Maybe if I just get my mind off some things...it wouldn't hurt so much.
Hiei tilts his head at me in an oddly questioning way, but then he just shrugs his shoulder as if saying 'oh nevermind'.
"Whatever.....kitsune..." he says lightly and starts to walk out the door.
I climb out of the bed, still slightly sore and follow after him. As we walk side by side down the empty hallway, my fingers brush slightly against his and I gently take a hold of his hand, sighing with contentment as his warm skin presses against mine.
He raises one eyebrow at me...like saying... 'I told you so', but he doesn't remove his hand from my grip. Maybe I've found my answer.....maybe I do love Hiei.
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[This story is steering in a more happier direction because I just can't help it! There's gonna be more angst though, so don't think it's over....but I think there will be some happy things for Kurama and Hiei....if yah know what I mean...^_^]
Chapter Seven: Warm Touch
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I feel soft warm arms wrapped around me and I snuggle closer against someone. I'm so sleepy right now that I just want to drift back into dreams, but a sharp pain begins to stab into my heart. Slowly my eyes open and I see that I am back inside.
I'm lying on my bed, but I'm not alone. Someone is lying next to me, their arms draped around my waist, their head pressed gently into my back. My whole body is stiff and achy as well as covered in fresh bandages. I groan out as I turn over only to find a pair of red eyes staring at me intensely.
It feels somewhat awkward, lying in the same bed as Hiei with him looking at me that way and holding me. I begin to turn red slightly and I blink trying to clear my eyes from the traces of sleep that are lingering behind.
"Hiei?" I ask confused still somewhat muddled from sleep.
Hiei's only response is to pull me closer, as he presses his face into my chest. "Kurama..." he says possessively as I feel his nose rub lightly against my chest. His arms are encircled around me so that there is barely an inch separating our bodies.
"Is it.....all true?.....did it all really happen?..." I ask, closing my eyes, hating how my voice sounds so terribly weak.
I hear Hiei sigh, then he whispers into my ear, "Don't think about that right now." He playfully bites on the edge of my ear lobe and I jump back in surprise.
"Hiei!?" I say, confounded at his new behavior. I pull away and rub my slightly stinging ear.
"Kitsune....you don't remember....do you?" he says, bitterly, and his eyes dim for a moment.
"Remember what?!" I exclaim. Sure, I can remember some things now, like my mother's death and some of my life as a human, but other parts are very vague.
The bitterness in him seems to have gone away and he grips my right bicep tightly. "I guess I'll just have to show you all over again..." he says intensely as he roughly pushes me flat down onto the bed and leans over me.
I'm a little uncomfortable as he bends down and begins to kiss me roughly, while his hands entangle themselves in my hair. This is all too weird for me right now. I already have enough with my mother....and now Hiei is.....well I just don't know....He's never acted like this with me before, that I can remember. I squirm under his touch, not knowing how to feel, heat rising through my entire body.
As though sensing my uneasiness he breaks the kiss and looks down at me, with a grin on his face.
"I'm going to make you want me kitsune....just you wait.....you'll be begging in the end..." he whispers lightly, as he pulls away and stands up.
Hopping lightly off the bed, Hiei yawns and stretches. "I'm going to find Genkai now. She'll need to give you your medicine again."
Once I manage to catch my breath (and my sanity) I curl up in the sheets. Everything is just too complicated...too damn complicated. What is really bothering me though, what is lurking deep within me, eating away at the core of my soul, is the fact that I still can't remember who killed my mother, and how it actually happened. The painful memory of her ripped body comes to my mind along with a few scattered memories of some happy times we had together, but nothing else. Not one single damn thing! It's driving me totally crazy. I want to remember so bad, but.....but what if I find out....and it hurts me even more?
And what was with Hiei's behavior? What did he mean by 'don't you remember?'. What happened between us before? Could it be that he's just making it all up, and acting that way to distract me from my pain? I'm not sure...It's hard to tell. Hiei is a hard person to figure out.
I touch my lips absentmindedly. "I can still....taste him..." I murmur to myself quietly. I bury my face into the bed where he was laying just minutes ago. The scattered scents of his body still cling onto the sheets as I press my nose into them.
To my surprise, I actually feel somewhat cold and empty without Hiei's arms wrapped around me. Just the smell of him is making my mind incoherent and yet feel somehow contented. What is with me?
"Oh mother...if only you were here..." I whisper miserably, taking a fistful of the sheet in my hand and squeezing it tightly. "I......miss.....you so much...."
A drop falls silently onto the sheet, spreading out through the fibers. More are joining it, tears keep flowing from my haunted eyes to roll down my cheeks and cascades onto the fabric.
"Kurama?" I heard a soft voice call hesitantly. I quickly wipe away my tears and turn around. I didn't even hear this person come in.
My eyes take in a young girl with soft sea-green hair that falls gently against her pale cheeks. Her frame is small and almost fragile wrapped in a pale blue kimono as she clutches her hands together nervously. Her eyes are what capture me though for they are a deep blood red....just like Hiei's.
A faint trace of a name comes to me and I try to remember it. I recognize this girl, I've seen her before many times. If only I could remember her name!
The girl cautiously walks over to me and places a hand lightly on my forehead. "Genkai is away for a while and she told me to take care of you." the girl says quietly.
I hear the door open again and Hiei walks in too. He sits down in the chair by the bed and watches as the girl starts to pull out different medicines that she is going to give me. A faint memory starts to come to me, of this girl.....wait....wasn't her name.....
"Yukina!?" I say suddenly, startling her so that she makes a slight noise and jumps.
"Yes, Kurama..." she asks, pausing from her work to look at me.
I smile. "That's your name...isn't it....Yukina?"
She nods slightly to me a smile on her lips. "You're remembering Kurama..." She says happily as she un-bandages a wound on my right arm and gently applies the medication.
After about ten minutes she finishes and bows slightly to me. "I must leave now Kurama. I hope you get better."
Hiei's eyes follow her as she leaves and I grin at him. "She is your sister, isn't she?" I ask.
Hiei bristles at the question and a sharp nod gives me my answer. An uncomfortable silence seems to linger in the air afterwards.
"Hey, can we go outside again?" I ask trying to break the desolate mood. Maybe if I just get my mind off some things...it wouldn't hurt so much.
Hiei tilts his head at me in an oddly questioning way, but then he just shrugs his shoulder as if saying 'oh nevermind'.
"Whatever.....kitsune..." he says lightly and starts to walk out the door.
I climb out of the bed, still slightly sore and follow after him. As we walk side by side down the empty hallway, my fingers brush slightly against his and I gently take a hold of his hand, sighing with contentment as his warm skin presses against mine.
He raises one eyebrow at me...like saying... 'I told you so', but he doesn't remove his hand from my grip. Maybe I've found my answer.....maybe I do love Hiei.
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[This story is steering in a more happier direction because I just can't help it! There's gonna be more angst though, so don't think it's over....but I think there will be some happy things for Kurama and Hiei....if yah know what I mean...^_^]
