I must have fallen asleep because I woke up to a groan. I looked up groggily forgetting where I was for a moment. Raph was moaning in his sleep and thrashing around a bit. "Oh crap. That can't be good for him!" I rushed over to him and tried to hold him still. I growled, even in his sleep he was stronger than me. I was practically lying on him to keep him still. "Raph, come on Raph. You're safe now! You're in the lair. Come on Raph, be still, it's alright!" I don't know if it was a good part in his dream or something but he stopped, panting. I got the washcloth Master Splinter had used earlier and put it on his forehead.

Then Mike started whimpering. I looked up at the sky, "Why me? Why them?" I was about to walk over to Mike to help him when he went completely still and silent! My eyes grew big as saucers and I rushed over to him. I listened and felt for a pulse. My eyes got even bigger. "Oh no you don't Mike! Come on wake up buddy! Please don't die! Ohhh, come on, wake up, you know you want to!" I rushed to say in my desperation. I realized I'd have to do CPR! I didn't even think of how gross or wrong that was I just did it.

The breath coming from Mikey made my eyes tear up. I guess I was pretty much an emotional wreck. "Don't ever scare me like that again!" I looked to the rest of the guys. "That goes for all of you!" I just about died of heart attack when I heard Splinter. "It is alright child. They will make it now, you have done well." I turned slowly to Splinter. "Really?" I asked in a small pitiful voice that disgusted me. "I'm sorry for drugging your tea." I looked at the ground. To my surprise Splinter smiled "It is alright. You were right to do that, I needed rest. But, now that I am rested you need some sleep. I was about to protest that I had just woken up but realized that he was right. I WAS extremely tired. So I nodded and walked out to the couch, taking the blanket from Splinter on my way out.

I thought it would take me forever to go to sleep because of all the thoughts running through my head. But I was wrong. As soon as I hit the couch I was snorin'. While I was sleeping I had time to think, or dream. I dreamt that when the guys woke up they hated me. It broke my heart. I tried to apologize but they wouldn't hear it and they kicked me out. I decided I had to try to save Leo, if not for them then for me. I went to Karai's building but the guys were already there with Leo free and I just got in the way. Then somehow Karai found us and was about to shove a sword down through Leo's neck but I saw and pushed him out of the way.

Well I was in his place and Karai's sword couldn't change course now and she ended up killing me! That wasn't even the worst part of my dream. The worst part was she was sorry. She immediately dropped to her knees and started crying! And the turtles. The turtle's didn't even care. They all just sneered at me. And Leo started laughing! Soon they were all laughing and saying how I deserved it for what I put them through. I just sat there dying, taking it, crying.

I jerked up on the couch sweating and all tangled up in the blanket. I knew that if I didn't leave my dream would come true. (Hey, give me a break, I was stressed!) I decided right there and then to leave. I sat up and walked to the infirmary. Splinter was asleep with a book on his chest and my friends and the turtle's weren't awake. I felt guilty leaving all of them, even if I did think they would hate me. So I found the kitchen and some paper and a pencil. I wrote a note to tell them not to worry and to not come looking for me. At the last minute I chose to add, I can under stand if you can't but can you please look for it in your heart to forgive me.

With the note written and everybody asleep I knew it was the perfect time to leave. So with that I tip-toed out the door, shutting it firmly behind me.

End chapter five