A N I know Im a bad bad story teller.
But thank you to all of you whove stuck it out this far.
I don't know if Ive got this chapter the way it should be so I really need some help. HELP P P LEASE.
By the way just incase anything else goes Boom in my life. Hope every one has a cool Halloween.
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"Blair, sweetheart. Blair its time to wake up."
Blair cuddled into the warm caring hand that clasped his face.
This is a really nice dream. Dont want to wake up. To have my Sentinel, my love caressing me awake…Uhhuh not waking up.
"Come on babe. We really need to get settled in," Jims husky voice insisted.
Blair reluctantly opened his eyes.
His dream wasnt disapating. Jim was still there, looking at HIM with such love.
"Jim?"
"Yeah babe, you doing okay?" the Sentinel asked concern now clouding his blue eyes.
Blairs memories slotted quickly into place – good and bad. He smiled reassuringly as he said, " At this moment Im doing great."
Jim returned the smile, then slid over to his door and got out of the vehicle.
Blair stretched alittle then unfastened his seatbelt and slowly followed suit.
He began to take in his unfamiliar surroundings.
They were in the middle of a woodland glade with a dark expanse of water in fornt of them. Behind them nestles happily within the trees was the most perfect cabin he had ever seen. It was larger than normal but it just seemed to fit some how.
"Where are we Jim?"
jim had watched his guide take in his new enviroment cataloging each detail in that ever active mind. He had watched the pleasure dawn on that beloved face and knew he had been correct about this location.
"Lets get inside and Ill explain everything okay," he said trying to remain calm as the breadth of what he had to explain hit him squarely in the chest.
Today has been a day of opposites, Blair thought as they lifted out their duffles.Great joy and great pain. Exquisite beauty and twisted hideousness. But for now I can rest my mind, body and soul. I wonder if the cabin belongs to one of Jims army buddies.Hope it doesnt have those horrible animal heads. Where did Jim get the key? Hope theres food Im starved…
Blair smiled happily as he moved through the solid wooden doorway that Jim had just opened. His mind was running through a multitude of questions and feelings, but not really dwelling on any.
Once inside Jim left his side and went to a small box located under a large shuttered window. With a flick of a switch the room was illuminated. A small gasp left Blair as he took in the room he was in. for here there were no Bear or Stag heads only a stylish inviting living room.
Two plump coffee colored learther sofas were set either side of a smoked glass coffee table. They sat infront of a grand fireplace built onto a rugged stone wall. The floor was highly polished with sumptuous scatter rugs on it. While three wooden bookcases stood like sentries at the doors opposite.
Jim waited silently. He watched Blair carefully and knew the micro second blir spotted them.
For on the stone wall above the fireplace no art work was hung. Instead there were four large collages of photographs. Pictures that told the tales of their lifes; police and collage events shared space with fishing trips, picnics with friends and trips to the beach.
Blair turned to face the silent man.
"This is your place."
It wasnt a question, just a whispered statement of fact.
One that hit the Sentinel like a sledgehammer to the solar plexis. He heard the undertones of hurt and confusion in Blairs voice and pure fear caused words to erupt uncensored from his mouth.
"Dont be angry Blair…I promise I can and will explain absolutely everything. Please Blair?" He implored so scared that he had just spoiled everything. Their love was so new and fragile.
How the hell did I not know about this place? Do the others know? Why didnt he trust me?Why did he keep me in the dark? Blairs thought swirled helplessly round and round.
"Chief…please come and sit down…I swear Ill tell you everything."
Blair was pulled from his own turmoil upon hearing Jims voice on the edge of panic. It seemed that even when he was angry, he was still a guide.
"Just explain why you kept this place secret? Or do the others know and it was just me?" Blair demanded as he slumped down on the opposite sofa from his partner.
Jim didnt take his gaze off his face as he began.
"No the others don't know. Only Steven, I swear."
"Steven!" Blair exclaimed even more confused than ever. What had jims younger brother got to do with this. They had reconcilled true, but their relationship was still in its ackward infancy.
"I swear Blair I did not do this to hurt you. Steven orginally own this place. He brought me up that time you went away on that course. Anyway I loved it, but when you came home I forgot all about it. I was just so glad you were back were you belonged. After that out lives fell into the normal chaotic mess and I just never brought it up."
Jim took a quick breath terrified that Blair wouldnt let him finish before he turned and walked away from him. Like everyone else hed loved.
"Then out of the blue, about 3 months ago Steven decides to sell and gives me first refusal. So I bought it, but the deeds still arent changed yet. I havent got around to it yet…It was around the same time I was beginning to accept that my feelings for you werent going to subside or go away. I was so confused and the one person I would normally go to, was the one I couldn't. I didn't know what to do or say chief. I have never felt this way before, not with anyone…So there I am acting like a love sick virgin with my bestfriend, guide and partner, and not having a clue. I guess I just needed this pplace to be a bolt hole were I could dream I guess."
As he finished his rushed speech he focused his burning eyes on the white rug beneath his feet. He dreaded Blairs response. The trust between them had been dented so much recently he didn't know if it would survive this latest screwup. He only knew that he wouldnt exist if his guide walked away now.
He was so lost in his nightmare he didn't register Blair sitting down beside him until he clasped his hand in his and raised it to his lips.
Jim slowly lifted his gaze to that beloved face, and mentally thanked every deity he could think of for the love that shone there.
"Its okay Jim I understand now," Blair softly uttered kissing his sentinels fingers again. "Were together now that is what matters."
Blair felt jim relax a little at his soft words, but he had one more thing to add.
"For future reference…NO MORE SECRETS. No big, small or in between ones. We both know they always come back and bite you were it hurts. Agreed?"
Jim nodded his agreement. He knew Blairs was right. This just wasn't worth the risk to their relatiship.
"So what do we have to do before we can crash?" Blair enquired ending their emotional conflab and moving on.
"Well if you go through that door," Jim said following Blairs lead. "Youll find a kitchen with stocked cupboards of dried and tinned produce. If you rustle up something Ill go get the car out of sight."
"Fine by me. But one little thing first…"
then Jim couldn't say anything for he found his mouth captured by a hot and hungry fiend. And this fiend was giving no quarter. He needed and he was going to have his fill…Now.
Jim felt his own primative instincts erode the weel educated, reserved man whom society saw. He heard the hungry moans ripped from as Blairs teeth nipped at his corded neck.
Jim felt his body ready its self for his mate
My mate this man isnt just my lover. Hes the other half of my soul"The car can wait…"he muttered huskily as his hands found their way through the many layers to reach Blairs hot smooth skin. "Blair please…let me love you,"he pleaded.
Blair shuddered then replied in a whisper, " Im yours."
"MINE,"the Jaguar roared.
