Disclaimer: I do not own Summerland only a few characters you won't recognize and all that jazz…

A/N: Hmmm Well I like this story…its fun to write and it's going to be a lot like my life and I'm going to make it so it relates more to a lot of people's lives…well here's the next chapter!

Rumors, Parties, and Plans

Tuesday- Well this is sort of annoying now everyone is spreading stuff again and this time its true! I'm such and idiot why did I sleep with Shawn! Ughh I hate my life right now. I wish there was a way for everyone in school to see how I really am not the bullshit they put me through and the image that I put up that doesn't even exist! NO ONE IS PERFECT! I might be Hope White but I'm not perfect…and I don't want to be

Slowly, Hope let the journal close and latched it with the little strap. Slipping it under her pillow she fell asleep. The day was going to be torture she thought and closing her eyes knew she was right.

When she got to school the next day, the moment she walked into the door, whispers spread almost like water on a hot frying pan. Sizzled and changed into something completely different. She had pride too and had to make sure it wasn't completely destroyed with everyone talking.

When she walked into class for the first time in the day she smiled when she saw Bradin looking at her and smiling. "Hey" he said to her biting his lip. Hope wanted to melt right then and there.

"Hey" she responded. Was it possible that he didn't know about her and the reputation?

Bradin wasn't sure what to think. She seemed nice enough and this was high school right? Anything could happen; rumors go around all the time. "So umm Hope do you by any chance have a screen name?" she smiled, why was Bradin all of the sudden making her smile when no one else did?

She looked at Shawn who narrowed his eyes and then licked his lips. She gave him a warning look and flipping her hair turned towards Bradin. "Yeah it…" she pulled out a piece of paper and wrote it down.

"I'll be on tonight so IM me and I'll know it's you cool" he laid his hand on the desk and smiled, nodding. "Cool, well I'll see you around Hope" he gave her a quick two finger salute as the bell rang. Staring after him she almost tripped on her book bag. What was happening to the 'no attachments, no relationships, live for the moment' Hope? Was it possible she actually fell for someone for real? Shaking her head she followed some of the people out of the classroom and walked down the hall the last period of the day.

After school was over Hope stayed after for practice. Pulling her shorts and shirt on in a few minutes the rest of the girls had joined her in the locker room. "So White, what happened…have fun with Shawn" some of them laughed but the most 'intimidating' one was Marcy. She tried to act like she ruled the school but in reality there was no such thing as popularity.

Hope was the way she was because she was on Student Government, head cheerleader, and Prom Committee. Always sweet to everyone, word somehow got around and everyone seemed to know her.

"Marcy, I don't have time for you shit, we need to get to practice…let's go" she got up and grabbing the maroon and gold pom-poms headed out to the gym. The guys' basketball team came in and one of the other guys walking with Shawn looked at her and screamed.

"SLUT!" the team laughed as the girls followed Hope out to the gym for practice.

"Whatever" Hope disregarded the comments deciding that it wasn't worth arguing over. She wanted practice to end so she could go home and talk to Bradin. Slapping her head with her hand she groaned.

"Why am I like this…I've never liked anyone for real like that…this is just a physical attraction, right? Right…ok so I'm going to just talk to him and maybe hook up with him and then its all it is…I don't need a real relationship I'm Hope…it's not me" she convinced herself enough so she could concentrate on practice.

After she packed up her stuff she headed out to her car and Michelle followed her.

"Hey girl…I'm sorry about them Hope angel…I hate this stupid reputation…just clear up the rumor and we're cool" tears appeared in Hope's eyes. She shook her head and through tears managed to mumble, "It's not a rumor" Michelle wasn't surprised.

Being Hope's friend was a strange life, she always seemed to get in trouble, got high, drank, and there wasn't much to her but looks. Michelle held her friend and stroking her hair tried to comfort her. They cared about each other and somehow could always talk to one another. Michelle was sure she knew Hope inside and out.

"Hey how about a party Saturday night?" she asked. Hope shrugged not really caring much for being the ultimate hook-up girl.

"Sure I don't care" she turned around and ignoring Michelle got into her car and pulled out. You know you've hit bottom when even your best friend doesn't know you for real Hope thought as the tears blurred her vision again.

She got home and logged online hoping with everything in her that Bradin was going to be on. The moment she got on about 5 windows popped up. Most of them were people that thought she was friends with them but truthfully Hope didn't know most of their names even. Suddenly, a new window popped up asking her permission to accept, Hope accepted with a smile on her face.

xXxSurferboiixXx: Hey it's Bradin

0xXHopeAngelXx0: Hey whatsup! Damn am I glad to talk to you

She hadn't meant that to slip out but somehow it did…

xXxSurferboiixX: …me? Why me all of the sudden lolzz

0xXHopeAngelXx0: lol I don't know somehow I'm sick of everyone who knows me…you don't knoe me and cant spread rumors yet lol

Bradin was confused, he didn't get it. Why was she being so secretive and why was he all of the sudden the person she wanted to talk to? It was Hope White…the prettiest girl in school, why was she talking to him anyways?

xXxSurferboiixXx Oh well I don't judge people before I know them usually…so yeah didn't get to talk to you much in class today, how's life…heard you and that Shawn guy together or somthin?

Something clutched at Hope's stomach; she didn't want him to know the truth

0xXHopeAngelXx0: No way, true we went out but it was a one time thing lol…he's not my type

xXxSurferboiixX: Ok then what is your type :-p

0xXHopeAngelXx0: Hm…I don't have a type lol…not the relationship type of girl but I guess I like guys who are confident, don't judge me for shit I've done and don't call me a slut or a whore!

xXxSurferboiixX: I would never do that! Why the hell do they call you that you're so sweet

Hope smiled how he was flirting with her, she loved it!

0xXHopeAngelXx0:Well it doesn't get you anywhere being sweet if you're a girl…you end up attracting the wrong crowd and then well…you end up where I am

xXxSurferboiixX: I'm sorry that really sux….wish I could help :'( but umm hey I sorta gotta go but are you going to Mike's party?

0xXHopeAngelXx0: Thanx I can handle it but its sweet that you care…and yeah I am going….y u gonna be there?

xXxSurferboiixX: If you will…then yeah ;)

0xXHopeAngelXx0:HAHAHA yur suchhh a flirtttt westerly has anyone told yu that!

xXxSurferboiixX:p maybee

0xXHopeAngelXx0: lol ok im gonna let you go cuzz I'm bout to get yelled at too…so I'll cyaa at the party?

xXxSurferboiixX: Yup…lataahhss

xXxSurferboiixX signed off.

Jumping with joy Hope got off the computer. She couldn't wait till Saturday this party would be amazing! The next few days at school went by sort of fast and she didn't really care that people were spreading shit, this was going to be the best party ever! Only because Bradin would be there.