Cant See Stars During a Tornado
Summary: See chapter 1 and on.
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Disclaimer: I own it all, Luke, Lorelai, Rory, and Jess are all mine. alarm clock goes off Huh? What? Dam it was just a dream. Oh well. 33 Gilmore Girls belongs to Amy Sherman-Palladino.
(A/N: There is a a part about Lukes mother in this story. I dont remeber ever hearing her name in the show so im just gonna name her Diana. Ive read stories that have said that she died in child birth with Liz and other stories that have said that she died of life threatening illnesses and im not sure if Luke or anyone else mentioned it in any of the episodes. Im not really sure but for this story I'm just gonna say that she died of Cancer. Hope that that dosent make anyone mad or pissed off at me or anything. If it does I appologize. Just please dont kill me.)
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Chapter 6: Memories of Both Good and Bad Past
By: CripticWolf
Rory and Lane were having a ball going through the boxes. "Oh my god I remember these! I used to have these CD's but I had to hide them outside so that my parents' wouldn't find them. Rory remind me when we go over for another Friday night in hell to check the crooked tree in the back, okay?" Lorelai said with a huge smile, remembering her past memories. Rory made a mental note and went back to her own interesting item. This made Luke happy. He loved to see Lorelai smile and he was afraid that she had been bored and starting to regret the idea of coming to his place. "Yeah the magazines are interesting." Lane said looking at an old music magazine. Luke looked at her like she was crazy. He thought that she was just saying that to make him feel good. "No we're serious. This is fun." Rory reassured him after seeing the look on his face.
Lorelai picked a picture up out of one of the boxes and started to laugh hysterically. "Oh my god! Rory, look at this!" Rory did as she was told and walked over to look at what was making her mother laugh so hard.
"Oh my gosh! That's hilarious! We have to put that up in town!" Rory blurted out at first sight of the picture where Luke was strangling Kirk. When Lane reacted in the same way Luke couldn't stand it. 'What's so funny?'
"What the hell is so funny?" He said, thinking that it was probably a picture of him.
"This picture. Luke this is hilarious! I'm not giving this back, EVER." Lorelai was determined to keep the picture at all costs. In the picture Luke was choking Kirk with Sookie, Jackson, Andrew, and Liz all looking at them laughing. It looked like they were at some kind of party. Actually Lorelai was quite sure that that's what it was from the cups they were all holding and the lights all around.
"Why are you killing Kirk? Rory asked grinning clearly curious.
"Uh... not sure really. I was probably drunk that's why I cant remember." Luke replied honestly.
Rory and Lane laughed then went back to the magazines they were reading before. Lorelai continued looking at the pictures stopping at one of Luke, Andrew and Jackson. They were teenagers probably around 16 she guessed. All three had beer bottles in there hands and Andrew was putting Luke in chokehold. Not seriously just messing around. She could tell it wasn't serious cause Luke would have been killing him for one and for two they were all laughing, clearly wasted. She could see it in their eyes, and despite the obvious fun she could swear that Lukes eyes had a hint of emotional pain and hurt in them.
Luke just sat there staring at her, his head resting against the wall where he was sitting. He loved the way she looked when she was concentrating and thinking about something. He was falling asleep also but desperately trying to stay awake. Just as his eyes started to close he heard another one of his windows breaking followed by the sound of the harsh winds0 and rumbling of the thunder. All four jumped at the sound. The storm hadn't died down any at all but increased its intensity. Luke was pissed but there was nothing he could do about it so he took a deep breath and sighed heavily letting his head fall back against the wall with a thud.
Lorelai could see that he was pissed and she felt bad that now 3 of his diner's windows were broke from the stupid storm. But on the other hand she was happy about the storm because she was at Lukes, learning more about him and his life.
Luke opened his eyes and looked at her when he felt her eyes on him. Feeling foolish and rude for staring at him she just smiled and went back to the pictures. Luke smiled back and was about to relax again when an envelope sticking out of the box caught his eye. He didn't recognize it and it looked like it had never even been open. He leaned away from the wall and grabbed the dusty, worn envelope. Carefully he opened it and unfolded the old piece of paper in it making sure not to rip the delicate, worn-out paper and began reading it slowly...
To My Dearest Children Lucas and Elizabeth,
I Love you and always will. When you both were born those moments had been the happiest moments in my life, along with your father of course. No matter what happenes I will always love you two. Your both the reason I held on this long and I am sorry but its just getting so hard. I want you both to know that I love you and to never give up in life.
Lizzy: I love you so much and I never want you to forget that. You're the greatest little girl I could have ever hoped for. I know that you are still too young to read this but I'm sure that your brother or father will help. Good luck in the future and I know that you will be a beautiful you lady and make someone a wonderful wife. Be nice to your brother you know he loves you more then anything in the world. And never give up always do good; your best in fact and never let anyone tell you anything that you don't believe.
Lucas: You are wonderful. I never have any problems with you. You're a great kid and I'm sure that you'll be an even greater man. I want you to do well in school, graduate and have a wonderful, fulfilling career. I'm confident that you will. I couldn't have asked for a better son, you're everything I could have wished for and more. I see you becoming a great person in the future Luke and I want you to make sure you follow your dreams. Don't let anything come between them. When you finally settle down with the woman that you love I'm sure that you'll be happy. Your going to make someone a great husband and you'll be a great father some day. I just hope that you take the opportunities that life gives you and make someone of yourself, someone that you 'want' to be. Never let anyone tell you that you cant do anything and never disbelieve in yourself.
Take care of your sister for me Lucas and I'm sorry I wont be able to see the both of you grow up. I really am sorry. Take care and I Love you both more then anything.
Love always your mother,
Diana Kathryn Danes
Luke felt a knot forming in his throat and tears threatening to escape his eyes. Swallowing hard he closed his eyes letting a single tear slid down his cheek. While reading the letter he had completely forgotten that he had company. His heart hurt and his eyes burned. It had been so long since he had cried about anything, especially his mother. He never cried for her no matter how much people told him to. She had told him not to cry for her when she died and that she was very proud of the man he was becoming. When he didn't see his dad cry he didn't cry. Just locked it away and moved on. But then when his dad had died he never got a chance to cry. Too many things were happening at that time, Liz, funeral plans, hospital bills, school, and the store. But now he couldn't help it. He was loosing a battle with his tears and it all fell apart when he saw the date on the paper and a picture of his mother and father and him in the living room of their house the first day hat they brought Liz home from the hospital. Tracing it with his thumb. The picture was taken 4 years earlier but the letter was dated just 3 days before she died. He felt guilty all of a sudden. This letter was supposed to be read years ago but it never was, it was just collecting dust in a box that he dumped in his closet after his father died.
Lorelai noticed how quiet Luke was and looked up from the pics she was looking at. His head was bent down and there was a letter in his hands. She couldn't see his face completely but she could tell that he was fighting to keep tears at bay. She had never seen him that way before, like he was truly about to break down and cry. She wondered what was on that paper to make him that way. Luckily Rory and Lane didn't notice they were sitting on the other side of the apartment reading some old magazines still. She saw him take in a heavy, shaky breath as if it were painful and close his eyes as a tear fell from one of them. For the first time since he took the boxes out she realized that it must be painful for him to think about all the memories of his past. She stared at him with sympathetic eyes lost in though. 'Oh my god he's actually crying. I hope he's okay. This must be so hard for him. God what a great friend I am. Just now realizing this... I wonder what's on that piece of paper to break him that way... What if it's a letter from Rachel or another girlfriend of his? Oh my go- Oh Christ, am I jealous! How can I be jealous? He's just my friend and he's obviously in pain right now. I have to see if he's all right; but how? What do I say to him, I know pretty much nothing about his past.'
Luke looked up when he finally realized that he wasn't alone. 'Dammit' He thought. He stood up abruptly and quickly said, "I ah... I have to ah... go fix the... thing. Down stairs." It was obvious to everyone in the room that he wasn't okay and that he was lying so he could get out of the room. After he finished saying that, a very emotional and embarrassed Luke dropped the letter and hurried down the stairs. When he remembers about the storm he walked back the storage room, grabbing a beer on the way. He needed to be alone. He couldn't let them see him like that, without his tuff-guy resolve. He couldn't let them see him cry, especially over something so stupid. But was it stupid? Really?
The End of Chapter 6
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Okay its 3:43 am right now on a saturday. Im so sorry. I have been majorly pissed lately cause ive wanted to write but was to tired to cause of school. GOD 9th grade sucks. Its only been 3 days and i already hate it. I am so bored from it. So far ive already fallen asleep in all of my classes. Its so annoying cause they are doing construction on my HS and now every possible short cut is now unavailable due to them not wanting us to get hurt so now we have to go the long way all the time. Okay soory enough of my ramling i kno you all probaly dont care. I will try to update ASAP. Although it probaly wont be until next weekend. Sorry.
About my other story A Friday Night Fight Equals A Bad Accident, I have some writers block with that story at the moment but I will try to get a nother chap up tomorrow but that may not be possible so it may be later this week or next week end... again sorry.
