Cant See Stars During A Tornado
Warning: This chapter may not be good for everyone. It revolves strongly on the topic/speak of Cancer. Dont read if easily offened by the subject.
A/N: Sorry if I offend anybody. I appologize if it does. So here is just another chapter. Hope you enjoy...
Chapter 7: An Eplanations and A Move
By: Cripticwolf
Rory and Lane just stood there confused and concerned while Lorelai walked over to the letter and read it. Her eyes filled with tears as she read over the worn letter slowly. Then it dawned on her why it had affected him so much. It was from his mother. Her hand rose to her mouth as tears fell down her eyes. She stared at the stairs for a few minutes, and calmed her crying down all the way but it was still evident in her eyes that she had been and turned to Rory and Lane.
"Um... Rory, Lane I'll be right back. I'm going to go see if he needs help."
"Mom? What just happened? Is he okay? I mean I've never seen Luke like that before and I've known him basically my whole life and I happen to know that there is nothing for him to be doing down there so what's up?" Rory asked concerned for the man that has always been in her life and that she considered as a father figure.
"I don't know Rory." Lorelai said truthfully equally if not more concerned. "But I'm gonna go talk to him and make sure he's alright. Stay here and finish what you two were doing. We'll be back in a few minutes." With that Lorelai slowly made her way down the stairs to the diner. She checked the kitchen and the restrooms but he wasn't there, which left only one more place... the storage room.
Luke sat down on a few boxes and took a swig of his beer, leaning his head back against the wall he took a deep breath and closed his eyes. He couldn't believe that letter had managed to rattle him so much, and after all these years. For as long as he had remembered he had always been able to holdback his emotions, but reading that one letter sent painful aches and memories through him. 'Geez they all must think that I'm insane. I can't believe I just ran away up there. I have to go fix something downstairs, psh. Yeah Luke great job real believable.' He took another deep breath, which led to an even bigger sigh, just as Lorelai walked in.
"Wow. Big sigh." She said softly.
"Yeah well... look I'm sorry about up there⦠Just walking away like that. Its just- I didn't kno..." Lorelai could tell that it was hard for him to find the right words so she interrupted. He would let her in eventually when he wanted to, or at least that's what she hoped.
"Its alright Luke. Its your house, your stuff, you had every rite to do whatever you wanted to or want to for that matter."
He looked up at her and saw here pinkish eyes. 'Dammit! I even managed to make her miserable. Unbelievable...'
"You read it huh?" He asked redirecting his gaze to the swishing liquid inside the bottle he was holding.
Lorelai was a little taken back by his question. "What?"
"The letter that I dropped before. You read it right?"
She shouldn't have read it and she began to feel bad for intruding. Should she lie and tell him she didn't or should she tell him that she had and that she was sorry. "Luke I... I'm sorry; I didn't mean to invade your privacy... I shouldn't have rea-" He cut her off.
"Lorelai its all right. I don't care if you read it or not. But I guess you would like to know more about it" He looked at her and she knew that she should say no but thought that maybe him talking about it would make him feel better. Luke hated talking about things and if she knew him like she thought she did then he never talked about it with anyone before.
"Um okay... but only if you want to. I'm not gonna batter you with questions or anything like that. Only what you want to talk about we'll talk about." Lorelai was a little panicked. She didn't want something to happen to screw up there friendship... AGAIN.
Luke reached down and grabbed a beer out of the little fridge and handed it to her grinning slightly and touched by how concerned she was of him. It made him feel good. Anything with her made him feel good. 'Geez I love this woman. There's not one thing wrong with her and not one thing I would ever change.' Luke took a deep breath bracing himself for his past memories; the ones he packed up in a box along time ago and let collect dust until today. Lorelai saw him and walked over to sit next to him on the bunch of boxes. After taking one big gulp of his beer Luke began and Lorelai listened intently.
"Well I guess I should probably tell you how my mother died. That is if you want to know about it." Lorelai nodded and squeezed his hand for reassurance. She knew this was going to be hard for him, in fact even though she didn't really agree with her mother on everything she knew that if the situation were reversed that she probably wouldn't be able to do it at all. Admiring his strength and wanting to know more about him she waited for him to continue.
"Okay well, when I was about five or six I remember my mom had been having horrible pains in and around her lungs when she would breath so when she went to the doctor they told her that she had Lung cancer and it was in a very bad stage. She ended up getting to Chemo for around 3 years and had about 4 overall surgeries to try and remove the entire tumor. They were a success and the doctors had said how strong she was and how she astounded them will to fight it. I remember that my dad never left her side." He paused for a few minutes holding back tears then continued somewhat shakily.
"She was doing really well for a few years later when I was about 11 she went back in the hospital for pains and was diagnosed with Leukemia." Luke saw that she was sort of lost about what exactly Leukemia was besides just a Cancer, that much she knew, so he explained to her what it was as he continued.
"It's a disease that prevents your body from being able to fight infections and once she diagnosed she was determined to fight it, but it was just to much for her. Her lung cancer returned and she began getting very sick very often. She fought for another 2 years before she gave in. She must have known she was gonna go cause that letter was addressed 3 days before she died." He sighed. Part of him felt a little better being able to talk about it but he was still fighting his tears more now then before. Lorelai rubbed his back and he started to let a few fall from his eyes as he remembered the night that she died. "God Lorelai... I... I feel like I could have done something... I wish I could have done something. I feel like an asshole for just stuffing that stuff in those boxes and letting them collect dust. That letter should have been read then, not twenty something years later."
"Luke you know its okay to cry and that none of it was your fault. The letter was just misplaced. The important part is that you've read it and I think that's what she wanted." He smiled at her.
"Thanks. I feel better, really. All cause of you." He said sincerely.
"No problem. You're always here when I need a shoulder to cry on or someone to just talk to. I'm happy to repay the favor."
They heard a soft rumble of thunder but within seconds it erupted and boomed from outside. The lights flickered on and off and once again Lorelai jumped to Luke only this time she was practically on his lap. They stared into each other's eyes for a few minutes then Luke made a move that he hoped he wouldn't regret.
END OF CHAPTER 7
TBC...
Okay really sorry if this chapter sucks. I appologize if i got any facts wrong or screwed anything up. My mind wasnt completely in this chap when i was writing it so sorry if it sucks. I kept getting interupted constantly when i was writing it. Plus i actually fell asleep at my desk...lol.. I kno that this chapter was depressing but I promise the story will get better from here on out. Its actually coming close to an end.
Is it just me or are my chapters getting suckier as i go? Will update soon that is if you still want me too. Please review but be nice to me:)
