Ok, I swear, this is one of my more depressing fics, so erm, yeah. I recommend it, lots of angst, but dang sweet. I don't own anyone. Enjoy!
Lily looked at the lake. It was dark and peaceful. She didn't know what to do. Just 3 days ago, James Potter, the arrogant brat had kissed her. She had no idea she would actually be having the thoughts… If someone had told her a few days ago that she would like James Potter, she would have laughed herself sick. But now… She didn't know. He knew everything about her, her sister, whom she told NO-ONE, not even her best friends about. Her Mother abusing her. Her father remaining blissfully un-aware.
how
can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my
core
where I've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping
somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home wake
me up inside
wake me up inside
call my name and save me from
the dark
bid my blood to run
before I come undone
save me
from the nothing I've become
She couldn't believe it. He had looked into her eyes and asked her why she was scared. She had obviously denied it, but that didn't stop it from being true. She WAS scared. Her mother. Her father, he had died. And at least when he was around, she didn't get beaten up. Now, he was gone. And her mother showed NO resentment at all. Why should she? She was just with her father to get to his gold. Now she had it. Her father had been so blissfully in LOVE with his second wife that he had left everything to her, and nothing to her daughter. She looked up at the moon and prayed for Goddess Luna to save her…
now that I know what I'm without
you can't just
leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life
When he kissed her, it was like he awoke something with in her. Like, rebelliousness. Like, power. Like bravery. Like love. She was truly confused. Now she hoped that god Helios came and consumed her. She didn't want this anymore.
wake
me up inside
wake me up inside
call my name and save me from
the dark
bid my blood to run
before I come undone
save me
from the nothing I've become
bring me to life
James walked up behind her. "Lily." He greeted.
"James."
"why have you been avoiding me?"
"-silence-"
"is it because you don't know what to think anymore? Trust me Lily, you're not the only one. I know how your parents are… Mine are like that too. My father thinks I'm underachieving and my mother just turns a blind eye."
"How do you know about my life?"
"I listen. I see the way you smile. I've heard you. Whenever you're ill, I'm in the hospital wind, listening to you talk in you're sleep, thinking that the last thing you would've said to the boy wait, I'm a man, who loves you so much, is 'SOD OFF POTTER' and I know I'm irritating, but you have to know that I DO love you and nothing you say can change that, no matter how much you hate me, love can be one-way too. I can remain single and worship the ground you walk on for the rest of my life." He said with a smile lighting up his handsome features.
Lily laughed, a soft sound like tinkering bells.
frozen
inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the
life among the dead
"You know James, there's something about you… You make me feel comfortable. And about yesterday night…"
"I'm sorry."
"No, James, no." Lily said, and she leaned over and kissed him on the lips, silencing him. James was startled, but he was soon lost in the kiss, his hand caressing her exposed neck.
all
this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you
were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it
seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought
without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must
be something more
bring me to life
Lily lay with her head in James' lap. He held on to her had. All of a sudden, he felt a scar. He alerted and followed it. It lead up all the way to her shoulder. He looked at her questioningly.
"my mother… she did that to me with knives…" she said. James' eyes burned with anger.
"Any one who harms MY Lily, will pay." She smiled.
"It's all in the past. Now I DO have something to look forward to."
"what might that be?"
"you."
He smiled and lifted up his shirt. (A/N: NO YOU PERVY PERCY'S NOT FOR SX…) Lily saw long scars on his muscled body. She fingered them with long graceful fingers and a tear leaked.
"What's wrong love?"
"I can't believe that I was so mean to you. I must have made you hurt so much."
"Lily, my heart shattered, but then seeing you smile super-glued it back."
"I love you James. I always have. I just didn't want to get hurt again."
"Lily, I love you too. And if anyone harms you, I'll fight with my life."
"James, I will too."
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