4/11/2006

School is coming to a close.

I'm …not graduating…

Wow… I can't believe it.

I've tried so hard, but it's all over…

Now there IS nothing left… Why me?

Hikari won't even talk to me,

Not even Takeru,

I wonder if ever they were my friends.

To be honest, I really can't answer that question…

But I don't think that they were…

Well, I guess I better quit school, and get a job.

Money doesn't grow on trees.

I've already moved out.

Mom doesn't know yet. I hope.

I think that this would cause her too much

Heart ache.

Well, looks like I'll be becoming my

Dad,

A low educated human,

Whop turns his back on his own family…

Therapy is getting to be way too much as well.

I wish I could change everything around.

Hikari left me…

Gone, forever…

Leaving me behind,

To rot by myself…

I find myself sitting alone a lot now,

No one ever visits me.

I think I know why…

The police always check up on me,

Wondering if I get my hands on a knife,

I'm still thinking why not?

Maybe it won't be as bad…

Shit there coming…

(Scratches were written down in the journal, made by his rash actions to write and run, but they read: Now I can full fill my lifes sentence, be with my grandparents, up in the big, blue sky…)