I love her but I cannot.
Details: This is a short vignette about Jon-Lu Kai, a Jedi in the Old Jedi Order during the time of the Clone Wars. He is a highly regarded Jedi Knight in the Order and has been on many missions throughout the Galaxy with his Master Len Vendo-Du.
He will become the father to a daughter who will become, Emalee Skywalker later in his journey through life. But at this time, of this vignette, he is a Jedi and is painfully so at the time of the Clone Wars in love with a Senator and Princess from the planet of Penna (an original planet) Caryl de Oshahoska (Emalee's future mother.) The two because of the times and because of his duty as a Jedi are not able to be any more then friends, even though Jon-Lu loves Caryl desperately.
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I love her but I cannot.
I see her across a crowded room and I love her, but I cannot.
At this time of war, we are from different galaxies all together.
She a politician, I a Jedi.
She can love, have attachments, be loved.
Have feelings.
But I cannot for I am a Jedi.
Love is forbidden, attachment forbidden, even to be loved is forbidden.
There is no Emotion, there is Peace
There is no Ignorance, there is Knowledge
There is no Passion, there is Serenity
There is no Death, There is the Force
Feelings are forbidden.
But why?
Why can I not her?
I know I do.
She is my friend, my mentor, my everything!
When I see the gold of her blonde hair, I am reminded of the sun touching the shores of my childhood planet I remember nothing of.
When I see the green of her eyes, I am reminded of the lush fields that grow after the frost of the winter of the distant pastures.
When I hear her laugh, I wonder if angels really have voices for her laugh of happiness and joy is the song that heaven if there is one, was created for, for the angels to be.
For she is an angel, my angel.
But I cannot love her because of who I am and who she is.
Even if she were a Jedi, I would not be able to love her.
But why can I not love her?
Why is love forbidden, attachment forbidden, even to be loved is forbidden?
Will there be a time, in my life when I can love her? When I don't feel like I am going against my role as a Jedi, as a Man because I do?
Or will I die on the battlefield protecting a Republic we both love and honor, taking my love for her to my grave?
Until there is a time, hopefully a time, that I can announce my love to her, I will watch her from across the crowded room and love her, but I cannot.
