Hermione grabbed Emma and quickly excused herself. "I am going to go and check on her" lily said a little uncomfortably as she fled the room.
"I-I" Remus started. "I really wish I knew what to say"
"I have few things I could say" Harry said coming into the room and facing his godfather. James stepped up and hushed his son with a look.
Sirius sat down still not meeting the eyes of everyone in the room, "I don't know how to explain," Sirius started weakly, "I guess, all I can say is I love her. I know it is wrong and I have tried to keep anything from happening but I am weak when it comes to Hermione."
"You love her" Harry echoed, "I don't understand. When did this happen?"
"I always thought Hermione as admirable" Sirius said smiling, "She always reminded me a little of Lily. Driven, loyal, loving and intelligent. The I saw her as a woman, a beautiful woman, with a somewhat empty life. It attracted me because I felt she could understand me, my life has always been a little empty too"
Harry broke the silence, "I am sorry I can't listen to this" Harry snapped. "She is my age has that completely missed you?"
"I know Harry that's why I haven't done anything, well I tried but some things just happen"
"Whoa, Whoa" Harry said holding his hand up, "Are you telling me you and Hermione…"Harry trailed off. He looked at Sirius with disgust. "I can't believe you". Before Sirius could say another word Harry stormed out of the room.
"Don't worry Padfoot, he will come around" James said. James looked over at Remus, who nodded his head in agreement. Sirius smiled at his friends thankful for their support.
"I appreciate guys but he's right. No matter what I feel for Hermione, being with her is wrong," Sirius sighed, "I don't blame Harry"
"I used to think that being with Tonks was wrong" Remus confided, "I thought she deserved someone younger, someone with more money, someone who wasn't a werewolf. But after a while I realized something, it doesn't matter. All that matters is that I love her. The same applies to you Padfoot."
"Again I appreciate you're support but I can't be with Hermione. Both of our lives are a little too complicated" Sirius concluded. He stood up and headed for the door. "I need to get some air. I will see you all later"
James watched Sirius leave with a somber expression. "Excuse me Moony" James said, 'I need to go speak with my son". " Remus nodded and waived James off.
Lily found Hermione putting Emma to bed, she knocked the on the door to get her attention. The young girl turned around and seemed relieved to see Lily standing there. 'Oh, Lily" Hermione wailed and threw her arms around the older woman's neck. "Everything is wrong"
"It's ok" Lily said in a soothing tone. "It's all going to be ok"
"I love him," Hermione admitted. "I love himermione's attention. The young girl turned aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
So much"
Lily was quiet for a moment and looked at Hermione, "If you're sure that you love him, why aren't you with him?" Lily asked softly.
"Because Harry would hate me. Because Emma doesn't need to be raised in an environment that could cause drama. Because he scares me," Hermione confessed.
"What do you mean he scares you?' Lily asked a little alarmed.
"I mean Sirius is impulsive and free spirited. I guess I am terrified if I opened my heart to him he would break it" Hermione told her.
"Love is about taking risks," Lily explained to her, 'I took a risk on James and that was the best risk of my life"
Hermione sighed and shook her head, "I understand what you are trying say but I am sorry I have never been one to take risks."
Lily kissed Hermione on the forehead, "It all work out in the end," Lily whispered, 'I promise"
Harry opened the door, "Well you can certainly pick them can't you" Harry spat. Hermione cringed at his tone and tried to find someway to defend herself but her head was swimming.
"What cat got your tongue" Harry continued his voice growing colder, 'or did you leave it in Sirius's mouth"
"Harry" Lily admonished. Harry turned and left the room quickly. Lily looked at Hermione apologetically. 'I am sorry. Please excuse me I have to have a word with my son"
Lily stepped out into the hallway closing the door gently behind her. She turned to go down the stairs and ran into her husband.
"Where is your son?" They asked simultaneously. They sprinted down the stairs and found Harry in the kitchen.
"Apparently being raised by my sister did nothing for your manners" Lily commented.
"Don't start" Harry replied as he poured a glass of water.
"Don't take that tone with your mother" James told him. "The way you spoke to Sirius was uncalled for and I am assuming you pulled a similar stunt with Hermione. Why are you acting like child?"
"I am not going to stand here and listen to this" Harry snapped and headed for the floo. "If anyone needs me I will be at Ginny's"
Lily and James exchanged a look after their son was gone, not really knowing what to do.
"We have to let Harry come to terms with everything on his own" Lily said a moment later.
"And let Sirius and Hermione deal with their issues in their own time too" James replied.
